Killing The Alpha

Chapter 5

*Carter POV*

Paige’s revenge plot is all consuming, she thinks that is all she is, she thinks that she is only violence, that there is nothing left within her but hate, she believes that she is rotten and corrupted to the core. She truly believes that she is an empty shell consumed by hatred.

She couldn't be any more wrong, there is so much more to her than she sees, she wouldn't have saved me back then, she wouldn't continue to jump in at any moment to help the little guy out, she wouldn’t train me patiently, she wouldn’t get along with my pack members if that is all she is.

She is so much more, but it doesn't matter how many times I tell her, she never believes me.

I wait in my room, glancing from the TV to the window every couple of moments. Every day ends well as soon as she is in my arms.

I miss her like crazy when she is not around. I know that she doesn’t love me in that way, she loves me in her own way and that is just Paige.

I look at the food on the table and nod happily, I think it is enough for her, they feed her so little at the academy, for some idiotic reason, that id*ot of an alpha that treats a treasure as trash, knows so little about her that he doesn’t even know she has her wolf yet.

Her wolf coupled with her training means the tiny portion sizes at the academy are nowhere near enough to sustain the powerful being.

I arrange myself on the bed trying to look as relaxed as possible yet bunching the abs on my shirtless stomach to look as good as possible.

When Paige first saved me, I was a skinny runt, but thanks to Paige’s influence, I have filled out nicely, mostly thanks to her rigorous training and me trying to make myself as appealing as possible to the violet eyes that I want on me.

There is a knock on the door. I sigh as I breathe in, dammit. I rub my neck and close my eyes as I walk begrudgingly to the door with an annoyed look on my face. I open the door, trying to avert my eyes from the beauty in front of me as I snap at her.

“You can’t be here”

“It is time already”

I breathe deeply, taking in her scent. It doesn’t smell like it, but who am I to judge? I am so impatient, Paige will be here soon. Therefore, Peyton cannot especially saying these words.

“Well Peyton, seriously, how many times have I told you not to come to me with this, especially at this time”

We have been through this so many times and I just feel like she wants to come now as she knows that this is my time with Paige.

I grab her slender wrist, walking over, pulling her behind me as I walk to my Beta, Bryson’s door, knocking and pushing Peyton inside as soon as I get a word from him, before walking back to my own room. I groan as I walk back into my room, slamming the door shut before I lay back on the bed trying to get myself back into position. Trying to hide my annoyance, trying not to think about that, trying to get back to that joyful anticipation I was feeling earlier.

I look back at the window as I jump slightly, a small hand rests on my stomach tracing my abs and a hot breath hits my ear, my thundering heart pounds in my ears.

“Looking good there future alpha”

A familiar scent surrounds me and I try and act casual, like I didn’t completely miss her entry into the room. I roll onto my back staring up at the violet eyes I have been craving to see.

A hint of amusement flashes in those perfect violet orbs as she looks at me. I try and cover over my surprise, but, as per usual, she sees straight through me.

No matter how much I train, I cannot seem to reach her level. I don’t know much about what she went through to be where she is. She only lets me know the bare basics. It is not because she doesn’t trust me, I know that she genuinely takes me as her best friend, it is just because she doesn’t like to speak about what happened.

I know that she has taken numerous lives at the same age that I was getting nightmares from watching scary movies.

I didn’t realize how sheltered I had been until I met her. My pack would have fallen as soon as I took the helm if it hadn’t been for her timely intervention.

“Don’t look at me like that, I knew you were there. I was just giving you a moment to appreciate all this”

I motion down my body with my hands even though I can feel my cheeks heating up under her gaze. She narrows her eyes as her eyes trail up and down my body slowly. Her movements are so quick that I hardly see her, but in the blink of an eye she is sitting over me straddling me.

I take a deep breath in as a familiar pain hits me. I compose myself not letting anything show.

Her slender fingers trail from my shoulders over my chest and down my body until they rest on her thighs as the heat from her body soaks into the denim of my jeans. She is pressed hard against my rapidly growing member. Shivers run through my entire body under her scrutinizing gaze, the expression on her face still hasn’t changed, still showing cold indifference even though her body is radiating heat. Her eyes are cold but her body is so very warm. I keep my eyes trained on her. I love what she does to me. Her upper body leans down until her soft br*asts press against my hard chest, her lips brush against my ear.

“I appreciate it very much”

I close my eyes and groan loudly, her hips move slightly to put my member in a comfortable position and I fear that I am going to lose my mind. I feel a gentle touch on the tip of my nose and my eyes snap open as I look into the most perfect violet orbs.

“Do you know how many times I could have killed you?”

I laugh, trust her to judge my self-defense in moments like this.

“Paige, babe, even if you killed me right now, I would die a happy man”

She grinds herself against me and I curse the many layers of material that are keeping us apart. My large hands move up to her hips and creep under her shirt. She suddenly slaps my hands off and removes herself from me.

“How dare you have thoughts like this before feeding me, what are you? Some type of animal?”

I groan, what a tease, but I can’t help but laugh when I see her smile as she eyes the food I have laid out for her.

“Shh Shh”

Her finger travels up to her lips as she looks intently at my bedroom door.

“Haha is that Bryson?”

I hear the unmistakable moans of Peyton and the light pain in my heart burns once more.

“I guess so”

“Who would think that my little sweet Bryson can cause that commotion”

“Little and sweet? I will tell him that”

She turns back to look at me laughing and then concentrates back on her favorite thing, the food, a joyful smile lighting up her delicate face. She gobbles the food in a way that nearly looks like a pig eating out of a trough, but it suits her and I just watch her with a gentle gaze as she consumes nearly my daily amount of food in three minutes flat.

I have seen how she is forced to eat at the academy, so I love that she eats like this only in my presence.

*Paige POV*

I can feel Carter’s eyes on me. I turn around gnawing on a large chunk of steak like the animal I am. As soon as I am in Carter’s room, I can be whoever I want. He has no expectations of me, he just likes me for me. I never hid anything from him on purpose.

I feel so fake all the time, so it is nice just to be myself within these four walls, even in front of his pack I try not to let my violence and hatred show through too much. When people see my face, they hold certain expectations of me. I am meant to be nice and polite. It sucks.

I listen to Bryson and his conquest giggling to myself as I eat. I turn back to Carter who is posed like he is ready for the centrefold of a woman's magazine. He is really handsome but he looks dorky when he poses himself like that. Where is the natural? My mind flits to my enemy, he is raggedly handsome. Pity the only thing that his chiseled perfection of a chest is good for is getting his heart ripped out through.

No, no murder on my mind, this is my free time.

I finish my food quickly before running, stripping my clothes off and jumping on him. Everything that I do within the Topaz pack is in fast forward. I have to sneak out of the academy, I have to eat and I have to feel pleasure, then I have to get back into the academy and somewhere in there I have to sleep, so everything is quick.

Sometimes we even fit in a training session, but within this room we usually make the bed antics our test of endurance.

My entire life is in fast forward, yet nothing can come quick enough.

Carter naturally takes me in his arms and rolls me under him. I smile up at him as his fingers slide down my body in an expert way.