Chapter 15: VermilionDear Bump,
I don’t know why my faith is so easily shaken. I try telling myself that it’s all in God’s hands and that so far, He’s taken pretty good care of me, in spite of my unconscious efforts to sabotage my happiness from time to time. I find myself doubting my instincts—the little voice in my head that always guided me. I keep thinking about all the decisions I’ve made, and those I never had the courage to, and my mind travels back to those years when Nick and I first started seeing each other, back when everything seemed possible and nothing was out of reach.
We were so young and full of ambition then. Everything Nicolai did was perfect. Every word out of his mouth captivated me. I hardly needed sleep in those days. I was high and mighty. Untouchable.
Now Nick
