Be Naughty With Me (TAGALOG)

Chapter 3

Chapter 3: Crush you

Our school camp came and it's a bit off for me lately, specifically after that night happened. Well, napagkasunduan namin ni Akio na kalimutan na lang ang "aksidente" (para sa kaniya) na iyon at mananatili pa rin ang samahan namin kahit ang pananatili niya sa puder ko, pero it is not the same for me anymore. That night was too precious for me how can I forget that? Pakiramdam ko kahit sa punto lang na iyon ay sa akin siya, kahit na iba ang hinahanap niya nang gabing ‘yun.

He easily forgot everything, but that moment is still fresh for me. His warmth, his lips, his everything. Still being close to him and living with him is like strangling me to death, pero siya parang wala lang. Well, aksidente lang nga ‘yun para sa kaniya plus he really only got his eyes for his brother.

"Hey Aki." nasa onsen (hot spring) kaming dalawa noon, kaming dalawa lang. First night nang camp namin at hinayaan muna kaming gawin lahat ng gusto namin. I called out to him with trembling hands yet, with complete decision.

"Oh?" he looked at me nang may nag-aabang na mukha at kunot na noo.

You can do it Sanjou.

"D-do you still remember my offer to you?" that I offered him to go out with me on that same night.

"Ahh…That? That you want to help me forget Rin by going out with you? C'mon Sai, I already said na hindi na kailangan diba? I am thankful na tinutulungan mo ako plus, you know… we have done something na alam kung pareho nating hindi gusto. I am guilty and sorry about that really." he said with sincerity. ‘Yan. ‘Yan ang lagi niyang sinasabi. Na naguiguilty siya dahil nakuha niya ako at ani niya'y hindi ko ‘yun gusto kahit pa pareho kaming wala sa katinuan noon.

Pero ginusto ko ‘yun at ako nga ang may nagawang kasalanan sa’yo! I am the one who is already at the right mind that time and I took advantage of the situation para maging akin ka sa gabing ‘yun.

My hands turned to balls sa galit para sa sarili.

"What if I tell you na ginusto kong mangyari ‘yun and I really meant it when I said I want you to go out with me?" lakas loob kong sabi habang nakatingin sa mga mata niya. Bakas ang gulat sa mga mata niya. He nervously laugh.

"Oi, oi… C'mon Sai stop shitting around. You're kidding me right?" umaasa niyang ani pero seryoso pa rin akong nakatingin sa kaniya dahilan para mapailing siya at mapabuga ng hangin, hindi makapaniwala. "Kailan pa?"

"Una palang kitang makita." dirediretso kung sabi dahilan para mas mapailing siya. He licked his lips at pinasadahan niya ng kamay ang buhok. His expression tells me na hindi talaga siya naniniwala at ayaw niya ang mga naririnig sa’kin ngayon.

"Sai alam mo naman diba? It's Rin. It is only him for me. I… I'm sorry. Kaibigan kita at I am very thankful sa lahat ng tulong mo sa’kin. You are the one who is always there for me when I need someone so please, if you are kidding stop it already. I don't want to hurt you." nagsusumamo niyang sabi.

A tear escaped in my eyes. I am hurt more than enough Akio. Kahit alam ko na iba ang nilalaman niyang puso mo. Kahit alam kong walang pag-asa. Kahit na kaibigan lang talaga ako sa’yo na masasandalan mo kapag nasasaktan ka, pero masama ba na kahit katiting lang ay umaasa pa rin ako na masusuklian mo rin ‘tong nararamdaman ko sa’yo? Kahit konting konti lang.

"Those words of you already hurt me Aki. Pero pwede bang hayaan mo muna akong mahalin ka hanggang sa mapagod na ako?" nakayuko kong ani. Man, I must look like a crap right now. Bawas macho points.

"Sai…" he sounds so sad. Hey man… ‘Pag mas nag-alala ka sa’kin ng ganiyan mas lalo mo lang akong binibigyan ng rason na mahalin ka.

I pulled him for a kiss.

"F*ck Sanjou!" he tried to shove me away, pero mas niyakap ko siya. Ngunit mas nagkaroon siya nang lakas at napagtagumpayan niyang itulak ako ng makita kami ng kinakapatid niya. That night, it is very clear to me that no matter what I do, he will still chase after his stepbrother and I'll end up hurting.

Who said love is a wonderful feeling? The love that I know is loving the one I love only behind his back. That night, no matter how much I called out his name to come back to me, no matter how I wanted him to not chase his brother, no matter how I want him to just be with me, still, he didn't heard me. But who am I fooling right?

I am already done for.

"It is so good that you'll want more and more from him right? I know. Because he made me screamed his name in ecstasy couple of times before he did that with you." tinapik ko pa muna sa balikat bago lumabas ng CR ang noo'y gulat na gulat na si Rin Fujiyuki, Akio's little stepbrother at ang minamahal niya. Nakita ko siyang nag CR pagkatapos nang umagahan namin kung kaya't sinadya kong sundan siya.

I know I'm defeated. It is as clear as the day. But I want to crush him! I still don't want to give up my love for Aki yet. Last night, I know they did it. They started to build a relationship. It was obvious on Aki's glorious smile pagkabalik niya sa kwarto naming, pero kapag tumitingin na siya sa sa’kin ngayon ay awa at lungkot na ang meron d’un. That made me even more pissed.

"You didn't made any funny move at Rin don't you, Sanjou Akagi?" natigilan ako at nawalan ng gana ang mukha nang pagkalabas ko ng CR ay ang mukha ni Jun Miyamoto ang sumalubong sa’kin. Umalis siya sa pagkakasandal sa pader at seryoso akong tinignan.

"Shut up brat, you don't know anything." seryoso ko ring sabi.

"But I know you very well Akagi. Once you want to crush someone gagawin at gagawin mo talaga." he said. That intense stare of his made me more pissed than I already am.

Magkapatid nga kayo.

"Listen kid. You better get out of my way or I will crush you too." banta ko. But he just gave me an amused look. Tila ba may sinabi akong nakakatuwa at talagang pabor sa kaniya. His lips twitched and a very pissing smirk surfaced on his face.

"Ohh… I'll be very pleased Akagi. I'll look forward on how you will crush me. Any funny moves from you is very welcome to me." talagang tuwang tuwa niya pang sabi.

"Ch!" linagpasan ko na lang siya at talagang sinadya pang banggain ang balikat niya para iparamdaman ang inis at muhi ko sa kaniya. Lalo pa't kapatid siya ng abogadong ‘yun. Makita ko lang ang mukha niyang hawig sa Yujin Miyamoto na ‘yun ay naiinis na ako.

Bakit nga ba? Basta naiinis ako! Ayaw na ayaw ko ang abogadong ‘yun lalo pa't siya ang... tsk! And of all people malapit din sila sa kinakapatid ni Aki. Nakakainis! Bakit ba magkakadikit lahat ng kinaiinisan ko.

"Sinasabi ko sa’yo pag may ginawa ka kay Rin hinding hindi kita papalagpasin." dinig ko pang ani niya pero dirediretso lang ang lakad ko paalis.

I gritted my teeth.

Rin… Rin… Rin! What's with that guy? Even Jun is protecting him, s**t! Does he like him too?!