Make Her Bad

Chapter 9

"YOU said five minutes, right?" I said as I glanced at my phone to check the time. "'Yong oras pa lang papunta rito sa kubo ay sobra na sa five minutes. So, should I go, then?"

I rolled my eyes as I stared at him. What I really hate is people ruining my plan and wasting my time... just like him.

Them, to be exact. Parehas sila ni Cullen na sinasayang ang oras ko.

"Wala ka bang balak magsalita?"

Kung kanina ay iniirapan ko lang siya, ngayon naman ay nakataas na ang kanang kilay ko habang nakakrus ang dalawang kamay ko sa dibdib ko. He was just staring at me intently. I can't read his mind, but all I know is that his gaze was getting darker in every second. Hindi ko alam ang iniisip niya, but the way he stare wasn't even romantic.

It was more like... threatening.

But I wasn't threatened. More like, I was curious on why is he throwing that kind of gaze.

"I hate my time getting wasted like this, and I know you hate it too," tumayo na ako at isinukbit ang bag ko sa likod ko. "I hope you'll not waste my time again. I'm asking you politely. Sobrang dami ng kailangan kong gawin kaya sana ay huwag ako ang pag-trip-an n'yo."

Maglalakad na sana ako paalis nang magsalita siya na naging dahilan ng pagtigil ko.

"Stay away from Cullen," he said in a low yet authoritative tone.

I blinked my eyes twice as I turned my body on his direction, looking at him in disbelief. I unconsciously opened my mouth in shock. Pagkatapos niya akong puntahan sa student council room at sayangin ang oras ko sa paglalakad papunta rito sa isa sa mga kubo sa building namin, ito lang pala ang sasabihin niya sa akin?

"Are you..." I even made a random hand gesture as I placed my hand onto my mouth, trying to calm myself down. "Are you serious about that?" Tumawa pa ako nang bahagya para ipakita sa kan'ya kung gaano nakakaloko 'yong sinabi niya sa akin kanina lang. "Why would I stay beside him in the first place?"

No matter how hard I try to think about it, the more questions are starting to formulate in my mind.

"I don't have any plans on being a part of his life." Sinalubong ko ang titig niya... and unlike Cullen, it was more expressive but there wasn't lust on his eyes. Hindi ko rin alam kung bakit pero kaya kong titigan ang mga mata ni Tyler nang matagal, pero kapag kay Cullen ay parang gusto ko na lang umatras bigla. "I don't think I should say that as it sounds so harsh, but if that will make you feel at peace, then... that's it." Nagkibit-balikat pa ako pagkatapos kong sabihin 'yon.

Mula sa pagdating namin dito sa kubo hanggang sa oras na nakatayo ako rito sa babaan ng kubo ay hindi pa rin niya inaalis ang paningin niya sa akin. Nakaupo ito sa upuan habang nakapatong ang kanang siko sa sandalan, at nakapatong naman ang mukha niya sa palad niya, tila ay pinapanood ako.

He's really a man of few words in their group, pero hindi ko naman inaasahan na maging sa ganitong sitwasyon ay mananahimik pa rin siya. He was the one who brought me here, kaya dapat ay siya ang nagsasalita at hindi ako. I shook my head mentally as another idea came into my mind.

"Perhaps... are you his secret lover?"

"What the f.uck?"

Nanlaki ang mga mata nito sa tinanong ko. The boredom on his eyes was immediately faded as it changes into a surprised expression... and disgust. Napahawak pa 'to nang bahagya sa magkabilang braso niya na para bang nangilabot ito sa tinanong ko sa kan'ya. I wanted to laugh at the very moment, but irritation overpowers my entire emotions. Sino ba kasi ang hindi maiirita kung sasayangin niya lang ang oras ko, eh sobrang dami ko pang gagawin na tasks?

Maybe I shouldn't have gone with him at the first place.

"At last, you spoke." Sarcasm was evident in my voice as I said that. "I know that you're really the silent type, pero ikaw ang nagdala sa akin dito. Might as well as give me a proper explanation before I go."

"I know that you're a good woman, Lucy," he instantly replied as he gaze went from my face, down to my feet. "Your whole existence says that."

Imbes na sagutin ko siya ay tinaasan ko siya ng kilay. I know where this conversation will go... but one of the things that make me confused is that, how are they able to say that I'm a good girl even though they didn't know me? Does being silent all the time makes me a good girl? Does being unable to fight for something I wanted made them think that I'm kind?

No, it wasn't. My inability to fight back and to be vocal about my opinions wasn't an act of kindness. I was just oppressed by the cruel world we have.

