A Lone Alpha?

Chapter 8 - ROMAN

It had killed me leaving her this morning, but I had known it could only be one night. I was a lone Alpha. A mate would only be a weakness, a weakness I could not allow myself. Being with her had been amazing! She truly had been sent from the heavens! The touch of her skin against mine was like nothing I had ever experienced - and like nothing I could ever experience again…..

But I consider myself lucky I had met her. Had at least known my mate and got to be with her before she knew. So I could experience her touch before continuing on to be the Alpha I was destined to be. The strong Alpha. The Alpha on his own.

Her body against mine was heaven!She admitted she had never been with anyone else, like me, so we learnt together. But her touch was perfect! She may have been inexperienced but her touch was able to turn me on in every way I needed. And I think I did the same with her going off her reactions and the heavenly noises coming from those beautiful lips of hers. Plus the fact she kept calling my name asking for more……

To feel myself inside of her felt like I had died and gone to heaven! I swear she was made for me! Well, I guess she kind of was, with her being fated to be my mate. Our bodies seem to fit together like two jigsaw pieces so perfectly. Our bodies able to find a perfect rhythm to send us both to a peak of pleasure I did not know was possible - she was perfect!

I shook my head. I can’t keep thinking like this, I need to get her out of my head now, she needs to be nothing but a memory. A memory of the best night of my life. I’d even said as much in the note I’d left her. Though I imagine she’d hate me after reading that. She’d likely have hated me finding the bed next to her empty this morning. I was a d**k!

But I have no choice. I am not having a mate. Like my Dad. I am to be a Lone Alpha. A strong Alpha -.an Alpha who is stronger alone. A mate is a distraction, a weakness. She had been a weakness last night and I cannot allow that to happen again. I need to let her go……

“Oi d**k head, you missed the junction!” Eli’s voice disturbs my thoughts.

Shit! See she is already a distraction. This needs to stop!

“still knackered” I lie, looking for a side road or junction I can spin the car round in to turn it back to get back to the junction we should have turned down to continue our journey back home.

“how did it go last night with your lady friend?” Alfie questions me from the back seat.

I see Eli suddenly look to me “What?! You pulled?! That is so not like you!!” he laughs.

“Hardly pulled” I lie again “ had a few drinks, danced and she left”

“aww you not got the right moves bro?” Eli laughs, ruffling my hair and messing it up. “told you I could give you tips”. At least he seems to have bought my lie.

“Piss off” I scowl at him.

“hey don’t hate just because the Moon Goddess blessed me with all the charm” he grins. “not my fault the ladies find me irresistible”

This guy was a pain in my ass at times. He may have been my best friend since we were babies but I swear his head was so big he was lucky he could get in the f*****g car! Every time we went out he would be with a different girl, usually charming them using my credit. Though he did have a way with words too. But like I said, he was my best friend and would one day be my Beta.

Good thing is, with the way he is, I doubt he would ever settle down either. So I would not need to worry about him bothering with a mate, so I could be the Lone Alpha as planned with the single Beta too, all be it one who is somewhat of a lothario, but still…..

“You have any luck Alf’?” Eli asks as I turn the car round and head back to the junction we should have turned down.

“ I got a couple of numbers, enjoyed myself drinking with a group of she-wolves, dancing the night away so I am not going to complain” he grins.

He is almost as bad as Eli!

“Well, at least your Dad can’t complain about the bill today I stuck to beer last night” Eli laughs.

I couldn’t help but laugh at him, “true I did the same so all should be fine” I tell him.

“We doing the same next week?” Alfie asks.

“You forgotten dude? I’m heading off for my Alpha training” I remind him.

Alpha training is specialised training for the upcoming Alphas of packs, preparing them further for the roles they will inherit from their fathers. Enhancing the skills they should already have in them to make them into the strongest Alpha they can possibly be.

Part of me was looking forward to it. Part of me was a little anxious. I knew this would be a hell of a challenge! I had a lot to live up to - my Dad was one hell of an Alpha! So strong, so powerful,so formidable. Known across the country, probably feared by most across the country. That was through being a Lone Alpha. He had a heart of ice. Stronger through being alone. And that is what I would be……

“Oh s**t yeah, how long you away?” Alfie looks to me.

“ three months this time, a month's break, then back again for three months” I tell him.

“Serious work for you then bro” Eli sighs.

“hey you aren’t going to far behind, you got to head of for Beta training soon bro” I tell him.

“Tell me about it, been living it up before I go” Eli grinned. Ah, is that his excuse?!

“Commitments we get given by being born into these families, eh?” I roll my eyes.

Alfie and Eli chuckle, as all three of us will inherit titles from our fathers, so it is definitely true what I said.

“Hard to believe it will be us running that place one day though, instead of our Dad’s isn’t it?” Alfie says, I look in the rear-view mirror at him and see him looking thoughtfully out of the window.

