Agape's Karma

IV - Inside

Gabi na nang natapos ang pinakahuling surgery ko sa araw na ‘yon. Gusto ko na lamang umuwi at humiga sa kama para makatulog.

I just waved at Hennessy when I head out. He’s seriously writing something on his chart at the nurse station. Tumango lang din siya sa akin at binalik ang kaniyang atensiyon sa mga intern na kasama niya. It seems like they’re talking about something confidential kaya hindi ko na kinausap pa ito.

I hailed a taxi so I can scrub everything with a hot shower. Pinanood ko lamang ang busy streets ng Maynila hanggang sa makarating ako sa condo tower.

“Magandang gabi, Doc.” bati ng guard sa akin.

Halos makilala na niya ako dahil ilang beses na late na ako nakakauwi.

Ngumiti ako sa kaniya.

“Magandang gabi rin, Kuya.” saad ko.

Dumiretso na ako sa elevator at pinindot ang floor ko. Sumandal naman ako sa elevator car at pinanood ang mga papalit-palit na numero. My condo unit is two floors below the penthouse.

I went straight and opened my condo. Ni hindi ko na nagawa pang ayusin ang sapatos. Hinayaan ko ang mga iyon sa may pintuan. I did not open the lights dahil saulado ko na ang layout ng aking unit. I can even maneuver here with my eyes closed.

I am living alone since nag-asawa ulit si Mommy five years ago at tumira na sa ibang bansa. Mabait ang aking stepdad kaya naman halos hindi ko na iniisip ang kalagayan ni Mommy sa Canada. I am so sure that Papa TJ is taking care of Mommy.

Namatay ang aking Daddy noong high school pa lamang ako dahil sa aksidente sa trabaho. Ang kapatid ko namang si Geronimo, graduate na rin at ngayon ay sa Davao naka-base dahil sa work niya.

I am alone most of my days. It was the best for me. Akala ko malungkot iyon but it turned out to be interesting. Nagiging matured at in control ako sa sariling buhay. Isa sa dahilan kung bakit ngayon, ayaw ko pa ring mag-settle kahit na nasa tamang edad na.

Iyon rin siguro ang dahilan kung bakit naiintindihan ko si Hennessy sa tuwing flings lang ang gusto niya. The fact that you can satisfy yourself without committing to someone is exhilarating. I feel the control and power I possess over my life.

Dumiretso ako sa ref ko at binuksan iyon para kumuha ng tubig. I put my bag at the breakfast counter. Uhaw na uhaw kong nilagok ang tubig while my other hand freed my hair from the elastic band that holds them.

Nakaramdam ako ng ginhawa at nilagay ang baso sa sink. I did not even bother to open the lights at all. Walang sabi kong hinubad ang pang-itaas ng hospital ng scrub na suot ko at hinayaan iyong pumatak sa kahoy na sahig.

I can even walk naked here without the fear of getting seen. One of the many reasons why I said that this place is my safe haven and my sanctuary. Ako ang nag-iisang diyos rito. I don’t have rules to myself.

I hummed my favorite song at naglakad na papasok sa kuwarto ko nang may tumikhim sa bandang couch. I immediately gasped.

“Who’s there?” sigaw ko sa kung sino man iyon.

I opened the kitchen lights at natanaw si Agape na nakaupo sa couch ko at tahimik na nakatingin sa akin.

Nalaglag ang panga ko. I am topless with only my bra at suot ko pa ang pantalong scrub. I immediately covered my breast. Nagkukumahog kong pinulot ang hinubad na pangtaas para maisuot.

“Ano ang ginagawa mo rito?” sigaw ko ulit.

Tinagilid niya ang kaniyang ulo at pinagsalikop ang kaniyang mga kamay.

“I told you I will meet you here tonight. You’re late. And here I am.” aniya pa.

Nalaglag ang panga ko.

“Paano mo nalaman ang passcode ko?” tanong ko.

Halos hindi ko masuot ang aking damit sa pagkataranta. Mas natataranta pa ako sa kawalan ng saplot ko kaysa sa paano siya nakapasok sa condo ko.

Kumunot ang noo niya. He suddenly loosen up and plastered a smirk on his face.

“I told you, I own this tower.” mayabang na sabi niya.

Pinasadahan niya ang katawan ko ng tingin bago tumayo at lumapit sa akin. Umatras naman ako. Hindi ako makahinga sa bawat kain niya sa distansya naming dalawa.

