October 23rd
My abs are killing me from that workout the other day. Clearly, I’m not as fit as Bonnie is. She does this stuff every day: a 5-minute plank, 100 sit-ups, other stuff. I can’t remember off-hand. I pushed myself because I wanted to keep up with her.
I couldn’t do it.
Today is a challenge. Not just because I’m in pain, but because Bonnie’s meeting with Jim to talk about finances. I’ve done everything in my power to be the most compassionate, most supportive, generous, loving partner on the planet. If she still wants to go back to him after all that, what hope is left for me?
Normally I’d break down at the prospect of breaking up.
I’m not sure how I’m holding it together.
Maybe I’m holding out hope that Bonnie won’t beg Jim to take her back.
No, that’s not it.
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