Bellatrix

Gone Like the Wind

CHAPTER 32

Gabriel

These past few weeks have been the worst of my life! We have searched just about everywhere and can not seem to find my Bella. My men tracked down the cab driver whom she had used to the bank and pharmacy, but the information received from him didn't help much in our search. Her phone was tracked down and found on a train, but she was nowhere in sight. She knew me better than I thought, and she was covering her tracks well. Clearly, she doesn’t want to be found, I guess putting myself in her shoes, I would also have been pissed off and wanted nothing to do with me. But I have to find her and clear up this misunderstanding!

I am going crazy without her. She’s my everything! She’s my soul mate! It’s even worse at home. Everyone is so angry with me, too. I didn’t want anyone thinking badly of my Bella and told them the truth. I told them what I am sure she had seen and heard and thought that I had betrayed her and decided to run away. I explained to Jacob why she couldn’t take him with her. I am his legal guardian now. He was so angry with me and said that he wished that they had never met me and that my Bella and him were doing fine before I walked into their lives. He hasn’t been speaking to me since, no matter how hard I tried, he just ignored me. Thankfully, Dad, Mum, and Arianna were there for him, but even they were giving me grief daily about finding my Bella soon. I just don’t know where else to look. No one in Honeyville has heard from her, too. I even got my men to search her old hometown. I haven’t been eating or sleeping well since the morning we found out that she had gone. Who would ever have thought that all it would take to drag the mighty Gabriel Knight down was to get him to fall madly in love and have that love rejecting him! Running my fingers through my hair and frustatedly pulling at it, I shouted out loudly, “WHERE ARE YOU MY LOVE? WHERE ARE YOU?” as though expecting an answer.

I wished I could turn back the hands of time and change all that happened that day in my office. I have known Mia for many years and we have become very good friends. She knew that we could never be together, but that didn’t stop her from her flirtatious talks and actions. She was always teasing me and playing around, but nothing ever came out of it, we knew each other well enough to know that it was just Mia being Mia!. She knew about the whole Mason story and was telling me that afternoon to tell my Bella the truth before she somehow found out from someone else. She didn’t meet my Bella, but from what she has apparently heard via the rumors mill, she decided that my Bella wasn’t my type and I deserved better. I replayed everything that Mia had said to me that day in my mind and could only imagine how hurt my Bella was hearing all those things. I can’t just let her go, I have to find her, but where else should I look? She just disappeared, Gone like the wind…

Bella

It's been almost a month now since I started working at the bakery and living just behind it, and it turned out to be perfect for me! I could stay well hidden, and when I did have to go out for work purposes, I made sure I was unrecognizable. I even wore fashion, coloured, contact lenses, and my hair color was now a bright shade of blue. I had to lie to Erica that I ran away from my obsessive and abusive boyfriend and was just worried that he might find me, because she noticed my nervousness whenever she asked me to go and get supplies for the bakery or deliver stuff to customers. She was very understanding and assured me that when her delivery guy returned from leave, I wouldn’t have to go out. Erica was amazing and was so passionate about baking that it showed in everything she made. Everything she made was like a work of art. I learned so much from her within a short space of time. She was so much fun to be around and she was not just my boss but became my friend too. She respected that I had my secrets and never pushed for me to tell her anything and told me that she knew that when the timing was right, I would open up to her. She was truly beautiful both inside and out. Her boyfriend, Neo, came by the bakery often and in the beginning when curiosity got the better of him, he started asking me questions, she sternly put an end to it and told him to never repeat those questions and whatever she told him about me is all he needed to know. After that, we formed a really good friendship. I missed Jacob so much, even Arianna and my friends from Honeyville, but I could not chance contacting them. I prayed daily that they had forgiven me and understood why I had to do what I did. Perhaps I was being selfish, but I had to do this for me. Sticking around and seeing Gabriel after what he did to me would be like rubbing salt to a wound! As much as I would love to hate him for breaking my heart, I can't. He's my one true love!

I had not been feeling well for a few days now. I was lightheaded and nauseous so often, especially in the mornings. I thought I had picked up a bug or something, and it would get better if I took some rest. Erica allowed me to take a couple of days off to get better, and she popped in to check up on me, bringing me soups and medicine to help with the nausea. On the third day, though, when she came through, I got one hell of a shock! She brought three different types of pregnancy tests and said that she suspected that I was pregnant. Dammit! Gabriel and I always had unprotected s*x! How could I have been so irresponsible! Erica convinced me to take all three tests just to make sure. The few minutes we waited for the results felt like hours. All of the tests gave the same result. I was pregnant! Am I even ready to be a mother, or am I even worthy to be one?!