No Promises (R18/Completed)

Kabanata 5

Hinayaan kong tumulo ang aking mga luha habang inaalala ko ang nakaraan.

Bakit ganito?

Six years of holding up the past. Six years of pain and sorrow. Six years of being misserable.

I know, I'm stupid. Those memories that hurts me were the same memories that makes me happy.

How ironic. I used to be carefree. I used to be happy. But he changed me. His love changed me.

Napabuntong hininga ako. Kailangan ko ng ibaon sa limot lahat ng mga alaala ko kasama siya. I need to build a wall for myself this time. Lalo pa dahil nandito na siya.

He's here now and his bound to marry someone else.

Napangiti ako ng mapait.

The thought of it pained me. Sumisikip na naman ang dibdib ko at gusto ko na namang humagulgol sa iyak. Long time ago, he made the same promise to me. But he never did. He left me dumbfounded.

Zeus is so unfair.

Napakadaya niya.

Inayos ko ang aking sarili. I'm always alone inside my room. Fausto and I, never shared a room. Ayaw ko. Galit siya sa akin dahil doon. Kaya niya ako sinasaktan dahil I can't be his wife in every sense of the word.

Hindi ko kaya. I married him not because I love him, but to escape from a scandal. At alam kong pinakasalan niya rin ako dahil doon.

I'm not sure either. Kasi wala naman siyang sinasabi. Wala naman siyang ibang pinaparamdam sa akin kundi ang sakit na pisikal.

Palabas na ako ng aking kwarto ng makasalubong ko si Zeus. Umiwas ako ng tingin sa kaniya at nagtuloy-tuloy ako sa paglalakad pero mabilis niya akong nahawakan sa braso.

Kinunutan ko siya ng noo at tiningala. Matangkad siya sa akin. He also has a body that every girl would droll. And his face. This was the same face that made me crazy in love with him, years ago. Gwapo is the understatement of his physical appearance. His gorgeous as hell.

Lumunok ako habang titig na titig sa kaniya. Ganon na ba ako ka-tigang para pag-isipan siya ng ganoon. Nakakahiya. Bigla ang pamumula ng aking pisngi.

He grinned at me while looking at me intently.

I closed my eyes for a moment before I finally utter a word.

"Let me go, Zeus."

Maawtoridad kong sabi. Pinasadahan ko ng tingin ang kanyang kabuohan. Basa pa ang kanyang buhok, marahil kakaligo pa lamang niya. Lumunok ako ng ilang beses. I should'nt feel this way for him. I should'nt let him hold me like this.

One swift move and he tagged me to the wall. Mabilis ang lahat ng pangyayari. Huli na ng mapagtanto kong hinahalikan niya ako.

I tried to push him but I just can't. He was stronger than I am.

Naglalaban ang puso at isip ko. What if I will let this feeling out for now? What will I do after?

'Pero mali parin'

Bigla akong nagising sa isang panaginip. Malakas ko siyang itinulak at nagtagumpay naman ako. Sinampal ko siya sa pisngi at agad itong namula. Galit ako sa kaniya. Hindi dapat ako nagpapadala sa mga halik niya at paglalandi niya sa akin. Hindi na dapat.

"Don't fight back. I know you want me too." He was confused for a moment and then he grinned.

Sinampal ko siya ulit. Wala na akong pakialam kong nasasaktan ko na siya. Wala siyang karapatang bastosin ako.

Akmang  aalis na ako sa kaniyang harapan ng hawakan niya ang aking kamay. Pinigilan niya ang aking braso at malakas niya akong hinatak palapit sa kanya.

Hindi ko alam kung ano ang gagawin niya ngunit nanlaki ang aking mga mata ng yakapin niya ako.

"I f*****g hate you, doll. But, I f*****g miss you too." he whispered to the side of my ear. His voice is weary and weak. Para bang pagod na pagod na siya.

Napapikit ako. Nanghihina ang lahat ng aking depensa. Kinain ko lahat ng sinabi ko. Kasi hanggang ngayon, mahal ko pa rin siya.

