Killing The Alpha

Chapter 4

*Paige POV*

I love looking at his handsome face as he stares down at his useless arm, he always wears such a funny expression. We have been working hard on all different forms of defence. Yes, even to the point that I have learned acupressure points. I can't just go in and overpower Cole, I have seen photos of him. He is a big boy, a handsome man (but that doesn’t matter), no matter how much I eat and how much I train, I won't be able to beat him in such a way, it is impossible for me to bulk up enough to take him down in a head to head battle.

If I can't beat him with brawn, I have to beat him with brains.

Since I can't take weapons to an alpha challenge, I can only use my own body, so I need special weapons at my disposal. I don't think it is underhanded, well maybe it slightly is, but it is not cheating, it is within the rules, I am only using my body.

Carter grabs me by the hand with his non-useless arm and pulls me toward the clothes he has prepared for me.

The uniform at Luna academy has to be spotless and wrinkle free at all times, like you aren’t even able to live in the precious material.

Something about being ladylike and well presented, dirt and blood from fighting is a no go. Fighting in general is a no go.

Just like everything else in life that's fun is a no-go. Enjoying s*x is a no-go. Well, s*x outside your own alpha is a no-go. Just keep my v*rginity for some d*ckhead that has probably stuffed his c*ck in anything that moves? Yeah right. If he thinks it is good enough, then I think it is good enough. I haven’t actually got that far. Carter is all I need at the moment. Once he finds his mate, I will sl*t around as much as possible.

According to Luna academy, music is a no-go, eating anything delicious is a no-go, drinking alcohol is a no-go, even dancing. Well, the only place any of the stupid submissive students are truly fun is in the bedroom, but not because they actually are interesting, just because they have learned to be, it is when being kinky or interesting is in the bedroom, becomes a job instead of what you actually want to do.

It is like you are raised to be the most boring person in the world. I have no idea who actually wants that type of person to be their life mate. They must be as equally boring or maybe they are just weak. A weak alpha wants a weak Luna. A strong Luna would just make him look bad. Damn alpha males and their need to dominate everything.

‘I have no skills so my mate can’t outshine me in anyway’ blah blah blah.

I get changed, before eyeing the handsome blonde who is watching me intently, his burning gaze scorching my skin. I brush it off like usual because I am just so used to it now. I laugh and fix up Carter’s arm. As soon as it's fixed, he traps me in a tight embrace and kisses me deeply.

"Babe, you are very lucky that I like it rough"

"If you didn't like it rough you wouldn't be anywhere near me for this long. You're just a sucker for punishment"

"Only yours"

Since the first time I trained Carter, the very first time I handed his ass to him on a silver platter, he has picked up, his alpha blood making it very easy to progress rather quickly. Between training with me and his father, he has turned into a great training partner. The year between him getting his wolf and me getting mine is when I made the most progress. That is when his strength instantly far exceeded mine.

That year made all the difference. That is when I knew that I could do it, I could kill that so-called fiance of mine.

Sweat is pouring off both of us as we fight hard. I speak as we exchange blows.

“My lovely future husband sent me another letter"

Carter growls, not daring to pause his movements as he knows I won't either.

"What did that piece of sh*t say this time?"

"That I can pop out a pup if he can get it up enough to f*ck me"

Carter stops dead and receives a blow to the cheek and stomach.

"That f*cker, can I kill him?"

I look at Carter, who's fists are clenched by his sides. I can tell he is even more pissed off about the fact that I am. I smile and move my body closer to him.

"What are you telling me? You can get it up enough to make a pup?"

He puffs out his chest in a proud fashion with determination in his eyes.

"Right here, right now babe"

I laugh.

"You're funny. But I have a lot bigger plans than getting knocked up at the ripe old age of nineteen"

"Well, when you finish all those plans, come back to me and I'll get a pup in you quick smart"

"I'm sure your mate might not think much of that grand idea"

He goes quiet once again, he goes quiet every time his mate is mentioned. I'm not sure what it is, if he's under the impression that there is no mate out there waiting for him, but how could a fantastic guy like Carter not have a mate waiting for him?

