The Bully's Secret Love

Watching from away

Nolan POV.

I don't know how I accidentally ended up sitting next to her. For sure this was not my plan at all. But I will not deny the fact that being in the same discussion with her was actually my doing . That for sure I admit it . However after that night and the boldness that she used to send us out of her house. I was for sure left amazed.

It is like all the years I have been only aiming at one thing, that is to get her attention . It is as if all the bullies that was implicating on him all those years was just to see that she finally pays attention to me and that is what she is doing eventually. I think this made me develop something different in me. Somey that up to this point that am trying to figure out what it is.

When we sat in the bus heading towards the place where we were to have the have our trip, I had never felt so good being near her. Did I say good? The argue to hold her into my hands was so great. Oh no, I can't even believe what I am even thinking about. How did I end up this way in the first place.

I would not control myself any more. That is Why I eventually leaned in and caressed her face just to feel her and then she chose to open her eyes but I pretended like I was actually dozing off as well. There was no way I would face her. What would I tell her after how I have been treating her all these years.

For sure she is like a totally different person from that whom I have known all these years. The one whom I have loved torturing like nothing else. When she doesn't see the person who has been holding her face , she once again gets back to sleep. This time I don't risk her getting me red handed.

By the time I get out of the bus, for sure I am a completely different person. Jed spots me as am trying to get a comfortable place so that I can be able to ignore the Many girls that are already after me. It is not my nature to be ' running away' from the girls but the truth is I needed it this time. I can't tell why but we would see where this would eventually end .

Jed comes towards me ,” You look pale ,bro " he says looking keenly at my face.

“ What do you mean ? Do I have something on my face ?" I inquire widening my eyes.

“ Don't act around. The truth is you looking a bit different ." He elaborates.

Then my eyes travel landing on Lyn getting off the bus.

“ Man, don't tell me " Jed sneers following the direction of my eyes .

“ What do you mean ?" I ask him making myself act like I have no idea about what he is referring to and yet the truth is I have an idea about it all .

“ Her, you have hadly pulled your eyes from her all these days since that discussion at her house last Monday" Jed tells me with a smirk on his face .

“ No ,no . That is not true. I Know what you are talking about but the truth is all that is just in your head and nothing is true at all. " He assure him.

Yes, I might not have teased her the last week but that doesn't mean anything . There is no reason why some one should immediately begin insuinating about things that they even have no idea bout.

He opens his mouth to say something but he is however stopped by Mr Simpson who tells us to get ourselves comfortable places and also set up tents for the evening.

Since Jed already has someone that he is sharing his tent with, I am left with no optional but to share mine with some random guy in our class whom I have hadly spoken too all the years that I have been here at St Standard High school.

At the fire place later that night, my eyes keep stealing little glances at Lyn but instantly pulling away since at times she gets me looking at her until when everyone finally gets away apart from her . I get up heading towards my tent but then I remember about my tent partner. What can the two of us going to possibly be talking about.

To save the boy any discomfort, I choose not to get into the tent just yet. At least I will get in a bit later when he is a sleep. I watch Lyn from a far as she sits peacefully by the fire occasionally adding a piece of firewood or two every time that it reduces.

She is really pretty something that I have not observed all this time. I don't know if maybe I had observed it already but was just afraid of accepting tye reality . Maybe that is what I feared for sure . I feel like heading towards her an then grab her kissing her passionately. My Subconscious glares at me when I think about kissing the girl that I have been tormenting for some time now.

The argue to get towards her and kiss her passionately is so great . I feel I can't take it any more. However the moment I take my first step, I see a certain guy sit next to her. Actually he is one Larry and not a popular one in class. But then I have never seen the two of them talk . Than what the hell is Larry wanting from her? Jealous takes over me.

I watch them from a distance an for sure they go on interacting and speaking well to each other as though they know themselves perfectly well and they have been good friends for a conisderable time. No way ! This can't be happening.

“ No one is supposed to look at -"

I am dumbfounded when on turning back I see no one else but Jed, what the f**k! I turn back nearly falling down but he is right in position to grab me and so I don't end up falling down to the ground.

“ Oh! Jed . You nearly made me fall down . " I complain getting out of his hold.

“ I just wanted to confirm my suspicions and it is like I have indeed done that " he says smiling feeling so proud like a child who has something report to her mother about his sister or brother's behavior.

.“ What are you even talking about ?"

“ You already know what am talking about . You know that you sercetly like her " Jed says using his mouth to point in the direction of Lyn and that Larry guy.

“ That is not true. I know very well that that is not true. Stop insuinating things."

“ Nolan, we both know it is pride that is making you hold back your feeling for her but the truth is you like her .".he insists..

Later that night, lying in the tent beside my tent mate , keep recalling the words from my best friend and then wondering if that is true. Then if it is true that I love her ,what the hell am I going to d for sure. Admitting directly to her that I love her is the last thing that I can think if doing in my life.

Thanks for reading everyone.