Kabanata 6
Isidro’s Point of View
Habang nagmamaneho ako ay hindi ko mapigilang mapatingin kay Penelope paminsan-minsan. But I try my best to make sure she won’t notice it. Hindi ko alam kung kailan ko naramdaman ito; kung kailan ko napansin na tila naaakit akong tumingin sa kanya. I just woke up one day that I started looking at her differently from the way I used to see her.
She’s no longer that little girl I got used to seeing running around the house and playing dolls and house. She’s no longer that loud girl who would scream my name whenever I go to their house. She has become a proper lady, a fine one to be exact.
One of the reasons why I offered her a job is to extend help to their family. Malapit kong kaibigan sina Carmela at David, her parents. I want to support and help them in any way I possibly could. Pero hindi rin naman sa puntong bibigyan ko sila ng pera. I don’t want that. Hindi praktikal. I will only teach them to depend on me. Kaya imbes na pera ay trabaho ang in-offer ko sa kanila para mas sustainable at mas mapapahalagahan nila.
“Sir?”
Napakurap ako nang marinig ko ang boses ni Penelope. I looked at her, raising both of my brows. “Yes?”
“Mauna na raw po tayo sa venue,” sagot niya sa akin.
“Okay.”
Pagkarating namin sa company building ni Mr. Sy ay agad na kaming nagtungo sa opisina niya. We were escorted by his asistant secretary. At habang nasa elevator kami ay hindi ko mapigilang mapatingin sa batok ni Penelope.
She’s just a foot away from me. I can clearly see her nape, and I can smell her sweet vanilla perfume.
I gulped.
Ramdam ko ang bahagyang pag-init ng katawan ko, lalong-lalo na sa pagitan ng mga hita ko. At mas lalo pang nag-init ang pakiramdam ko nang maalala ko ang pangyayari kung saan nabuhusan niya ako ng tubig.
I can vividly remember how she knelt in front of me to wipe my pants; how she was unconsciously touching my groin, making me hard as hell. That incident haunted me to my sleep for a few nights. Ilang beses ko rin siyang napanaginipan na nakaluhod sa pagitan ng mga hita at nakatingin nang diretso sa aking mga mata habang himas-himas ang bukol sa gitna ng mga hita ko.
“Sir, papunta na raw po sila Mr. Sy…”
Hearing Penelope’s voice snapped me back to my senses. At doon ko lang napansin na tinigasan na pala ako. I immediately used my office bag to cover my bóner.
“Okay,” I coldly replied, biting my lower lip to suppress the sensation I am feeling.
Napailing na lang ako at napamura sa isipan ko. I couldn’t help but be disappointed in myself. I couldn’t believe I am actually feeling this way towards my friends’ daughter. Gusto kong matawa sa sarili ko. A twenty-two year-old girl just got me hard. And what’s worse? Parang pamangkin ko na rin siya!
You’re insane, Isidro. You’re fúcking insane!
Nakahinga lang ako nang maluwag nang tuluyan kaming makarating sa opisina ni Mr. Sy. Nahimasmasan ako nang tuluyang dumistansya sa akin si Penelope. Hindi rin nagtagal ay dumating na rin sina Mr. Sy.
The meeting had my mind occupied, giving me no time to dwell on those weird thoughts. And because of my packed schedule, I was able to avoid thinking about those weird thoughts about Penelope.
“You can go home now, Penelope. Good job on your first day. You did well,” púri ko sa kanya. I tried to make my voice to sound as warm as possible to somehow make her feel that I am sincere with my words.
I saw how she smiled at me and nodded. Thank you, sir. Sige po, uwi na po ako. Kayo po?”
Tumango lang ako pabalik sa kanya bago umupo sa swivel chair ko. “I’ll stay here for a few more hours. I still have some things to do.”
“Kailangan n’yo po ba ng tulong?”
Mabilis akong umiling sa kanya. “No, thanks. You should go home.”
“Okay po, sir. Bye,” tugon niya at nagpaalam na.
Pagkalabas niya ng opisina ay sinimulan ko na ang trabaho ko. I still had a pile of papers to read and sign. Siguro’y gagabihin na ako rito sa opisina.
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Hindi ko alam kung ilang oras na ba akong nagtatrabaho. Natigil lang ako nang makarinig ako ng katok mula sa pinto. At pagtingin ko ay nabigla pa ako nang makita ko si Penelope.
“Penelope…” tawag ko sa kanya. “Did you forget something?”
Imbes na sumagot ay tumitig lang siya sa mga mata ko at naglakad palapit sa akin. And the closer she gets to me, the more she stare into my eyes.
And when she’s just a step away from me, she grinned before curling a few strands of her hair with her fingers. “Yes, sir…or should I say, uncle…” she playfully said, taking a step closer to me hanggang sa makarating siya sa tabi ko. She then leaned closer to my ears and whispered, “I forgot to do something really, really important.”
“What is it?” sagot ko sa kanya at kunot-noo siyang tiningnan.
I was expecting her to move away from me, but she didn’t. Instead, she smirked at me before slowly going down on her knees while locking her gaze to me. Kitang-kita ko kung paano niya kagatin ang labi niya bago mapaglarong ngumisi sabay dakma ng bukol sa pagitan ng mga hita ko. “This…I forgot this, uncle.”
Nabigla ako sa ginawa niya kaya napatayo ako. “What are you doing?!”
Ngumisi lang siya sa akin bago muling lumapit sabay hawak sa magkabilang hita ko. “Don’t act too surprised, Uncle Isidro. I know you’re lústing over me. Pansin ko ang mga titig mo sa akin,” aniya at mas lumapad pa ang ngisi. “Don’t worry, I want you, too,” dagdag niya at walang pagdadalawang isip na inabot ang sinturon ko at mabilis na kinalas.
Nataranta ako dahil alam ko kung ano ang gagawin niya. But she was too quick. Naibaba na niya ang pantalon ko bago ko pa man siya mapigilan.
“You’re already hard, uncle. Gano’n mo ba ako kagusto, ha?” mapang-akit niyang sambit habang hinihimas ang tigas na tigas kong alaga. “Do you like me that much that this big and thick chunk of meat of yours got too excited with a single touch?” dagdag niya at akmang ibababa na sana ang boxer briefs ko pero pinigilan ko na siya.
“Penelope!” matigas kong saway sa kanya, and that’s when the surrounding started to change. Biglang nagdilim ang paligid. At sa pagbalik ng liwanag ay natagpuan ko ang sarili ko na nakapatong ang ulo sa mesa habang katapat ang screen ng laptop ko.
I looked around and saw no one but me. Madilim na rin sa labas.
And that’s when I realized it—that it was nothing but a fúcking dream.
Napamura na lang ako sa hangin at umayos ng upo para sana ituloy na ang trabaho ko, pero natigilan ako nang makaramdam nang bahagyang pagsakit sa pagitan ng mga hita ko, and it was my díck. Sa sobrang tigas nito ay halos hindi na ito magkasya sa suot kong underwear.
Napailing na lang ako sabay buga ng hangin. “I guess I have to relieve myself tonight,” bulong ko sabay labas ng galit na galit kong alaga. “This is your fault, Penelope. All your fault,” I murmured, grabbing my length and started beàting it.