Jonas's silence was bothering.
I should be happy that he didn't condoned his fit about the Inigo, but I wasn't. Instead, I'm freaking disappointed and pissed.
Pero bakit? Naeenjoy ko ba? Do I enjoy him pestering the hell out of me? Do I relish his obsession with Inigo?
Fvck, I'm starting to lose my damn mind. Hindi dapat ako ganito.
I stopped at the departure gate, contemplating what my parting words for him should be. Pero sa itsura naman niya mukhang di niya inaaantay kung anuman ang sasabihin ko kasi nang maluwang na ang banda niya sa may pedestrian, bumaba na siya. Walang salita. Antipatiko talaga. Walang man lang 'thank you.'
I unlocked the doors of the backseat for him to collect his things. A guard assisted him with the huge frame he's taking with him before he lastly gathered his luggage.
Nang masara niya ang pinto, nakatayo lang siya, di gumagalaw. I was staring at him through my tinted window, thinking if he still sees me clearly.
I should have locked my door, but I'm stuck waiting for him to do the next move.
Kung anuman iyon, sana gawin niya, pero hindi. Because after that uncertain moment, he turned out to his heels and walked away.
Bakit naman kasi ako umasa na bubuksan niya ulit ang pinto para kausapin ako? Diba ito naman ang gusto ko? Ang tigilan niya ako. Ginawa na niya pero bakit naiinis ako.
Why do I find it unsettling and disturbing?
Napagpasyahan kong mag-stroll na lang para mawala ang inis sa sistema ko. Naisip ko ngang mag-reschedule ng flight para ma-process ko pa ng husto itong hindi ko maintindihan na damdamin ko ngunit naisip ko ang kapatid ko. Ano na lang ang reaksyon niya kapag sasabihan ko siyang bukas pa ako aalis? Makikisabay na lang ako kila Nanay?
I sighed my resignation to the idea of seeing Jonas again. Wala naman akong magagawa, hangga't hindi kinakasal ang bestfriend niya at kapatid ko, makikita't makikita ko ulit siya.
Pinakiusapan ko si Nanay na ihatid ako sa airport for the ease of transport. But since she has an early day tommorow for her commitment, we have to leave a bit early.
"I'm sorry, Kitten. Ang aga mo tuloy." Nanay said when she's helping me unload my luggage from the trunk.
I gave her a smile and bid her goodbye with a hug and kissed my forehead. "It's okay, Nay. See you tomorrow. I love you."
I sat by Starbucks and went over my checklist for Kiara's wedding, making sure I'll accomplished all of it.
"Invitations." it read. Saka ko naisipang tignan ang invitation nila. I never paid much thought to it before kasi halos lahat naman na tao na pinagbigyan ng imbitasyon ay mga kakilala. Importante lang din sa akin ay tama lahat ng spelling at maayos ang pagkakagawa.
But thinking about it, I never read Jonas's name there. Narinig ko lang minsan na may second name pala siya ng magbardagulan sila ni Jazz matapos ang rehearsal.
I quickly closed my task manager and went to my files to view the electronic version of it. My eyes skimmed to through. Pinasadahan ko ang mga pangalan ng mga abay. And I found what I was looking for. Nasa baba ito ng pangalan ng pamangkin kong si Dion na siyang Little Best Man.
"Best Man, Jonas Lei Gonzales Angcaya"
Mariing kong tinitigan ang pangalan niya sa hindi ko malamang rason. Gusto ko bang bigla na lang siyang lumabas kung saan? Pero bakit? Why can't I have enough with the presence of that man? It's starting to drown me. He's starting to drown me with his existence.
I jump when I felt my phone vibrating from my purse, breaking the useless reverie I'm having. I searched my bag for it and got surprised when I saw Jazz's name.
"Jazz?"
"Ate! Nakacharge ang phone ko kaya nakigamit ako kay Jazz. Nakaalis na ba si Jonas?" her voice was shaking.
Napapikit ako. Juicekolord Don't tell me he snuck again! "Oo, hinatid ko siya kanina kasi alas- dos ang flight niya."
"W-wala siya rito. We went to check his room, unoccupied pa raw sabi ng front desk."