Just like that, he breaks the wall that I just built for him. Just like that, alipin na naman niya ako.

He released me from his embrace and look at me. His eyes, tells it all. The sorrow, the pain and the longing.

He leaned closer to me and bent down. I know he will kiss me. But, this time I did not budge. I want this. I want him. After all, he still owns me. All of me.

The kiss was slow and gentle. It is was as if, he was nibbling every taste and part of my lips. Pinulupot niya ang braso niya sa aking beywang at binuhat ako. Nilagay ko naman ang mga braso ko sa kaniyang leeg at pinulupot iyon.

I was very occupied from what we were doing that I didn't notice that he already opened my door.

He put me down on top of my bed instantly and release me from his grip.

The kiss ended. Habol namin ang aming paghinga. He looked at me with so much emotions in his eyes. Mga emosyong si Zeus lamang ang kayang magpangalan.

He went to the door again and lock it. Pinagmamasdan ko lamang siya habang ginagawa niya 'yon.

Natatakot ako.

Natatakot ako dahil bawal. Pero bakit ganito? Bakit gusto ko? Totoo nga na kung anong bawal ay siyang masarap. Dahil ngayon, ramdam na ramdan ko ito.

He joined me in bed. We sat on top of it, looking at each other. Hanggang hindi ko na napigilan ang sarili ko. Hinaplos ko ang kaniyang mukha pababa sa kaniyang panga. I traced it with my fingers. And when I reached his lips, I touched it. Nanginginig ang kamay ko sa ginagawa. Alam kong ramdam niya 'yon.

He grab my hand ang pull me closer to him. We kissed again. This time with so much hunger. Wala na ang pag-iingat. Lahat ng kilos namin ay nagmamadali. Isa-isa naming hinuhubad ang aming mga saplot sa katawan.

He pushed me to bed. He was still kissing me. He traced my neck by his kisses. And when he reached my t**s he kissed and sucked it.

"ohhh"

Napaungol ako. Nakakaliyo ang pakiramdan na pinaparanas niya sa akin. He sucked my right t**s while his other other hand was massaging my other breast. Salitan niyang ginagawa 'yon sa akin. And I can't help it. I released my first orgasm.

"ohh... my..." Tanging nasabi ko na lamang.

He stop and look at me. Amusement was written all over his face. He was suppressing his grin and he even bit his lips.

"Feel this baby..." he said while looking at his manhood. "He wants you so much." dagdag pa niya. Napangisi siya. Pulam-pula naman ang aking mukha.

He kissed me again. This time, pababa sa aking tiyan. Lahat ng parte ng katawan ko ay hindi niya pinalampas. And I am not stupid to know that he left some marks on it. He kissed my belly and sucked my navel. While his hands were busy massaging my t**s. Napapaliyad lang ako sa lahat ng pagsamba na ginagawa niya sa akin.

He parted my legs and looked at me. I was looking at him too. Moment later, I felt him sucked my p***y.

The feeling was unexplainable. It was divine. It's been a long time when I did things like this. It's been a long time when we did it.

He's still sucking my clit when he inserted his fingers on my p***y. He was thrusting it in and out. Napamura ako sa sarap na pinapalasap niya sa akin.

I never thought I could feel the same things as this. I never thought that we will be making things like this, again.

He stopped when I came again. Pagod na pagod na ako. But I guess his not done yet. Pinatalikod niya ako and he entered me. Masakit pero unti-unti din namang nawawala at napapalitan ng sarap. His huge. I feel very full. His thrusting it deep and hard inside my cunt.

"f**k" mura niya.

Napapikit naman ako. Tumigil siya at pinaharap ako sa kaniya. He entered me again. This time we looked at each others eyes. This time we knew, it would never be the same.

"I'm c*****g" I whispered.

"c*m with me, doll..." he smiled to me.

And we came. We both came.

Nanghihina ako ng matapos ang lahat. We both panting for breath. We were all sweats too. I felt Zeus lay down beside me but I don't budge.

Napatulala akong nakatitig sa kisame.

What happened between us I know, we would never be the same.

@sheinAlthea