Chapter-3
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Tulika's pov
1 month passed away in a blur everything was too chaotic for me. Everyman demanded me but Trina Masi didn't allow anyone.
Whenever some men catch my glimpse they always look at me like I'm some piece of meat. And the irony is many powerful and influential people came there.
I always dance in front of them as I have to do something to live if not sleeping with someone.
Nowadays I feel really sick.. Always Feeling like vomiting and dizziness. I can't even eat much. One day I was standing on the terrace and saw Najma didi had left a jar of pickles in the sunray.
My mouth watered by looking at it and I thought it tasted good. Normally I don't like sour things.
"Najma didi amake ektu achar debe?" (Najma didi,will you give me some pickle?)I asked her
She nodded and gave me some in a bowl.
The taste felt heavenly.. I finished it in a few minutes.
"Tulika tui ki pregnant?"(Tulika, are you pregnant?)Najma didi asked me
"ki?"(what?) I asked her bewildered
"ha tui ki pregnant karon ami dekhchi toke kichu din dhore. Tor lokhon kintu tai bolche," (Yes, are you pregnant? As i am watching for someday ,symptoms are telling so)she said
And I thought about it. I haven't got my periods for 2 months.
I thought maybe it's something else but now it makes sense. What will happen if I'm pregnant?
Will they ask me to abort it? I placed my hand on my flat stomach.
" Didi ami ki kore janbo ami pregnant ki na?" (Sister , How will I know I am pregnant or not?)I asked her
"Hmm dara ami dekhchi ki kora jai, Trina masi ke bolis na kichu ekhon,"(Hmm, wait. Let me see what I can do .Don't tell Trina masi now)
Najma didi said and I nodded
Later that day she gave me 3 pregnancy test kits and asked me to take a test.
With shaky hands I took the test and prayed it would be negative.
Because I don't want to bring another life in this hell hole. If it's a girl then her fate is sealed.
But much to my horror it showed positive.
I fell on the ground with tears flowing from my eyes.
What will happen now?
"Tulika?" Najma didi called my name
I got out from the washroom and showed her the result.
"ami jantam atai hobe, abar trina masi ke bolte hobe," (I knew this would happen. Now let's tell to Trina masi)
Najma didi said and I nodded
Trina Masi asked me to sleep with men as my time is over.
But I refused to agree with it. And in anger she came into my room.
I told her about my pregnancy and she asked me if I want to keep it or not.
And obviously I said I want it.
Can I bear the guilt of killing this innocent life? No can't! If I killed it because it's conceived like this then what's the difference between me and my parents?
I'm not like them. I won't abandon my child.
Trina masi always has a little soft corner for me maybe because I was only 10 when I came here. She tries to be as generous as she can be with me and obviously many girls don't like me for it.
Trina masi took me with her to check me by a doctor who stayed here only.
The doctor told me my pregnancy has complications as I'm only 18 and it can cost me my life.
It's good if I die. I will get freedom from my cruel fate. And as my last wish I will ask trina masi to send my child away even if it's a girl.
And that's what I did. I told her and she agreed.
Trina masi said she contacted him (Mainak) and to inform him about his child but he simply denied to accept it.
I wasn't shocked a little bit because I know it will happen as expected.
Months passed and my health condition started to worsen. I thought maybe I won't survive this but how wrong I was.
When I was 8 months pregnant I went into early labour and gave birth to my daughter.
My little mahashweta
I had decided if I give birth to a girl I will name her mahashweta
I had told it to Najma didi as well if I couldn't survive it.
But miracles do happen and I survived it.
My baby is the most beautiful baby I ever saw. She is so tiny and cute.
Trina masi named her Mahi as Mahasweta is her long name.
When my baby was one week old her father came to meet me.
I hugged my girl to my chest tightly. This man only spread negative vibes nothing else.
He was here to take my baby away from me but I didn't want to give up on her.
I only had her in my life in the name of a loved one.
But when he said my daughter will become a p********e I felt like someone poured cold water on Me.
I was thinking that my daughter could live a normal life.
She will also become like me, a p********e.
If she goes with her father then she will live a life full of luxury and respect. No one will taunt her calling her names.
She will be also disgusted by me in future when I will tell her that I had no chance to give her a good life.
He suggested that he will give me money so I can leave this place and start my life from a new point. I am only 18 right now.
I think about it and it's not a bad deal. I will get freedom and my daughter will get her father's name and a good life so I agreed to it.
I know I won't be able to see my daughter again once I give her away because he clearly said it when I said I want to meet her.
He clearly declined it saying I can't meet her because she won't know me as her mother. In her life I won't exist.
It is a hard decision but I have to take it.
I said yes and that's it. He took my daughter and my mahashweta from me.
Trina masi said because I'm weak she will let me go once I'm fit. She really loved me very much.
for 3 months I stayed there and once I was OK I decided to leave.
No one knew about my leave so I have to leave at night.
Trina masi gave me my bank account details and check book. He has given me 10 lakhs. It's the price I got in exchange for my daughter..
"Oh mei digha ese ge6e je," (hey girl, it's Digha) the contractor said and I came out of my trance
"oh ase gechi? (Oh..I reached?)" I asked
"ha," (yes)he replied and I got up from my seat
It's early morning here and soon the sun will rise.
I have to walk a lot to reach my parents house.
I came here but are they even staying here?
Anyways I have to check by myself that with that thought I started walking.
I still remember the path of my house though I didn't come here for 8 years.
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