He isn’t wrong. All we have ever known is our Dads in the roles of Alpha, Beta and Gamma, all best friends from childhood just like us three. To think they would one day in the future pass those roles down to us is crazy! I know it was in our blood, it is what we were meant to do but I can’t imagine it somehow. To me, my Dad will always be Alpha. Yet I am one day going to be that Alpha - the Alpha of Blood Shadow Pack. Was I really ready for that?

I guess time could only tell. I guess the training was going to help me prepare for that. Along with everything my Dad had already been teaching me as I grew up. I knew I needed to toughen up more. I was already called moody and harsh in the pack - a mini version of my Dad. But inside I knew I was softer than I should have been. Last night had proven that. This morning too…….

I'd had tears in my eyes leaving Maya. I had wanted to mark her - make her mine. Not leave her. But I knew to be the strong Alpha I was destined to be I was meant to be alone. At least this way she would not have to go through the pain of rejection. She would be able to go through life thinking her mate was out there for her. She could still be hopeful….. not knowing it was me.

We had had one night. It had been perfect! Just like my fated mate. Now it was time for me to close my heart to her. Remember her as one night of fun - one night of weakness. I need to have a heart of ice like my Dad. She cannot become my weakness. I am stronger on my own! I am telling myself in my mind as we pull into our pack lands.

The guard on our pack gates gave us a wave as he let us drive through without making us stop, clearly recognising us.

“You guys want dropping at home?” I ask my friends, knowing that all I wanted to do was to go back home and get some sleep.

“Yeah, some more sleep is needed” Eli said, clearly feeling much the same as me, making me think he had likely had a night much like mine, though he was quite happy to brag about it.

“yeah cheers bro” Alfie agreed.

So I drove down the familiar pack roads, the footpaths busy today with it being Sunday and not many people being at work, and everyone making the most of the sunshine. I, for one, would not be making the most of the sunshine, I would be getting into my house and getting straight into my bed! We were greeted by many waves by pack members clearly recognising my car as we drove through the pack.

The joys of being the upcoming Alpha, no chance of anonymity. One of the reasons I like to get out of pack so much.

I drove down the familiar cul-de-sac where our three houses were on. This was a private part of the pack where our three houses were, with our fathers being the highest ranking wolves in the pack. All three houses were bigger than the rest in the pack and luxurious, something I guess we had long since taken for granted and had always been this way. The joys of having an Alpha for a Dad.

I slowed at the first house, Eli jumped out, grabbing his bag from the trunk, saluting me as he walked up the driveway to his parents' house. I know he was hoping to request to move into the Beta suite in the pack house once he completed his Beta training, as he said his parents drove him crazy forever on his case.

The pack house is the large house, for the use of the pack, much like the name implies, and guests, it has offices downstairs for the Alpha, Beta and Gamma, a couple of large communal lounges and games rooms for the pack to hang out, there is a large pack dining room where the pack meets weekly for a meal, but also it is used everyday for those who live within the packhouse and for anyone else who wishes to use it, there is also a conference room, a library, massive kitchens – needed to accommodate the cooking for all the pack members, utility rooms for cleanings and laundry, on the floors upstairs it has many bedroom for single wolves, and the top floor there is some amazing suites for the Alpha, Beta and Gamma.

Obviously, they are out of use now because the current Alpha, Beta and Gamma have families, and when wolves have a family they are offered a house on pack lands to raise their family, as this is better than living in the pack house. You have your own private space and a garden. But when I, Eli and Alfie were old enough we would be able to use these suites as our own.

I stopped at the next house to allow Alfie to get out and walk to his house too, after grabbing his stuff from the trunk. I imagine his Mum and Dad would be happy to see him, they were a lot less strict than my Dad and Eli’s Mum and Dad. Alfie was lucky in that regard.

I gave Alfie a wave as I pulled away and drove up the drive way to my house. I could see my Dad’s car was parked so I knew he was home.

I stepped from the car, going to the trunk to get my bag. And walked through the front door, my Dad was sitting in the lounge to the left of the front door, Watching something on TV, he had a coffee in hand, have to say he was looking pasty again, had been for the last few months. Had told me was stress - Who was I to argue?

“Hey son” my Dad greeted me.

“Hey Dad, you ok?” I nod in his direction.

“Fine.” He attempted a smile, but it was a tight line with his lips instead, that was as much of a smile as my Dad gave unfortunately “Nice to see you boys can control yourself when out drinking then, the bill last night was much more acceptable” he says bluntly.

Wow! Still giving me a hard time about that - it wasn’t even me! Well, most of it hadn’t been. But I am too tired to argue with him.

I simply nod.

“Last night out for a while son. Alpha training now. You best make me proud. We are strong Alpha’s in this family. You need to show them that” I feel the glare of my Dad’s eyes on me.