Eclipsed Whispers

C18

MATHEW'S POV

Sinundan ko Ng tingin di Dal Ng maka alis siya. She's crying I know I saw her tears.

" You're so harsh dude, you shouldn't treat her like that. She's your wife for Pete's sake!" Di ako nakasagot sa Saad Ng kaibigan ko. He's my friend, were classmate way back in college sa New York.

Sinundan ko Kung San siya pumunta and I saw her in the back of the hotel crying so hard.

I regret for what I did. I didn't know that it would result like this, masiyado na akong nasanay na lagi siyang binabato Ng masasakit na salita. I always threw her hurtful words but she always accept it and didn't bother to justify her self. Masyado akong naging kampante.

Bumalik ako sa table ko para kunin Ang coat ko at saka bumalik doon sa likod para daluhan siya pero pag balik doon Wala na siya. Sinubukan Kong hanapin siya ulit pero Wala na talaga siya. Nakonsenya ako sa ginawa ko.

Agad akong sa pumasok sa sasakyan ko at nag madaling magmaeho pauwi. When I reach our house agad akong pumasok sa kwarto and there I saw her crying at naka tabon Yung kumot sa kanya. I hear nothing but her sob. Parang pinipiga Yung puso ko nang makita siya Ng ganyan.

Lumabas ako at pumunta sa bar counter Ng bahay at dun nag inom. I was thinking kung bakit bigla siyang tumakbo palapit sa akin kanina and she's even trembling. She seems very afraid if something I don't know.

When dad told me about her five years ago di ako nag react dahil Wala akong paki Alam. But when mom sent me pictures together with Dal dun na ako nag simulang magalit sa kanya. How dare her fool my parents. Dad told me that they wanted to adopt her pero di ako pumayag that would never happen. My parents sent her to other countries for the reasons that I don't know. They are hiding her I know I can read their actions.

Dad told me to that she's vulnerable. But I don't believe him because I see different from her actions.

My forehead crease when I hear my phone ring. It was Jaz the guy in the party kanina.

" Yes?" I ask him, may narinig akong maingay sa background niya seems like nandun pa siya sa hotel.

" Tignan mo Ang post Ng asawa mo sa f*******:" he said then ended the call without proper saying goodbye.

He knew Dal, he knew everything about us.I told him everything. Just like what he said nag open ako Ng f*******: at there I saw Dala's post 8 minutes pa.

" I always got annoyed every time I hear or read something about people getting suicide. I always judge them why do they have to do it when life has a lot to offer. I always get irritated and think how brainless they are to think that way but now I realize why they think that way, why they think that suicide is the key to end hardship.. it's because the pain is unbearable..many people said that life is wonderful, yes it is, but not to everyone. It's easy for me to judge and tell people they are brainless before because I didn't know their situation but now I fully understand it, very because that's what I am feeling right now" Yan Ang laman Ng post niya na nagpakaba sa akin. I don't know how to react.

I went to our room but I haven't see her, tinanong ko si Nanay and she said na nandun saw sa pool.

In my months of staying here I witnessed that this pool has been her comfort. Every time I saw her here Alam ko na gusto niyang mapag Isa.

Naka tampisaw Yung mga paa niya at masaganang umaagos Ang kuha niya, di ako maka lapit dahil alam Kong ako Ang dahilan kung bakit siya nag kaganyan.

I don't have any intention na saktan siya, im just mad at her, I'm very mad for what she did. Galit na galit ako sa kanya. I'm happy for what happened but I'm not happy na siya pa sa dami nang tao at that time.

Gusto ko Lang subukin Kung hanggang saan Ang Kaya niya but I think sumobra na ako. I also can't understand my self bakit masaya ako na nakikita siyang nahihirapan, is it because of that thing again?

Bakit gusto ko pang mas masaktan siya?

Is being mad to her enough reason to hurt her?

I had a meeting in a restaurant kanina when I saw Dal having a chitchat with a guy, my blood boiled seeing them talking happily.

Kaya Ang nangyari Yung client ko yung napag buntungan ko ng sama Ng loob.

I feel like nag Kanda leche lahat.

I decided to come home late dahil sira parin Ang mood ko. We just had a fight last week tapos ngayon makikita ko siya sa labas Ng ganun?

It was my company's celebration dahil sa laki Ng net income, lumagpas sa target namin kayo nag desisyon ako na mag celebrate para narin sa employee dahil kundi dahil sa kanilang hard work we won't achieve it.

I thought of bringing her there pero di siya pumayag dahil hindi daw maganda ang impression Ng tauhan ko sa kanya. Noon Kasi pinapunta ko siya doon dahil may important file akong nakalimutan sa bahay and when my secretary and some employee ask about her I answered them that she's a w***e. That leads us to fight again, Wala na yatang lingo na di kami nag sasakitan gamit Ang mga salita but in the end siya parin Ang talo.

My forehead crease when I reach the front door and it was very dark. My teeth clench thinking na di pa siya nakaka uwi.

I didn't bother to turn on the lights at ginamit nalang Yung flash light Ng phone ko at nag punta na sa taas.

" Hi! Happy anniversary" nagulat ako sa ginawa niya, she smiled at me and lead me to the table where she prepare lots of foods.

I forgot one year na pala kaming kasal and tonight is the celebration. Maraming klaseng pagkain Ang naka Hain, may flowers and lights pa at nag mukhang romantic.

" I'm full nakakain na ako ikaw nalang Ang kumain" I said coldly and I saw how the emotions in her eyes changes.

Tumango siya at ngumiti Ng tipid bago nag simulang kumain mag Isa. Ilang spoon Lang ay tumayo na siya at nilinis yung pinag kainan niya, kinuha na din niya yung mga design at tinago iyon.

Napa hilamos ako Ng palad sa mukha Ng lumabas siya dala Ang mga ginamit niyang Plato. Lahat Ng hinanda niya dinala niya rin sa baba.

Nang maka balik siya ay ngumiti siya Ng tipid at humiga na sa kama at nag kumot, I know nasaktan siya sa ginawa ko but I don't give a damn. I'm not in the mood right now at di Lang Yan Ang mangyayari Kung ipag pilitan niya Ang kanyang sarili.