Gusto kong tawagin ang lahat ng mga banal nang naramdaman ko ang mataas kong breakfast bar sa likuran ko. I am now stranded.

He stretched his hand. Agad akong nakaramdam ng kuryente ng lumapat ang mainit niyang palad sa batok ko. He bit his lip and swiftly pulled my long hair out of my scrub.

“No need to hide it, Doc. I saw it already.” he said smugly.

Napawi ang kaba ko. Agad kong hinawi ang kaniyang kamay at masama siyang tiningnan.

“Ano ba ang ginagawa mo rito? At saka, paano mo nalaman ang passcode ko? Hindi mo ba alam ang word na privacy? It was stated on the contract that I signed upon buying this unit.” Saad ko.

Parang wala siyang narinig. Bumalik siya sa couch at pinatong pa ang kanang paa sa kaliwang hita. Ang dalawang kamay, nakabuka at namamahinga sa sandalan.

Lumunok ako. Ang kaninang paghahangad ng relaxing shower ay tila ba tumalon na sa bintana.

“Did you already find out about my condition?” tanong niya.

Huminga ako nang malalim.

“Look, Mr. Luna…” panimula ko at umupo na sa tapat niya, “I don’t know what to say to you. As I told you earlier it’s not my expertise—“

“Well, you gotta help me because you’re the last woman I’ve slept with before my thing became like this. Hindi ko alam kung nasarapan ba ang alaga ko ng sobra na hindi na niya makaya pang maka-get over sa one night stand na iyon.” sabi niya.

Nag-init ang pisngi ko. I can remember it all too well. It was the wildest thing I’ve done. And look, where it brought me? A big problem.

“Erectile dysfunction might be an effect of something psychological. Are you feeling stressed or worse, depressed?” tanong ko.

Tumaas ang kilay niya.

“Not at all. I got everything. Money, looks, girls. Name it, I can have it. I do not have time to be depressed or stressed, Doc.” presko niyang sabi.

Umirap naman ako.

Eh ‘di ikaw na! Ikaw na ang perfect life.

“Eh ‘di sana all na lang,” walang pag-iisip kong sinabi.

Tumaas ang kilay ni Agape sa akin.

“What did you say? Sana all?” tanong niya.

Lumaki ang mga mata ko at tumikhim.

“Nevermind. How about your health? Ilang beses na nangyari ito?“ tanong ko ulit.

“I do regular check-ups. I am healthy as a cow. Also, this is the first time that someone broke my p***s—“

“I did not break it, okay? Stop saying that. Or much better, stop reminding me that something happened between us, okay?” sabi ko pa.

Kanina ko pa nararamdaman ang pag-init ng mga pisngi ko sa sinasabi niya. Ngumisi naman siya sa akin.

“What? Are you embarrassed that you got the best s*x you might ever had in your whole life that night? If I were you, I would broadcast it out loud like the other girls I—“

“Best s*x kita? Masiyado ka naman atang mayabang, Mr. Luna. Paano naging best iyon kung ikaw pa lang naman ang nakagawa noon sa akin at isang gabi lang ay sumuko na agad iyang alaga mo? Baka ikaw ang nakaranas ng best s*x sa akin? I was too good that your thing decided not to function for other girls anymore.” pagputol ko sa kaniya.

Natigilan naman siya sa sinabi ko. I plastered a huge smirk on my face. Gustong gusto ko na nagawa ko siyang patahimikin.

His eyes darkened, halatang hindi sanay na nilalabanan siya. But like what I said, I like being in control.

At kahit pa siya ang may-ari ng tower na ito, nasa condo unit ko siya at teritoryo ko ito.

I stood up and brushed my hair with my fingers.

“I cannot say for now na erectile dysfunction nga iyan lalo na at unang beses mo pala ito. But I would want you to go through pyschological screening to determine if it’s pyschological or what. We’ll start from there to diagnose. You can take it from any hospital you like and give me the result for further evaluation. Iyon lang ba, Mr. Luna?” tanong ko.

Hindi siya nagsalita at mariin pa ring nakatingin sa akin. I sighed and tried to calm down.

“I will take a shower so you should lock the door when you leave.” dagdag ko pa at tuluyan nang pumasok sa kuwarto ko.

May sariling banyo ako roon. I stripped off my clothes and went inside my toilet. Binuhay ko ang shower at tinimpla ang hot water.

He’s clearly offended and I am sure na umalis na iyon.

