Breaking Her Rule (Jonas Lei & Kaitie Carina Story)

Chapter 13

Ang nararamdaman ko ngayon ay walang pinagkaiba noong nasa high school ako. During the time when my crush glanced my way and waved at me. You know, that feeling when your heart is ballooning with excitement you're near exploding.

Yup, I'm on that high. But this time, it has a certain flavor. And it goes by the name Jonas Lei.

I'm now believing what Kiara and Mika claimed. Mas lumala nga - kung ano man ito - habang patuloy kong pinagpipilitan na wala lang ang lahat.

Pinunas ko ang namamawis kong palas sa aking high-waist pencil skirt. Straightening the imaginary creases so I can ease my mind on seing Jonas again.

It's crazy how he influence me in just a matter of hours. I knew I had set my mind of eliminating him from my life the moment I started packing my things back in Boracay, but somehow, somewhere along the moment when we had the most ridiculous conversation about ownership, my reluctance snapped. And for whatever reasons I have for running towards the other way are now gone.

Kanina habang naliligo ako, napagtanto ko na bakit hindi na lang siya? Kung sa kanya na lang kaya ako magpabuntis? I mean that he is sëx personified. I've been around him long enough to watch and observe what girls do to get his attention and I'm positive he doesn't need to exert a lot of effort to bag a girl home.

It comes naturally to Jonas, especially with oozing s*x appeal, magnetic charm, and of course, let's not forget his body. God, I haven't seen him naked but the way his clothes hug and mold his body already dies weird things to me. Paano pa kaya kung makita ko na nang malapitan at personal?

I bit my lip, my thighs drawing closer with each other. Okay, I need to stop thinking about his body.

I stop blow drying my hair and sighed.

If ever I do this, tell him this, I need to make sure that everything is clear between us.

All I need is him to impregnate me. All I need is the baby. I don't need love. I don't need commitment. If he wants to offer friendship after, I might be down with it. Ngunit kailangan ko rin na linawin na hindi dapat malaman ng bata na siya ang ama.

I shrugged. With the background he has, sigurado naman ako na 'yon din ang gugustuhin niya. Besides, he's at the point of enjoying his life. He doesn't want liabilities, he doesn't want commitment, and more importantly, he doesn't want a baggage that has a cute set of toes and fingers.

Which gives him the first on my roster of candidates. Not that I have a lot, it's just him and Inigo.

Speaking of the latter, I urgently need to tie up some loose ends with him. It makes me feel awful doing this, but I can't keep him. My goodness, palagi kaming pinaaalalahanan ni Nanay na huwag na huwag kaming manakit ng damdamin ng ibang tao, kaya kahit alam kong magiging masama ako sa gagawin ko, mas maganda na tuluyan na akong makipaghiwalay kay Inigo. Hindi kaya ng konsensya kong mamangka sa dalawang ilog.

Hindi rin naman niya maibibigay ang gusto ko. Alam niya na 'yon, but somehow he made it a mission to change my mind. But I'm considering another possilibility, so might as well to parted our ways in a clear agreement.

Kapag nag-usap kami, sasabihin ko sa kanya ang lahat. I owe him that. There's a chance he's resent me but I rather have it that way than to keep him in the dark. At alam ko namang nakita niya itong paparating. But what he doesn't know is that our end rooted from a man who bulldozed his way into my life and refused to yield no matter how hard I try.

Maintaining a confident and determined outlook, I nooded at my reflection. Mentally tagging 'talk with Jonas' and 'talk with Inigo' under the as soon as possible file in my head.

I finished my look with a little face powder and lip gloss. I examined myself in the mirror. Hindi ko alam kung bakit may parte ko ang nagsabi na kailangan kong pag-isipan ang susuotin ko ngayon araw. Hindi ko naman gawain ito dahil wala akong pakialam sa itsura ko basta maayos ang damit kong papasok at haharap sa mga kliyente. Pero ngayon naka-ilang palit at halungkat ako sa damitan ko until I ended up wearing a white , short-sleeved, button down polo, tucked inside my black, high-waist pencil skirt that ends below my kneee, capping my look is my trusty suede black pumps, it was a gift from Attorney Keanna.

