Away to love

Chapter 2ii

“You want to know why I’ve persevered with you this long” he asked as he looked ruthlessly straight into Nina’s eyes. He laughed at her face as she struggled to hold herself together. “ Because you’re a good girl. I know you’re loyal as hell, and you ain’t going nowhere”, he said as he started ripping her clothes apart.’ Could it be the money?’ Nina thought, because he was not this way when we were broke teenagers. She wondered what he was going to say was the reason for the abuse this time around. Nina watched him shamelessly and angrily ripping her clothes apart. She didn’t try to struggle, she knew that if she did, he was going to tear her to pieces. After a series of abuse and insults like this, he would blame it on the liquor. Sometimes he would love to bomb her for weeks before he goes back to his normal rude self. He would send her flowers, give her money for shopping and send love letters which, of course, were written by his personal assistant and not him. There was a time he beat her so badly that she fell sick. She had to lie to her family that she had an allergic reaction to something that she ate. There was no allergic reaction, it was Josh, he was the allergic reaction. Sweden had come and stayed to tend to her for a week. She made sure of Nina before she left. Nina could not open up to Sweden, she didn’t want her to see her as a weak person. She didn’t want to be seen as a sister that was unable to protect her either if harm came her way. So she hid it as smoothly as she could.

Lust was madly in his eyes as he rained kisses on Nina’s neck. The kisses that once made her lady parts tingle now felt like ant bites on her skin. “God, I’m going to f**k you like the stupid b***h that you are”, Josh said as he greedily looked at her. She hated those words so much. He kissed her from her neck down to her breasts, he paused when he reached her n*****s as he took a soft bite. As much as Nina didn’t want to enjoy this, she felt her body slowly giving into the pleasure, but her mind was torn apart. It was deciding if we should enjoy the moment or not. The flashes, the scenes of the abuse and the insults kept replaying. She closed her eyes.

He reached down into her pants and touched her p***y. He played with her c******s, slowly moving circles around it. He slapped the entrance of her v****a. Nina let out a gasp. “Enjoying it aren’t you, eh”, Josh said with an evil grin on his face. “Even if you don’t love me, I know you enjoy this d**k!” He pulled her pants down and removed her panties. Nina lay there like a log of wood;unable to move, unable to speak. If she could, she would run, but run to who and run to where? Most of her high school friends were in another country and none was as comfortable as her. Her parents were out in the country, and she was not on good terms with her father. Her grandparents were late, and her little sister was young and very unstable. Even if she were to run, Josh had threatened time without number to hunt her down and harm her, and he was capable.

The foreplay went on and on and Josh touched Nina down there again. He noticed she wasn’t wet. He didn’t care. He was hard as hell, and he was ready to make love. Typical Josh, this was exactly how he was, he never cared about Nina, maybe only when they were teenage lovers. He only cared about himself. He stood up, Nina looked at his chiseled body. He quietly walked to the room, took the lubricant, and put it on his d**k. He knelt on the floor beside Nina and his hard hands spread their hurt legs, and he bent over between them and went straight to penetration. Nina squeezed her face a bit as he forced himself in. No passion, no gentleness, no patience, just straight to the point. He briefly stared at Nina as he thrust in and out, trying his best to conceal the moans that wanted to escape from his lips. Nina just lay there, quietly, letting him do his thing. He finally climaxed and laid down briefly on her, trying to find balance. After a few seconds, he stood up, picked up his clothes and walked away from the scene without saying a word. This was how love making was between both of them. He only came, satisfied himself and left. What was once a memorable event is now monotonous, painful and annoying. These memories were painful to remember. ‘I don’t deserve this’, she murmured.

She was unaware that she had dropped her pen and drifted to sleep. Nina! Nina! Wake up! A harsh male voice called to her. It was him, the devil, he was staring down at her with his. Nina stood up and looked at him. He was much taller than her, and she stood at his breast. She could spot a hickey on his neck. If she dared ask him about it, he would blow up in anger and begin to insult and threaten her.

Nina stared at him. A very heavy silence engulfed the room. They both stared at each other.

Why are you staring at me like that, Josh rudely asked. “Nothing, I just thought you looked good.” “ Ugh! Compliments again, is there something you want to ask of me, because I know that’s where you’re headed. ” “No”

“ You don’t have to lie, I know you’ve checked out of this marriage, you’re just pretending because there’s nobody that may marry you and give you the luxury I give you on a daily basis. Admit it Nina, I won’t kill you.” “We have to talk.” “ Talk about what? You always want to talk and when I give you the opportunity, you never have anything important to say. Look, don’t waste my time, Nina, I’m a very busy man and need my rest for the evening. ”

‘Always busy, always tired’ Nina thought. She wanted to speak, but it seemed her tongue was glued to her mouth. Suddenly she lacked the words. The courage, the confidence, the boldness she had disappeared. ‘Not this time’, she thought. ‘ I am going to stand up to him and there’s nothing he is going to do about it. Her tummy churned, her throat was heavy and her body vibrated. She kept thinking that telling him blatantly was necessary or if she should just pack up her things and escape from the house, letting him come back home to an empty house. Yes!Yes! She could plan a trip and while on her trip she would write a letter and tell him she was gone for a while and on her trip she would serve him divorce papers. She pictured the angry look on his face and how he would tear up the divorce papers.

How he would shiver in anger. He would probably break a plate or two. At least, she would not be there. He would channel his anger on his house items and not her. She would be on a plane far, far away. Somewhere in Ibiza, shopping and sunbathing. This plan looked perfect to her. That was exactly what she was going to do. She would stoop to conquer. She would be so nice to Josh and take him unawares. ‘Payback is a b***h, huh?’ Nina smirked.

“Cat got your tongue?” Josh fired. “Oh, you wish” Nina blurted out back at him.

He was too stunned to speak. He turned around and looked at her. Could this be Nina? He couldn’t believe what she had just heard. Who could she be talking to? Josh wondered who could be giving her the boldness she had. Nina herself, too, was stunned. “ Nina are you talking to me?“ Yes the hell I'm talking to you! ,” She yelled, her heart paced, she was shaking, but she had to be bold. He walked slowly towards her, and she walked back slowly too. She knew what would be coming next. She picked up the vase and held it in her right hand.

"One more step and I'll hurt you, Josh," Nina threatened. Josh raised his hands up. A sign to signify he wasn't going to hit her. “ It's okay Nina, I won't hurt you, l promise, he assured. " You know what? I quit. This marriage, this house, I quit! " She said as she picked her keys from the counter, with tears in her eyes, she got into her car and drove off the house with Josh just staring at her, too stunned to speak. He knew this day would come. The day she would reach her breaking point, but the thing is, he never expected that it would come soon, at least not today.