He is one of the nicest guys I've ever met. He is funny. He is sweet. He is kind. He is strong and he is absolutely mind-boggling in the sack. Any girl would be glad to have him as mate.

While I am stronger than Carter, I was still slightly disappointed that I wasn't mated to someone like him, but at this point my fate has been so messed up. I would never have it that easy, so it only came as a brief surprise. I know I may never find mine. I am not sure if I even want to. I want to be alpha of a pack. How would I ever be mated with someone that is happy to come in and as Carter said, be my luna? Male wolves like to be the power, no matter which blood line they are from, it is automatically assumed that women are beneath them and I don’t mean on the bed, it is just in their genetics, it is just how males are hardwired, not helped by the fact that werewolves have it drilled into them at a young age that men are better and I am not talking the stupid academy, it is just part of the culture.

Alphas have a son and a daughter. The son will always take leadership, no matter the skill set, it is just automatically handed to the male. So how would my mate go taking orders from me?

Anyway, that is beside the point and I am going off on a tangent. I want Carter to find his mate, I want him to live a happy life. He deserves happiness. I will never stand in the way when Carter finds his mate, I will fade into the background. I know that I will no longer be able to be his friend. It would not be fair to his mate. We crossed that line out of pure friendship long ago. I don’t regret it, but I also know what it means. A mate deserves to feel safe and secure around their mate, the couple doesn’t need a girl hanging around that has done all that before.

Carter deserves all the happiness in the world and I know that I can only bring heartache because he is not within my plans. Staying still is not within my plans.

I will head back to my pack, I will make my family's legacy live on.

I am taking back everything. I was weak when I was nine. I am no longer that kid. That girl may have been skilled, but she was sweet and naive.

All of that is gone, I am nothing but stark brutality, hiding behind a pretty mask. I have to be this way to survive. If I wasn’t this way, if I was just a little weaker, I would be nodding along in class thinking that the load of garbage that they teach was right, I would be heading back to bear a pup and be killed, but that would be fine as long as Alpha Cole was happy as long as his tiny, tiny, tiny little minuscule d*ck was satisfied, then my life would be complete.

I have to be hard, I have to be strong, I have to be impenetrable.

We finish up training, without me bringing up alpha Cole again, because, of course, hatred can’t be bought into training, hatred and anger have no place in a fight at all and that is going to be my biggest hurdle.

I am full of hate, I have hatred seeping from my pores.

All I do is get angry at the mention of Cole’s name and Carter is not much better, so why make us both angry? Training is meant to be enjoyable.

I strip off my workout clothes, throwing them at Carter, who catches them, burying his face in them and breathing deeply.

"Ohh yeah baby panties next"

"Carter, you can be a case study at the academy, you are such a deviant"

"Deal, we can film some of our romps and show them how alphas really like it"

"That would be going against everything the academy teaches. You are a little too invested in my pleasure"

Calder laughs, folding my clothes and tucking them under his arm.

"Geez, the things you complain about woman"

I move closer to him, face to face, looking at us and the vast difference in sizes, anyone would think that he would beat my ass down but it has never been that way.

I kiss his cheek and grab his crotch.

"Did I say that I am complaining?"

I move back and straighten out the last of my uniform before walking back to school. I will see him tonight, so there is no need to say goodbye.

I walk back to the school, no sign of the fierce warrior, all that remains is the meek, obedient girl. The sweet smiles on the outside when there is long sitting simmering anger just below the surface.

No one would ever know, no one has ever guessed, as long as I appear weak and I can answer all the questions right, never losing my cool, never stating my actual opinion, this mask is fool-proof. No one has ever guessed or will ever guess.

I walk into the dining hall with perfectly light, perfectly placed steps in my perfectly polished shoes, the gentlest of smiles on my pretty face.

I say all the right things, I nod politely to the teachers, I gather up my tiny portion of food and sit with perfect posture to eat this pathetic little meal. Using every tiny bit of my willpower to keep the snarl from escaping my lips, to keep from picking up this table and throwing it through the wall.

Nope, I am calm.

I am a sweet, gentle lady.