(Joy)
IT WAS TEMPTING, Hosea’s sensual promises. My body is humming because of his nearness. His heated gaze makes my n*****s hard. For a moment, I allowed myself to be happy and relieved that I am finally feeling this way for a man.
It’s been nine months since I left my previous life. For six months I stayed with my mother and her husband. They own a beach resort and they always have guests. Every day I go to the beach and walk around with my swimsuit. Most of the time I intentionally bump into half naked men, just to see if I won’t have panic attacks anymore.
In the first two months I didn’t experience a panic attack but I still feel revolted. After I bump into men I had a strong urge to scrub my body and shower for hours. But I persisted because in my head I hear Martin’s voice whe
