I had never wanted to talk to anybody more than I did when I got back to that tent with Ares, and as we silently stripped out of our clothes and collapsed down onto the warm bedding together I felt like my chest was going to burst from all of the things I was having to hold back.
My thoughts were so chaotic that even if the others were trying to invade my privacy it would not have been worthwhile - my mind wouldn’t settle on one train of thought for long enough for it to be useful that way, and my heart was fluttering as I lay there with my eyes wide open.
Ares was just as restless as I was, but there wasn’t anything we could say while other people were close by, and no matter how much it would have helped to get rid of the energy and tension another way that really wasn’t an option, now