I shook my head at my thoughts as Tyler continued to speak.

"You're a good woman and I don't want you to get hurt, so take my advice before everything falls apart."

Iyon ang huling salita na narinig ko sa kan'ya bago ako lumabas ng kubo at naglakad palayo sa kan'ya.

Medyo malalim na rin ang gabi kaya naman ay nagsisimula na ring lumakas ang ihip ng hangin. Napamura na lang ako nang bahagya habang naglalakad dahil na rin sa paminsan-minsan na hinahangin ang skirt ko. Hindi talaga ako magsasawa na murahin ang nag-design ng uniform na 'to. It was so inconvenient. Kaysa tumatakbo tuloy ako ngayon ay mas bumagal pa ang paglalakad ko dahil inaalalayan ko ang pagtaas ng skirt ko dahil sa hangin.

This makes me remember the place where I first had a conversation with Cullen.

Napatingin ako sa puno kung saan ko siya nakita kahapon na nakasandal pa sa puno habang naninigarilyo... pero hindi ko inaasahan ang makikita ko.

"Ah! Yes, please... f.uck me like that, Cullen!"

I whimpered in disgust as I stared at them. Hindi naman sila nakahubad, but the guy was moving back and forth as he was holding the girl's right leg. Nakahawak naman ang babae sa magkabilang balikat nito habang ibinabaling ang ulo sa kung saan, tila ay sobrang nasasarapan na sa nararamdaman niya at hindi na niya alam kung saan pa ibabaling ang sarap na 'yon.

On the other hand, the guy was just staring at tree where the girl was leaning. His eyes looks emotionless as he continued thrusting. He doesn't even groan like what I've seen in the movies. 'Yong itsura niya ngayon ay parang gusto lang talaga niyang magparaos.

But it wasn't unusual, though. Kahit sa mga nakaraang taon kung saan ay nahuhuli ko siya na may ginagawang kababalaghan ay gan'yan lang talaga ang itsura niya.

And who else are brave to break the rules in this school besides Cullen?

No one.

It was Cullen and his new girl. Noong una ay sa library ko lang siya nahuhuli o kaya naman ay sa rooftop ng building nila kapag nagpupunta ako roon, pero hindi ko alam na nag-eevolve pala ang mga lugar kung saan niya dinadala ang mga babaeng nauuto niya. Hindi ko alam kung ano ang pangalan ng babaeng kasama niya, pero ang alam ko ay lumaban siya sa beauty contest last year. Her face appearance was familiar, that's the reason why I was able to remember her.

I suddenly remember what Tyler said earlier. He wanted me to protect my heart for someone like Cullen as he knows that his friend was a walking heartbreak.

"He can't..." I muttered under my breath as I diverted my gaze from them.

Cullen won't be able to tame me as I am not the innocent Lucy they think I am.

Because I am not a good girl.

Bago ko tuluyang maiwas ang paningin ko sa kanila ay nagtama muna ang paningin namin ni Cullen. His eyes was emotionless not until it met mine. Nakatitig lang ito sa akin habang patuloy lang siya sa paggalaw ng pang-ibabang parte ng katawan niya. His gaze on me went darker as his movement became desperate. not having any plans to stop even I was here, standing in front of them... kahit na medyo may kalayuan ako sa kanila.

They're obviously breaking the rules, pero wala namang mangyayari kung sisitahin ko sila. Makakaabala pa ako sa ginagawa nilang dalawa, at baka mas lalo pang gumulo ang buhay ko.

Katulad ng palagi kong ginagawa ay nagpatuloy na ako sa paglalakad na para bang wala akong nakita. I did this for years already, kaya naman ay kakayanin ko ito ngayon. Seeing Cullen with different girls doing something horrible and e.rotic at the most unexpected places was like seeing the sun rise in the east.

"Damn pervert," I muttered as I remember his hardness on the rooftop earlier. Siguro ay kinailangan niya ring ilabas ang init ng katawan niya dahil mukhang kaninang tanghali pa nagwawala ang alaga niya.

I shook my head as I remember Tyler's advice for the second time.

I know what he was thinking. Sa dinami-rami ng mga naging babae ni Cullen, hindi na ako magtataka kung bakit iniisip ng isa sa mga kaibigan niya ngayon na baka ay mahulog din ako sa kan'ya tulad ng ibang babae. Na baka ay masaktan lang din ako kapag nahulog ako kay Cullen pero hindi rin naman niya ako sasaluhin.

But why would I let myself fall for a man who does nothing but to play with me?