I was having this terrible headache when I woke up and it wasn't from crying like last time, it was me being hungover.
Damn it.
I could barely open my eyes without having this burning Sensation in it
I finally did and I found myself in a strange environment, this wasn't my room.
I held my head in pain and very confused and in a flash everything that happened yesterday played on my head like a movie.
"Holy s**t", I cursed loudly.
I had s*x with a random man??
We didn't even use condoms, oh my gosh what If I get an infection, or worse pregnant!
I managed to get up and walked into the bathroom, I stared at myself on the mirror and almost screamed.
I looked like I wrestled with a bear last night, my hair was scattered and I looked like shit
I splashed water on my face for some minutes and poured some on my hair to cool down the burning Sensation. I guess that kinda worked a bit .
I cleaned my face with a towel and then went back to the room.
It was empty, he just f****d me and disappeared.
As I headed back to the bed I heard a knock on the door, oh no maybe it's him.
I dragged the sheets off the bed and wrapped it around my nude body and then reached the door and opened it.
It wasn't him.
"Hi, room service", the gentleman said cheerfully.
"Uhm, hi", I said.Then I thought oh f**k what if he's gone and left me to pay for the room.
He handed me a bag.
"Your clothes have been laundered, they're fresh and clean and he also dropped a package for you", he said.
"He?", I asked confused.
"Yes, do enjoy the rest of your stay here", he said and then left.
What just happened?
I was so confused, I emptied the bag on the bed. My dress and underwear was there.
Then there were some medications and prescriptions, one was an after s*x pill and then the other one was asprin, because he knew I'd wake up with a headache, oh my gosh this man is so sweet and thoughtful.
Then there was a receipt of p*****t, he paid for the hotel for the rest of the day and then a $5k cheque slip and a box.
What is going?
Why the money?
I was so curious, I opened the box immediately and there was a small diamond necklace with an infinity stones in the middle,this must have cost like a million dollar or something.
I just found myself smiling.
I checked everything and then I frowned, he didn't drop his number.
I'm guessing he just wanted to disappear right after.
I'm definitely not gonna forget him so easily.
He made my night, it was the best I ever had and I was so comfortable being around him, I was the realest and goofiest I'd been in a very long time.
I guess he was just sent to make my night, because I cannot deny the fact that I had suicidal thoughts last night, I cannot.
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When I walked into my room, I think the realization hit me. The whole alluring stranger one night stand thingie was just a distraction, the reality of things were kicking in now.
Yesterday was supposed to be my wedding day, I left that hall filled with people to go and find them and I tracked their phones to that hotel, had to bribe the receptionist to tell me which room they were in.
I had just lost my best friend and the only person I ever talked to, my life as over.
I sat on my couch and picked up my phone with shaky hands, I hadn't looked at it since yesterday.
I turned it on and I saw thousands of text messages and missed calls from everyone I could think of all asking about the wedding.
But the most annoying thing about all of this was that I still found myself checking if I could see one text from Alex telling me that he changed his mind and he was sorry. I still found myself holding on to him .
This was going to be the most miserable day of my life.
I sent a broadcast message to all my contact telling them I'm okay and needed space and then switched off my phone.
I didn't want to see their response, didn't want to know what they had to say, didn't want their sympathy.
I just wanted to be alone.
I looked at the $5k cheque on the table.
I knew what exactly I had to do.
I could stay here anymore, not this apartment, not this town not this city.
I grew up here, I made every memory I could think of here with both Tasha all Alex, I need to move from this place. it was killing me, it was choking me.
For now I'm just going to cut everyone off, start things from the beginning, afresh start.
It was very obvious this time around that it was completely over.
There was a knock on my door.
And again for some reasons, I wished it was Alex.
I opened my door and I was face to face with Tasha.
"What the hell do you -"
"Oh shut it, I came to pack my things", she said and walked into the room.
Yes, we were roommate, I paid the rent and she lived in my house and I never complained for once.
She came in with some guys and they started carrying her things.
"You're happy now right?", I started.
"My wedding has been cancelled, I'm going to be the center of conversation for the next months to come, you're with Alex now, you've gotten everything you've wanted right?", I asked.
She laughed, "More than happy and I cheerfully told everyone that called me to inquire why I didn't show up for your wedding that it was because I was sleeping with Alex, so shove your shame down your ass".
I don't even know what came over me, but I immediately threw a dirty slap across her face.
She screamed and slapped me back, we immediately started fighting. The guys she came with left what they were doing and had to separate us.
"You shameless animal, obsessed freak. I will stop at nothing until I made your life a living hell", Tasha spat.
I couldn't say anything, I was in too much shock to believe that this was my best friend.
"Pack your things and get out!", I yelled.
The guys went back to moving the things and minutes later they were done .
"This is really what you want?", I asked her calmly.
She chuckled, "Darling, he's still in my bed, hasn't left there since yesterday, you think I give a f**k what you want?", she answered.
I nodded and she walked to the door, "Oh and Maroon looks horrible on you, that's exactly why I bought that dress", she said and then slammed my door and left.
I almost believed her, but this alluring stranger I met last night told me it brought out the brightness of my eyes.
I swallowed hard and sighed and crashed to the ground.
I need to leave this city another day here and I'm gonna loose it.