Angel in Disguise (English)

Chapter 5

Ken's POV

"Ayesha!" He immediately took Ayesha on his arms. She's not crying anymore but I doubt if she's really fine. She's been silent since we came home.

"God! Why did you go home? Did she hurt you?" He checked her face and her arms for any scratch. He sighed in relief when he saw nothing.

Her brother looks so worried about her. He was frantic when I called him, he's so nervous I think he can fly to reach their home when I told him about what happened. It sounded overacting but when I saw how he hugged his sister, it felt like I was worried too.

"Go take a rest now, I'll buy some food outside. I'll talk to Ken too." He kissed her forehead. She nodded before she turned to look at me.

"Thank you Ken," I watch her eyes flicker to me.

I smiled, "It's okay, go to sleep." She reached out for a smile before she entered her bedroom.

Her brother sighed. I followed him when he go out.

"Thank you Ken, I'm glad you were there. I can't forgive myself if something bad happened again."

My forehead creased, "Again?"

He sighed. "Ayesha is too innocent to be blamed. But she always gets hurt. Last time, she was hospitalized because mom hit her head with a bottle of wine."

I clenched my fist unconciously, "She hit her? How can she do that?" I thought Dr.Alcantara is a nice person. I've met her in the hospital, she was Kim's doctor before, the one she asked a favor with. What happened to her?

"She's mentally ill,"

I want to ask what happened, why is she like that to Ayesha? How can she hurt her own daughter? Suddenly, I have so many questions to ask. I perfectly know she's well for the past few weeks we've been together. But I also know I'm not on the proper position to ask.

I just can't believe she can hurt Ayesha like that. She looks so fragile and soft and alluring that I can't even imagine there's no mom who takes good care of her. I mean, everyone knows that she's a good person. Ofcourse I'll expect that she was raised by the warmth of good parents. How can she be so warm-hearted when her own mother had almost killed her?

"By the way, are you two classmates?"

"Ah no, we're friends. Earl can't give her a ride that's why I volunteered."

"I just hope I can trust you with my sister. I'm getting busier and no one can attend to her. I think I can't always ask Earl to help her."

"You can count on me,"

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"Guys, we can't just stay like this forever." Larry retorted. She looks like a frustrated panda right now. The dark circles under her lashes makes her belong to those cute animals.

"It's been almost a month, wake up people, we can't just mourn for the rest of our lives!"

"Can you just shut up? You're not helping."

"And which one helps? Mourning everyday? Like hello Cuttie, Kim is dying over and over again because we can't move on. Do you guys think she's happy right now?"

I just watch the two of them argue about moving on. Well, for me, it's not really that easy. But I think I just learned that I was really meant to let her go.

Kim was the first girl I liked so much, the first girl I loved after my mom. She's the most amazing girl I've met that's why I fell inlove with her that easy. I want to stop myself at first because I know she's inlove with somebody else, with Xian. But when I saw how she's hurting, I decided to offer myself to her.

I did everything to help her, I tried everything so she'll feel loved. I didn't care about myself, I just want her to be happy because I know she deserves that. But then it all happened.

I must admit that I thought I'll go crazy. I can't believe she really left us. I let her go because I know she'll be happier with Xian, because I want her to be happy. But she was taken away from us, not only from but from all of us.

Fate is really playful and unfair. But I always believe that everything happens for a reason.

"Look at Ken! He's been helping hisself? Guys it hurts but we need to move on,"

She sighed when no one dared to answer.

"Let them be, Larry. We can't just dictate them to move on. Where's Xian?"

I haven't noticed him lately. And we haven't had any conversation since he became aloof to everyone, even Armie cannot make him eat or sleep. Xian's like a waste now.

"Ugh, I don't know. You know we can't even go near him."

"You should go and find him. He needs someone to talk to."

"And why me?"

I smiled, "Because I know you can."

She glared at me and I just gave her a peace sign. Larry and I became a part of their friendship. I wasn't there when this circle had started, I wasn't able to witness how they grew up together as a family but I know and I can feel how much they love Kim.

I sighed. I shouldn't think of her again, I want to get over of the pain for a while.

I stood up and started stretching but then stopped immediately when I saw Ayesha and her friend Ellyse. They're heading to the cafeteria so I think they'll be having their lunch already. I watch Ayesha laughing with her friend.

I feel so amazed because despite of what happened last night, she still looks fine and fragile. How can she even do that? Usually, family problems are the reason why people are often aloof and sad. But I just find her different, I wonder how strong that girl is.

I decided to leave Larry with the others because I still have classes to attend to. I went to my next class and there I saw Xian sitting at the back while listening to his ipad. I chose to sit far from him, I don't think I have to talk to him since I know his mind is still close to listen to anybody. And I don't want to talk about Kim because I'm trying to not get involved about her for the mean time. I guess that will help me totally get over about her death.

My remaining classes were boring as ever that's why I was rushing when we got dismissed. We have our training today and I have to make up for my attitude these past few days.

I was heading to our headquarters when I saw Ayesha at the hallway. I automatically felt the sides of my mouth forming into a smile when I saw her.

"Ken,"

"Hi, how are you?"

She gave me a small smile, "I'm okay. Uhm ..about last night, thank you. And I'm sorry you had to see that," she looked down while fidgeting.

I don't know why but I find her lips cute because of the way she talks. The way her small lips press together when she's talking is something I find worth watching. She looks so small and cute. I stopped myself from pinching her cheeks.

"It's okay. Your brother already thanked me Ayesha,"

"I'm sorry, I didn't know my mom was there.I feel so embarassed you had to see that," I watch her as she bit her lower lip because of embarrassment.

"I understand the situation. But you could have asked me to drop you on your unit instead. You know to yourself that your mom is capable of hurting you Ayesha, you should avoid her for now." I didn't like the idea that among all people, her mom would even be the one who'll hurt her.

She's someone a parent should be proud of. She's a good leader and a good person. I really can't find reasons why her mom got suddenly mad like that. It's as if she wasn't Kim's doctor before, she changed a lot.

"I didn't know she was drunk. She doesn't hurt me that often. Maybe she was just drunk," She's not good at lying. I can't believe she can cover her mom like that when her brother already told me everything. She's just too good to be true.

"Yeah, maybe. I've met her before and she's not like that, she was Kim's doctor."

"Uh yes, I recommended her to Naomi. A-and about that.. I also want to say sorry for what she did, for keeping Kim's condition, for agreeing to her plan."

"Ayesha.."

"When I learned that Kim asked her to keep the failure of the blood transfusion as a secret, I was so sad and disappointed. Kim could have been saved if only my mom did not agree to her."

I'm not really sure if it's just me or it's sadness I just saw in her eyes. She's sad because of what her mom did? Seriously? This girl is unbelievable.

"Don't say that. We never blamed your mom, Ayesha. It was Kim's decision to keep it from us and we all accepted that without accusing your mom. Come on, you don't have to feel sorry."

"It's just really heartbreaking. I don't understand why of all people, why does it have to be her? She's more deserving than the bad people around us. I just wish she's happy right now, wherever she is I just wish she's happy."

I already expected her to be this kind and different but it caught me offguard to hear her say such things. How can she be so good and fragile at the same time? How can she see things this way when she alone is on her own battle?

I didn't know I already pulled her for a hug. I just felt the need to hug her. For the past few days of being with her, I think I already know who she is. She's an angel.

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