Not bad right? It's not like that I want to impress Jonas or anything. I snorted at my reflection. Sure keep telling that to yourself Kaitie Carina Real.

I am still caught up in my internal monologue when my phone vibrated and Jonas's name popped on my screen with a message.

Jonas Lei: I'm right outside.

My lips tipped up and I hurriedly grabbed my purse. I texted Nanay that I was already and about to leave the house and going to the shop since I didn't send her a message earlier to notify her that I was landed safe and sound.

I kept my emotions in check before I encroached our front door. But the composure I was so sure I have dissipated when I saw him standing right on our porch.

He's wearing a purple polo shirt, hugging his body like a second skin. The buldge of his biceps and pecs are so apparent I had a hard time peeling my gaze away from it. His one hand is in the pocket of his worn out jeans while he swirls his car keys in his right pointer.

His grin grew wider when he got a look at me . He stopped playing with his keys before he grabbed one of my hands. Assuming he'll steal another kiss from me, I brace myself. But, I got surprised when he raised our intertwined hands to twirl me around to see my whole outfit.

He stopped when I'm facing him again, he dropped his hold and his hands found my hips. He pulled me closer to him until I'm flushed against his solid body, my palms splayed across his hard chest.

"Hi, baby." bati niya bago niya ako hinalikan ng mariin. He devoured my lips as if he needed it for his next breath. He taunted me with his tongue and I did nothing to protest. He ran it on my lips before he plunged deep to battle with mine.

My moans mixed with the rumble he makes. We kissed and kissed until our lungs started to act up. It was only then when when we broke our heated connection.

Mabigat ang paghinga ko kasabay ng panlalambot ng katawan ko. How come its get better and better every time we kiss?

Tahimik lang akong nakasandal sa didbdib niya, 'yong t***k ng puso niya pumapantay sa bilis ng akin. Hinigpitan niya pa ang pagkakapulupot ng mga braso niya sa'kin.

"God, I wish you don't have to work so we can play dirty secretary instead." He spoke and it's not hard to miss the twinkle of desire and playfulness in his tone.

I slapped his chest and raised my head to glare at him, killing the impending arousal brewing from inside me.

Jeez, even with my three-inched heel, hanggang balikat niya lang ako. Walang panama ang height ko since the years I took Bachelor of Hospitality, Tourism and Experience Management until I enrolled in Philippine National Police Academy.

"Anong dirty secretary pinagsasabi mo diyan?" inis na sabi ko.

He chuckled before groped my ass and pulled me closer, grinding me briefly with his erection. We both moaned before he released me, a little space erupting between our bodies.

"Dirty secretary." He repeated, as if what he need to explain everything. "Naka-outfit ka na kasi. I don't mind playing the boss. I can bend you over the desk and f**k you behind or you can be at you knees and you can - "

I muffled his next words with my hand. Tinakpan ko 'yong bibig niya dahil hindi ko na kinakaya ang mga sinasabi niya. My cheeks are flaring and my spine is tingling with excitement. Hearing him say filthy and erotic things prime my body to an experience I've never had before. And I'm not letting him dirty talk his way to that, though I do intend of sleeping with him, but not until we settled everything.

He smiled against my palm and gave me a concise squeeze on my hip. I glowered at him before I slowly peeled my hand away.

"Okay. We'll get back to this conversation next time." He said with a cheeky grin.

Muli niyang pinagsiklop ang mga kamay namin saka namin binaybay ang daan palabas ng gate. Naka-park siya sa mismong harap ng gate.

I snorted when I saw his BMW. He looked amused and didn't hold back the question once we're setlled inside his luxurious ride.

"What's with the reaction?" He asked when he geared on the ignition and waited for the car behind us to pass by.

"Wala lang. I kind of predicted you have a car like this. Natuwa lang ako dahil tama ang hinala ko."

"Bakit? Anong masama ang may kotseng ganito? Ikaw nga may Cardillac, though expect ko na rin talaga na may sasakyan kang mamahalin." he took a quick glance at me before manuevering his way to the road.