Tang*ina talaga, oo naman.
I face palmed, magsisimula na naman ng tagu-taguan ang hayop na 'yon. "Sige, sige. I'll try contacting him again, okay?"
"Please, Ate. Hindi siya sumasagot sa'min eh. My husband is also losing it. Lulunurin na raw niya si Jonas kapag hindi pa siya dumating dito."
We bought laughed at the thought. "Sige, babalitaan kita agad."
"Yes, please do that, Ate. Baka mamaya murahin na nang murahin ni Jazz ang taong iyon. Ewan ko ba mas tumigas daw ulo niyan sabi ng asawa ko. Ikaw na lang ata ang pinapakinggan niya." I stilled when I heard my sister's words. What did she just say? "Sige na, Ate. I'll drop the call. Tinatawag na rin ako ni Jazz. Sabay sabay na sa paghingi ng gatas ang mga quadro. Bye, see you here and please bring Jonas with you."
At nawala na siya sa linya. Napatitig ako sa cellphone ko, internalizing what she just dropped on me. What does she mean by that?
Hindi ko alam kung gaano ako katagal na walang galawan, when I felt two hands on both side of my face before my head got tilted upwards, forcing me to look a set of very familiar, coffee, colored eyes.
"Found you." He claimed with grin.
"Jonas?" I asked, dumbfounded. I savored his handsome face for a while before my kind got hurled back to the mess he's making.
I shook my head free of his hold before I twisted my body to face him since he's standing behind me. "Jonas! Anong ginagawa mo dito?! Sabi ko magpunta ka na ng Boracay." I nagged.
He scratched the back of his and ignored me. Sinundan ko siya ng tingin hanggang sa naupo siya sa harapan ko.
"Sa'yo to?" turo niya sa kape ko.
Sinimangutan ko siya. "Hoy, sagutin mo ang tanong ko." I demmanded.
But he continued to disregard my rage. Inabot niya ang kape ko saka niya ininuman 'yon. Napanganga ako sa ginawa niya, kasabay ng sensasyong pag-init ng pisnging naramdaman ko.
He looked amused with my reaction, while he keeps eye contact as he sips. Nang matapos na siya, binalik niya ulit 'yon sa harapan ko. "What? You act so innocently as if you haven't tasted my mouth before well, in fact, I remember giving you a brief but very wet kiss."
I tried my best to scowl at him even though my continuous blushing is making me lose all the intimidation factor.
Hindi ako mananalo sa taong ito. Kahit anong gawin ko, babalik at babalik sa'kin. So, I stomped the idea of getting back at him and just focused on what's important.
"Bakit nandito ka pa? You deliberately missed your flight again. Ilang beses ba kita dapat sunduin at pagsabihan? Pumupuro ka na sa katigasan ng ulo mo ha."
Hindi ko ba alam sa taong ito, imbes na mainis siya dahil tinatalakan ko siya parang natutuwa pa siya.
He propped his elbow on his knees before he rested his chin on his palm the he gave me a heart-racing grin. "I don't mind you mad at me, because whenever it happens, I know I'm the only person consuming your thoughts."
Napipi ako sa mga sinabi niya. Mas lalo siyang ngumisi ng makita niya akong nalilito. I don't know what to do and how to process what he said. And I'm sure it shows clearly on my face.
He gave me a moment to collect my thoughts. I shoved te crazy ideas visiting my head. "Bakit ka nga hindi na naman tumuloy sa flight mo, Jonas?"
"Because you're taking the last flight out."
"Huh? Ano naman ang kinalaman nun sa di mo pagsipot ng flight mo?"
"Marami. You do a lot of things to me and right now all I can think about is doing you."
I got shocked by the sudden turn of our conversation that I went mum. The gleam in his eyes and the alluring grin he has promised a lot of things, things I'm not quite sure I would want to discover.
"But we can't do that right now, can't we?" he later on added. Hindi pa rin ako makapagsalita. It seemed to have swallowed my tongue. "Marami pa tayong dapat pag-usapan at gawin. But the first thing on our list is doing something about that damn boyfriend of yours."