I don't believe in love [Completed]

Prolouge:   Do you believe in true love? Does happy ending really exist? Doesn't it make you stupid to wait for your Mr. Right?   Why am I asking you this? hmm.. Wala lang, gusto ko lang mag-English para sosyal. Haha   Anyways, I'm Alyssandra Luxelle Yvone Madrigal, Incoming first year college sa Andrei Louise University Well, Information Technology ang napili kong Course. why? Yun lang, hindi ko din alam eh, hehe.   By the way, let's go back sa mga pinagsasabe ko kanina, about LOVE. Hindi naman ako NBSB(No Boyfriend Since Birth) kagaya ng iba. Nagkaroon din naman ako ng boyfriend when i was in high school. pero hindi naman yung serious relationship. In other words, for display. :)   I was a very cheerful girl before, a super energetic student. A girl that once believed in fairytales, in happy endings, in prince charming, and in mr. right.   But that was before…   Before my father left us to be with another woman. Yes, he left us for his kerida s***h kabet s***h mang aagaw ng pamilya. That was 4 years ago, when i was in first year high school.   Eversince that day, i started to live with my wonderful mother. Just the two of us.   I didn't saw her crying, (i guess she never let me see her crying). I thought she was strong, I thought she was ok without my Father.   Then one day, she had heart attack. Her heart can't function well.   Before she died, she confessed everything to me. She still loves Dad. Ipinakiusap niya sa akin na patawarin ko si Dad for what he did to us. Mahal niya pa rin si Dad but she knew and she already accepted the fact that happy ending never exist in their story, and she hopes that I could find one. She told me to find a man who is willing to love me with all that I am, lahat ng meron at wala ako, dapat tanggap daw ng lalaking mamahalin ko.   But no, ayoko. Ayokong magmahal ng isang lalaki tapos sa bandang huli, iiwan at ipagpapalit lang din naman ako. Ayokong magpaka-tanga para lang sa isang lalaki. I don’t need a ‘him’ in my life. Yes, Dad gave me thousands of reasons para magalit, mamuhi at umiwas sa mga lalaki. I hate him. I hate them. Kaya kong mabuhay ng wala sila, hindi ko kelangan ng sinasabi nilang pag-ibig kung yung pag-ibig na yun din naman ang sisira sakin in the end. Kaya ko ang sarili ko. Kaya kong ipagtanggol at alagaan ang sarili ko kahit ako lang.   Naisip ko nga, Magmadre nalang kaya ako? Just to be safe from those jerks out there. Kaso narealize ko, pag nagmadre ako ready ba sila sakin? Madreng naka-high heels, sleeveless at walang manners? Hahahaha. So I stopped imagining things.   These are the thoughts in my mind, before I met this guy. Lahat ng pinaniniwalaan ko unti-unti kong nakalimutan. Pati pasensya ko unti-unti na rin niyang nauubos. At malamang sa malamang tamaan na to sakin.   Wait? Hindi kaya ako ang tamaan sa kanya..?