I ignored his last sentence, instead I answered his first question. "Wala naman." sagot ko na lang. "Ilang ganito kaya ang mayroon ka at ilang babae na ang naisakay mo?"

Again, I can't stop myself whenever I think about girls flocking over him. It's just an ugly feeling I can't ignore and will always override my thoughts and my tongue and my words.

I expect him to get irritated but he chuckled before he reached for me using his free-hand. He captured my hand in his before he brought it to his lips. I was about to pull away but he didn't permit. Rather, he rested our knitted fingers in his chest.

"I only have one car. This car and I've been driving this for three years. Having money doesn't mean I get to splurge whenever I want and on whatever I want. Mom will kick my ass if I live that way."

I have to blink a couple of times with his admission of his lifestyle. From what I know, his family run the biggest publishing company in the country, since her mother is a famous author herself. And he's the one who is managing the pharmacy businesses together with his friends that has more than ten branches all over the cities nationwide so money is never an issue. It's just astounding to learn he's practicing a modest life despite the fact that they are rolling in dough.

"Talaga ba?" tanong ko, hindi pa rin makapaniwala.

I saw a sweet smile on his face when he took another quick glance at me. "Talaga." Masaya niyang sagot. "My mom didn't grow up an easy life so she made sure I understood the value of money. So, it kind stuck with me hanggang paglaki ko. Prioritize my needs before going after my wants. I can get what I wanted but only at the minimal.

Oh. So, nag-iisang anak pala siya. Nakakatawa na kahit isa lang siyang anak hindi siya pinalaki ng mga magulang niya na sunod sa layaw at luho. Di ko mapigilan ang lihim na napangiti, the way his parents raised him, is the same way my parents raised us as well.

"Sounds like a great mom." I mused only.

I saw him nodding his head, "That she is." He was silent for a moment before his lips grazed my knuckles. I snapped my eyes at him but his sight is trained at the road ahead of us. "There's only one." He added.

"Huh? One what?" I ask, addled.

He looked at me and grinned. "There's only one woman to ride my car and that's you."

My heart thundered. My palms started to get clammy that I wanted to pull away but he's not letting me.

"Weh? Kahit nanay mo hindi pa sumakay rito?" tanong ko, kahit mapiyok-piyok ako dahil 'yong t***k ng puso ko ramdam ko na sa lalamunan ko.

"Yes. She refused to ride my car. Kapag lumalabas naman kami as a family, we take their SUV. Sayang sa gas kung lahat kami magdadala ng sasakyan."

What am I to reply? I freaking ogled at him eyes wide in shock. Why is it even harder to handle him now? Ngayon tinitigilan ko na ang pagtataboy sa kanya? Bakit mas maigi at madali nang mga panahong pinagtutulakan ko siya palayo?

"I see that surprised you." He laughs.

I shook my head, clearing the daze. I looked away and focused my attention at the road, at the passing tress, anywhere. Because the tension building in my chest is getting heavy and I don't want to dwell on it.

The last thing I need is falling in love with Jonas.

"You know, I never told you but I always loved, the way you smell. Like lavenders."

He finally let go of my hand to toggle the stick shift. I watch him turn to the final street before we reached my shop.

"I don't know why you sudden change of preference but I specifically remembered you hated the way I smell. Sinabi mo 'yon nang unang araw na nagkita tayo. Sabi mo mabaho ako, amoy bulaklak na kape na ewan." Sagot ko sa kanya.

"Alam ko. But I only said that to fool myself. Which apparently, didn't work." He answered right away.

I stirred and face him. Jonas and his mysteries. Talo pa niya ang rosaryo. "Fool yourself from what?"

"I would like to answer that but we're here." He said and pointed at my right. Sinundan ko ng tingin at bumungad sa'kin ang malaking picture window ng flower shop ko. "Saka hindi ka pa handa sa mga ganoong tipo ng katotohanan." Dagdag niya.

Nilingon ko siyang muli pero nakababa na siya ng sasakyan. He jogged to my side and open the door for me. He took my bag and assisted me out of his BMW.

