I CAN BE ALPHA

Chapter 3

Chapter 3

**Catherine's Point of View**

Darkness. That was all I saw. I didn't want to get out of bed. I didn't want to go through my ordeal again. I didn't want to see the pack members' pity when they realised what had happened to me. Why couldn't they just left me alone? What could I have done better? Why did the Moon Goddess believe I deserved it? I'm just 13, so I'm not old enough to have my wolf, but I've already been through a lot. They robbed me of my strength. They stole my peace. My contentment. My birthday was in two weeks, but I couldn't think of anything to celebrate.

I'm gradually recovering awareness. My fingers start to twitch, and I flex my toes. I felt a gasp and heard one.

Someone took my hand in theirs.

"Catherine! Please return to us. It's fine. You have the option of waking up. "No one will ever hurt you again," Michael says. My brother was present. I recall Oliver and him finding me after the rogues had fled. Michael began to lift me up, and suddenly everything went black. I opened my eyes slowly and gazed around the room. It was all white and smelled sterile. I'm sure I'm in the pack hospital. Michael was sitting on one side of my bed, and Oliver was sitting on the other.

Oliver stands up and walks into my room. He stuck his head out and begged one of the passing nurses to find the doctor, who had finally awakened him. Several nurses and the doctor raced into my room. The doctor turns to Michael and Oliver and tells them they must leave my room while I am being examined.

After they have left, the doctor stands next to my bed, inspecting my heart and blood pressure monitors. I began to withdraw from her, attempting to curl into a ball on the opposite side of my bed, tears flowing down my cheeks.

"Please let me know if you prefer only female nurses in here, Catherine." If you are uncomfortable having guys in the room, I may leave at any time." I nodded slowly, indicating that I would prefer he leave the room.

Emily, the lead nurse, began questioning me about what had happened to me and my pain level. I try to explain what happened to her as best I can, but every time I try, I am plunged into a flashback and begin to shiver.

"I'm going to have to examine you, Catherine." You can tell me to stop at any time if you are uncomfortable. We'll also need to get some bloodwork done to make sure everything else is in order." I nodded slowly to Emily, who offered me a little smile. "I'm going to need you to speak, Catherine." I won't be able to proceed until you vocally agree to what I'm going to do. I'll walk you through each step, and you'll have to verbally confirm that you understand at the conclusion. Do you get what I'm saying?"

I wanted to say something, but nothing came out. I chugged a glass of water provided to me by another nurse. The words came out when I opened my lips, but they sounded like I hadn't used my voice cords in months. My throat had become scratchy and hoarse. "Okay, I understand."

Emily finished the exam and inquired whether I was available for any visitors. She informed me that my parents, brothers, and the Beta family were expecting me. She stated that only the rated pack members and the professionals assigned to my case were aware of what had occurred. Two warriors were supposedly always stationed outside my room. No, I instantly replied. I wished to be alone. I didn't want to have to act as if everything was fine, as if I wasn't dying on the inside. I wished for the end of all the anguish and misery. I wanted the memories to fade away.

Emily told me that she understood my want to be alone and that she would inform my visitors. When the nurses departed and I was alone again, I just cried on my bed. I cried out all of my anguish, anger, and fury. I should not have gone alone; I should have had a warrior accompany me. I knew my parents would be upset when I eventually had the fortitude to confront them. They were going to be furious that I attended the party and remind me that I am the Alpha's daughter. I should have used more common sense.

I was alone in my room for the next many hours. My eyes seemed puffy to me, and I can only image how red they are. They had the texture of sandpaper. There's a knock on the door, and when I open it, Emily is giving me dinner. She places it on the table and asks how I'm doing. I simply shrug my shoulders. She informed me that the doctor intended to release me to my family in the morning. I simply nodded and continued to stare into nothingness. I pick up the tray and take it to the garbage as soon as she leaves the room. I'm not hungry, despite the fact that it's been several days since I've eaten.

I lied down and closed my eyes in the hopes of getting some sleep. My nightmares of what occurred to me torment my sleep. I screamed as I awoke. Outside my room, one of the nurses and the warriors rush in to check on me. I smiled at them and assured them I was alright, that I had just had a bad dream. When my parents decided to post the warriors outside of my room, I was relieved to find that they chose female warriors. I am not prepared to deal with the masculine population. Instead of going back to sleep, I just laid there till the sun came up and the nurse, accompanied by the female pack doctor, returned.

"How are you feeling, Catherine?" Do you think it'll be okay if we leave them in the care of the Alpha and Luna?" The doctor inquired.

"I guess I'm fine. "I'm ready to return home."

The doctor is on his way to acquire my release papers. She informs me that she understood I had trouble sleeping the night before, so she was going to help me.

to prescribe some sleeping pills as well as pain relievers because I haven't yet received my wolf. I nodded carelessly, and she nodded back.

I had an insight last night. They will not be able to break me. I'm tired of sobbing and feeling sorry for myself. I shall be stronger as a result of this. I'm going to be a f*****g queen.