I let the water hit my now relaxed body. Umungol ako bahagya sa relax na naibibigay noon. I reached out for the loofah and put soap on it when I heard the door opened again.

Bumilog ang mga mata ko nang tumambad sa akin ang madilim ang titig na si Agape. He already removed his coat and his hand is loosening up his tie. Tinapon niya iyon sa sahig nang maalis niya iyong tuluyan.

“What the hell? Ano ang ginagawa mo pa rito? I-I thought you already left—“

He stepped inside the shower. Agad na nabasa ang puting dress shirt niya at yumakap iyon sa kaniyang katawan.

Hindi niya inalintana na basang basa na siya ngayon.

He’s wearing his white dress shirt and slacks habang ako, exposed na exposed sa kaniya.

Laglag ang panga ko. He hungrily pulled my nape using one hand and kissed me under the shower. Ang isa naman niyang kamay ay nakatuon sa puting wall tiles ng aking banyo at kitang kita roon ang mga ugat niyang lumalabas dahil sa diin noon.

His kisses were hot and steamy. Iyong nakakatunaw. I did not respond to his kisses at first but he’s very smoking hot persuasive. He licked my lips seeking entrance and it worked like magic. Parang may sariling utak ang katawan.

I just find myself kissing him back. I lost my grip on the loofah I was holding and now it’s on the floor. His tongue is playing tricks with my tongue that quickly aroused me. I groaned.

His lips kissed my neck and I feel a little kiss mark he left there. Mas lalo lamang akong umungol at hinapit siya papalapit. The soap on my body was rinsed.

Ramdam ko ang kaniyang muscles. Even with the clothes on, he’s really muscular.

He stopped kissing me. Ang kaniyang kanang kamay ay pumunta sa buhok ko. A little tug on my hair so my head will tilt while looking at him.

He smirked dangerously.

“I may not give you the thing right now, but I will make sure that I can give you the best tongue you can ever had.” he warned and removed all his clothes.

Tumingin ako sa kaniyang hubad na katawan. He’s still big even when he’s not erect. Lumunok ako. I fight the urged to hold it in my hands.

He lifted my chin and kissed me there.

“Lean back, Doc.” he whispered sexily and guide me.

Naramdaman ko na lang ang malamig na sahig sa likuran ko. He knelt down and put my leg on his shoulder. His calloused palm held my hips in place.

I lost all the control I have in me when his tongue started to dive between my folds.

Damn you, Agape! I wanted to shout at him pero natatalo ako ng sensasyong dulot ng dila at mga daliri niya. I cannot even remember paano ba kami napunta sa sitwasyong ito. Tanging ang ginagawa lamang niya sa akin ngayon ang nararamdaman ko.

He’s not bluffing. Talagang magaling nga siyang magpaligaya ng babae. Kaya naman pala maraming babae ang nahuhumaling sa isang ito.

Nera would kill me but I don’t care anymore. Her cousin is making wonders on my body and I’ve never felt this good. It’s so much better than my imaginations.

His tongue thrusted faster. I cannot help but to hold his hair tightly, almost pulling it. I guide his head on my wetness. My hips started to move to match his rhythm.

I feel something is building up on me and it will explode soon. Kaya kahit nanghihina, sinubukan kong itulak siya but he’s not even budging.

I looked at his dark eyes that are now looking at me. Lumunok ako.

“I-I am going to come, M-Mr. Luna.” nahihirapang sabi ko at sinubukan siyang itulak papalayo pero nagpatuloy siya sa ginagawa.

“M-Mr. Luna…” tawag ko muli.

His tongue even move faster. Mas lalong nagwala ang sistema ko. His eyes never left mine. At mas lalo akong nag-iinit sa titig na binibigay niya.

I am panting so bad from keeping it from exploding. Sinubukan ko siyang itulak papalayo sa akin but his other hand stopped my hands.

“Let it come, Doc.” he said in between kissing my wetness.

At nang pagkasabi niya noon, I cannot help it anymore. I felt something explode inside me. Nanghihina ako. He stayed licking me there after that release. I was looking at the ceiling, contemplating if what we did is right.

He stood up and looked at me. The water’s hitting his head. He smirked at me and wiped the sides of his mouth.

I was running after my breath. Trying to calm myself. His head rested on my shoulder.

“Tastes wonderful, Doc. You are really extraordinary. Damn, I cannot wait to be inside you.” He whispered and kissed my shoulder blades.