Nang pinagsiklop niya ang kamay naming agad akong bumawi bago niya pa mahigpitan ang kapit. Mabilis niya akong nilingon saka siya nagtaas ng kilay, "I did say your hand stays in mine always, right?"

"Yes but I don't want to hold your hand in front of my employees. I don't want to give them the wrong impression of what this is."

His face hardened, "And what is this exactly to you?"

I have no words. Hindi ko nga alam kung ano ba ito. We never did clear anything, because half of our time together I spent in running away and him chasing me - as he may term it - and the other half expend kissing each other to oblivion.

Not wanting to surrender to the pressure of his words, I buckled my knees and challenged his glare. "Hindi ko alam. Ano nga ba ito Jonas?"

I captured the slight widening of his eyes, telling me he didn't expect me to throw that question to his face. But he quickly masked it with a grin, before he oh-so-slowly stooped his upper body down, aligning his face with mine.

"Hold my hand or I'll kiss you right here, right now. Choose your battle."

His face was of determination and knowing him, he'll do just that. Having no choice, I huffed out my annoyance and grabbed his hand.

He gave me a toothy smile before bringing the back of my hand to his lips. "You getting better at understanding things." Panloloko niya na hindi ko pinansin.

The shopkeeper's bell rang when he pushed the door open. Like the norm, Roselyn and the three more of my staff checked to see who graced our shop a visit.

"Ma'am Kat." Naunang bumati si Roselyn saka lumakbay ang titig niya sa kamay naming magkahawak hanggang sa tumaas 'yon sa mukha ni Jonas. "OMG! SIR JONAS." tili niya, kamuntikan pa nga niya maitulak ang malaking baldi sa harapan niya na puno ng Tulips.

Ignoring the drool over Jonas, I greeted them all with utmost professionalism and headed towards my office, dragging Jonas with me who also waved his hello.

I sighed at the same time I closed the door. For sure, hindi mapipigilan ni Roselyn ang magtatanong, lalo na't kasama ko ang crush niya. Jusmiyo, mabuti na lang at nasa Boracay pa ang ka-team niya.

Napailing ako saka ko narealize na walang nabanggit si Jonas sa'kin tungkol sa kung anong plano niya ngayong hapon.

"Sorry, kinaladkad kita rito. Kapag nagtagal pa kasi tayo sa labas, kukuyugin tayo ng mga 'yon." Saad ko.

Wala siyang sinabi. Taimtim siyang nakatitig sa mesa ko at mukhang lumilipad ang isipan niya. I took that as a chance to get away from his hold, in which I strangely succeeded.

Parang bumalik na lang ang kaluluwa niya nang nakita niya akong nakaupo na sa swivel chair ko. Napatingin pa siya sa tabi niya saka muling pinadako ang mga mata niya sa akin, halatang nagtataka kung paano ako nakawala sa hawak niya.

Taking his confused trance to my gain, I shoot him a question, " Hindi ko natanong. Wala ka bang gagawin ngayong hapon? O ayaw mo bang magpahinga, 'diba may hang-over ka pa?"

Napa-iling siya pero mukhang ginawa niya lang 'yon para sa sarili niya. "Sorry what?" he asked.

Shaking my head at him, I peered away from his face and went to fire up my laptop. "Tinatanong kita kung wala ka bang gagawin ngayon. O ayaw mo bang matulog para mawala 'yang hang-over mo."

He went to set my bag at the mini couch I have before he took the seat positioned in front of my table.

"Wala na akong hang-over, I drank Tylenol before I left my unit earlier. At my gagawin ako ngayon."

Hiding the disappointed that washed over me, I tried smiling at him, "Oh pala. Gawin mo na kaya 'yong gagawin mo."

"I'm doing it right now."

Napatigil ako sa pag-scroll sa calendar ko at napataas ng tingin sa kanya. "And what is it exactly?"

He flashed an electrifying grin, his eyes dilating and darkening as he spoke in a slow and measured tone. "Imagining me fvcking you on top your desk."

Dirty secretary.

Oh sh!t. Gagong 'to! Sana iniwan ko na lang pala dapat siya sa labas.