AN AFFAIR WITH MY MATE

Not the Dream I had

ELENA’S POV

I didn’t even know what the right thing to say to Lukas was at this point. He looked calm, he was acting calm, but I could feel that his energy was not a calm one at all. The guard that was kneeling next to me looked so afraid and my fear was that he was going to die for a dumb decision that I had made. I didn’t want anyone to die because of me. However, that didn’t mean that I also wanted to die although I was probably better off dead at this point. This was not the life that I wanted to live. It would be better if Lukas just shot me without this interrogation.

”Lukas, let me explain,” I said as I attempted to get up from the couch and reason with him before this went too far. I couldn’t see how he would choose to kill the guard over me when he had known that guard longer than I had, but then again this man was obsessed with me. This was a decision that I had taken all on my own and I was ready to defend it if I had to.

“Sit down my love,” he said calm but I just stood there, I couldn’t even move “Elena, I said sit the f**k down” he yelled, and I dropped on the couch and he sighed after that

“I think I want him to explain to me,” he said, pointing at the guard with his gun.

“But how will he explain anything to you when I am the one who left you?” I asked him. He held up his index finger to his lips.

“Shhh,” he said, closing his eyes and when he opened them they had changed color, it was clear that at this point his wolf had taken over and I knew that it was best if I did as I was told. As much as I hated to admit it, the truth was that I was very afraid of Lukas because I knew he could be deadly.

“Alpha, I was sitting in the living room waiting for her to finish talking to her parents when she suddenly blurted out that I should leave because she wasn’t coming back with me,” he said.

“ And you just decided to leave her behind despite the institutions that I had given you?” Lukas asked him and the guard dropped his head.

”I didn’t want to touch her” he said and Lukas shook his head in both disgust and disappointment in his guard, I assumed that he had sent me away with faith in his guard and I had just proven that his guard wasn’t s**t.

“That was a very good decision” Lukas said and I rolled my eyes

”I am happy that you understand Alpha,” he said and the next thing I knew I was splattered with his brains all over my face. I closed my mouth as I didn’t want any of his blood to go into my mouth, I couldn’t believe that Lukas had just done that despite the fact that a second ago he sounded like he understood the explanation that the guard was giving him.

“Sorry about that, but I hope you know what this means,” he said as he came to my side and squatted beside me with his handkerchief in his hands. He started wiping my face and then when he was done he tossed the piece of cloth on the table.

”Why would you do that?” I asked him as I started sobbing

”Shh,” he said once more “my love don’t tell me you didn’t know that this was how this was going to end. There was obviously no way that I was going to kill you for what you had done but someone had to pay. Someone had to be punished and who was the better candidate for that other than the guard who allowed you to slip through your fingers?” he asked me.

”But are you going to kill another one the next time I escape?” I asked him and he laughed.

“You would be stupid if you tried escaping again,” he said “I did this to teach you a lesson,” he said

“What lesson is that?” I asked him.

”The lesson is that each time you pull a stunt as stupid as the one you pulled now, someone will definitely pay for that mistake,” he said.

“So you will kill another guard,” I asked him. “I mean how many of them will you kill? I am obviously not going to just stay here and not try to escape when I have the opportunity to”, I said and he got up and sat beside me.

“Oh I know that but the lesson is that, but what you should know is that I can't do anything to hurt you because that would be hurting myself in turn. Obviously, I am a selfish man and I am self-centered so I would never do anything that would hurt me. I won't kill you or harm you for selfish reasons. However, this guard was an example of how I will be punishing you from now on. Every time you do something silly I need you to think of your family and I need you to remember this moment and remember how his brains felt on your face”, he said pointing at the lifeless body that was lying lifeless on the floor.

“You wouldn’t,” I said even though I knew that he definitely would.

“You know I would,” he said “I will kill one of them each time you pull a stunt. Now I just discovered that I am a very patient man when it comes to you and I know that I can handle some of the things that you do, but I know that I never want to get in my car and go in search of you. Next time you get an opportunity to run away, consider your family. I am not going to lock you in this beautiful mansion or increase my security because of you. As a matter of fact, you could walk right out of this place, and trust me my guards will allow you to leave and will not stop you. But I trust that you won't try that because now you know that there will be consequences.” he said getting up

“Now I suggest you go and bath and get clean,” he said with a smirk, “put that on because I expect you to hold up to your end of the deal when I come to bed,” he said and I just looked at my fingers which were stained with blood. One thing I knew for a fact was the fact that I never wanted to put anyone else in danger because I knew that Lukas meant what he was saying about killing my family if I ran away.

I felt so defeated, I felt like there was no one that I could go to for help because I knew that they would all run away the moment they heard his name being attached to mine. I stood up and slowly walked to the bedroom while trying to come to terms with the cards that had been dealt to me. This was not how I ever imagined that my first time would be. I never thought that I would be having s*x for the first time with the man that had just promised to kill my family and yet here I was all because of my father and his dumb decisions. Decisions that I was about to pay for with my virginity. I knew that there was no way I could escape this and I knew that today was the day that I had been dreading ever since I got here. Lukas wanted me to have s*x with him and I could already feel just how disgusted with myself I was going to feel after that.