Annie p.o.v
Micheal helped me get admitted to the university, it's been a week since I came back from home. I feel happy that I got my stuff back, I put all my things in my room. It is my first day at university, I am feeling very nervous as I feel a fear facing so many people but I have to do it...
I have to be strong for my self, I have to secure my future for my baby, Michael is such a support to me, he is a very nice man but living here I realized that he is a very busy man.
I can not relay him on everything, I have to do all my stuff from now on by myself, it can not be like this!!! He can not be always there for me. Micheal went on a business trip two days ago as he was a board meeting with some senior doctors in another city, he called me last night to remind me about my classes, I awakened all night as sleep didn't touch my senses.
I was feeling scared but more than that, I feel uncomfortable!!! I can not tolerate people 's pity full glares towards me, it will be the most painful thing ever... Annie don't be worry!!! It will all be fine. I assured myself of looking in the dressing mirror.
I wear black palazzo pants with a white loose shirt, I put on my heels as I love heals, I tied my hairs in a loss ponytail that hung on my lower back, I grabbed a white scarf then wear it on my head hiding one side of my face. I love wristwatches so I put on one of my favorites that my father gave me on my eighteenth birthday, I remembered my parents a hundred times after coming back from my home.
I feel painful!!! What will be the thinking of me? I will surely meet them once, but not now... It is not the right time!!!
I also start searching for jobs in the newspaper as I cut another cutting then pin it to the board, I marked the date of interviews also, I will be dependent on my own.
I finally gazed musket for one last time then took my file and wallet. I always save money in order if I need them anytime, I put them in my locker so I took them from them when I was carrying my stuff here, I get out of the apartment.
The university is half an hour's drive from here so I thought to take a bus as it will cost low, I have to manage my budget until I find a job for myself, I seated in the last row to avoid peoples gazing, the bus starts driving on the familiar route as I came with Michael a few days ago...
I start reading a book for time pass when I feel a presence beside me, someone is sitting there but the person's eyes were on me. I turned around to find a girl looking at my face in ambient, I raised my eyebrow in the questioning manner, she came out from a phase.
"Sorry, I was just... What happens to your face?" She asked I heaved a sigh!!! I can not tell anything to a stranger.
I avoid her then start reading my book again but I can feel her stare on my face, it feels so awkward.
I again look in her direction, then removed the scarf a little so she can see it, her eyes glint with pain looking my face.
"I am so sorry!!! It must be very painful." She said, I don't know what courage comes inside me but my words also shocked me.
"No, it didn't pain anymore, I feel much stronger than before, I am a woman with much energy than before, I think one little accident can not make you feel weak but it's only your mind playing tricks about it. I am all ready for my life ahead..." I started in a confident tone, I feel like the old Annie came back, I feel the enthusiasm in me.
The girl's mouth was agape listening to my speech, her eyes widen then she clapped her hands.
"Wow, I am so encouraged. If I will be in your place, I guarantee you that I would have attempted suicide. But you look like a very strong girl. By the way, I am Sheena, may I know your name?" She said then took her hand out for a handshake.
I shook hands with her,
"I am Annie, it's nice to meet you," I said in courtesy, she smiled looking at me, I then again set my scarf. Sheena look the file in my hand reading the university name on it, she again said,
"So you are admitted to the same university, I am also the student there, I am in the second year of MBA." She informed me, I feel good looking a pretty smile on her face. I didn't see any kind of pity or any void emotion in her eyes, she looks likes a good person.
"Yes, I am in the same university. I completed my first year from another one but due to some circumstances, I have to change the institution, so now I am continuing my second year here..." I explained to her, she genuinely smiled then said,
"So, we will be classmates. Wanna be friends Annie?" She said I smiled then nodded my head.
We both sit in silence for some time the bus stopped near the gates, so we both move out of it...
Sheena look a very cheerful person, she is full of life as a smile was set on her face that never disappeared, I feel good that I found some company at least... We both start moving inside, I can see so many eyes on me but I try to be as much hideous as I can!!! I again start feeling nervous, but it will be fine Annie...
I took my medicines, I can not afford any panic attack in here as it will create a scene, I don't want it... We both entered inside the corridor where all the students were going in there classes, Sheena stopped near one door, I was observing my surroundings. I didn't notice that she stopped so I bounced in her, she turned around then look in my direction.
"Oh!!! Annie, I forgot that you are also here, sorry!!!" She but her tongue,
"So it is our first class. But I see you don't have the admit card with you, Annie you have to go on the third floor to grab it from the office. I would love to accompany you but I will be late for the class, as you are a new student so you will not get a penalty but I will sure!!!" She explained then giggled, I nodded my head.
"Go from here then take a right, you will find the stairs. I will see you soon..." She said I shook my head the start walking where she motioned her finger a few seconds ago...
I grabbed the strap of my bag tightly as I start feeling alone, also the nervousness in the pit of my stomach is making it worse, I feel like vomiting passing from the corridors, I saw many students starting my face, I just start walking fast.
I have to reach the stairs soon, I finally reached the stairs, I huffed as I feel like I will puke right here, but I grasped my nerves then start running on the stairs.
I claimed the steps then reached the second floor, there were not many people here as it feels so silent, I was moving fast towards the stairs when someone coming from another side hit my shoulder, we both stumble on the floor.
All the pages from my file spread here and there, I was going to say something to the man when my eyes accident watched his face, my breath hitched in my throat, my heartbeat fastens, my hands start shaking... How can he be here???
Charles was dusting his coat, his eyes were not on me, I have to move from here as fast as I can... I can not let him see me!!! OMG, how is he here? What is he doing here? My mind starts working to get out of this situation before he sees me... I put the scarf on my head then turned my face on the other side to grab the ones that fall on the floor.
I stand up from the ground, I feel like all my body is shaking, my head starts messing up!!! No, No, I can not panic. It will in everything, I can not let him see me...
I turn around to go but my legs feel like jelly, it took all my strength to move a step from there, I was walking on the other side when I heard his voice behind my back,
"Excuse me, I think it is your document." He said loud and clear. My heart dropped from my chest to my feet, how will I take it from him... Oh, God please help me...