Memories of regret

New Beginning

                     ~°Chapter 7~°

I heard Lisa's voice saying “Ems, wake up. We have to get ready.”

I quickly woke up out of shock. I look to my side and see that Cole is already gone. I rubbed face and started to cry. I wish that I had more time, today I'm leaving earth behind, leaving my friends and family behind, not knowing if I'll ever see them again, but that is not the only reason why I'm crying, I miss Lisa and Dakota, even if I get to see my mom and friends again, I'll never get the chance to see them again.

I held my mouth shut so that no one can hear me cry.

Diana walked to my tent, stopping infront of it. “Emy, can I come in?” she asks.

I wiped my tears and nose and cleared my throat. “Yeah.”

She zipped my tent open and crouched down to look at me.

“Are you okay?” she asks.

“Yeah. I'm fine.”

“Okay... Well my mom told me to call you, your mom is looking for you. Something about an experiment.” she tells me

I look up to her, with eyes that burns, “I'll be there in a moment. ”

I put on my jacket and walked to the office.

Cole quickly caught up with me “Why didn't you tell me about the experiment? ” he asks.

“I thought you knew. Besides you'll find out now...Do you think your father will be okay with us?”

“Ofcourse. You know the rules are just there for kids and teenagers. ” he states.

“No, I didn't know. ”

Doctor Zavier opened the door, telling us to come in.

My mom is sitting on a chair with her hand on her chin. She looks disappointed.

“Gessing it didn't work.” I said.

“No, it worked for a while. She woke up this morning and stayed awake for 20 min, but sadly she didn't make it.” my mom explains.

“But not all hope is lost right? Etleast she didn't die a zombie.” Cole tries to change the results positive.

“Yeah. And maybe you don't need blood maybe you need skin sells.” I added.

“Maybe...what do you think Zavier? ” my mom asks the doctor.

“No harm in trying.” he awnsered.

Docter Zavier handed us packages telling us to change into the suits. He then hands us boxes of supplies we must take with us.

“Inside those boxes is papers full of tasks you need to do if you get there. Everything that's purple is the most important to humanity so. If one of those are negative you must imdaintly come back to earth. Just remember this is three month trip more or less. After doing the important tasks, you must send us the results as fast as you can. We'll take the samples of your skin twenty minutes before we leave for Russia.” my mom tells us. I could see she's trying to hold back her tears.

“I have an idea. If we get to the planet, I'll be the first one to take off my helmet, to make sure the oxygen is breathable, after that, Cole and the other astronauts should do the same, just to see if it's breathable for everyone.” I explained my plan.

“It's a big risk, but we need the risk for better results.” my mom says.

After my mom and the doctor took the skin samples, we imdaintly left for Russia. Before we left I greeted everyone goodbye. Nicholas is full of tears when I got to greet him. I know they're going to miss me, but for a better future for them all, I have to do this mission.

We went with a jeep luckily not on foot. Every place thats blown up has more zombies then before. We had troubles along the way, but we got there safe.

We soon reached the camp where we are going to be send off at.

My mom asks me to stand intfront of the rocket for a photo. She has this old camera that she uses for special occasions like these. My mom then asks Cole to stand with and kiss me for the photo, then the other two astronauts should join us for a photo aswell.

We all waved goodbye, and head into the rocket.

I know this is my last day on earth. Last day of seeing my mom and friends. But something tells me that this new planet isn't ment for me but for other people.

**On the new planet **

The trip was save, we had our difficulties reaching it, but we made it.

I'm the first one to set foot on the planet.

“It's beautiful. There are more green and blue here than on earth.” I said.

I took off my helmet, having this fear of dieing if I don't put it back on quickly.

I breathed in the air, after a while I felt this pain in my stomach, and every pain I had in the past is returning. I'm stronger now so I know I won't pass out again. I didn't feel nauseous, only weak.

“So? Is it breathable? ” Cole asks.

“Yes, but to make sure, take of yours.” I tell him.

He did as I said.

“I'm breathing fine.” he says out of joy.

The other two astronauts did the same and it worked for them aswell. The pain still didn't stop, it's hurting everywhere in my body, but I don't want to show it. I see that Cole is fine and the others.

“Lets begin,” the women said “I'm Sasha by the way and this is Rick.” she introduces herself and the other guy.

I took out the papers in the boxes.

“Okay, first task, is done, make sure there's breathable oxygen. Okay second one is to test the water, third is the plants. Okay we will do that. You guys test the other 5 tasks.” Cole explains. He hands them a copy of what they should do.

While we were walking towards the water, I felt this awful stabbing in my stomach, I held my stomach and stopped walking.

“Hey, hey are you okay.” Cole asks worried.

“Yeah, I'm fine. Probably just the carma my body is giving of taking away a few skin sells.” I replied.

We walk further. I know it wasn't that, that's causing the pain. I'm not imunne to the planet like them. I can see that.

After taking the water and plant samples we headed back to the the little camp we sat up earlier.

Rick and Sasha wasn't long before they returned.

We sat on the floor, while opening the food cans we packed in. I didn't want to eat, but I had to.

We talked and laughed together, while eating. Sasha told me her field in science and Rick was talking to Cole.

I have the urge to go to the bathroom.

Along the way I couldn't stop coughing.

I leaned down infront of a bucket.

Something I never would've thought will happen, is happening, “I'm coughing up blood.”

“Émony, are you okay.” Sasha asks while she puts her hand on my back.

“Yeah. I'll be fine. Just need some rest that's all,” I tell her, I wiped off the blood on my lips, “Don't tell Cole, please. I don't want him to worry about this aswell.” I begged her.

She has a worried look in her eyes.

“I know I can trust you.”

She didn't say word. I think she is trying to fight out what's wrong with me.

“Come'on, let's get you to bed. ” she says then she helps me get up.

She layed me down on my bed. I thanked her and told her to tell Cole I'm just tired.

The new planet has everything like earth, only it doesn't have much land, but if all the other people come here they can search everything.

I know I'm not going to make it to see the day when everyone has evacuated earth, but the few moments I have here I can etleast spend time with Cole.

**3 months later**

I got sicker day by day, throwing up, collapsing, passing out, sleeping more and more. I didn't tell Cole but I can see that he knows. He tries everything he can to help me.

Al the results are positive except for that there isn't fruit growing, but we already planted some tree's and bushes and they are growing fine.

Cole tested most of the stuff that needed to be tested. I know he'll find someone he loves. Even though I'm on my death bed, I still wish I had more time to see the future.

Cole is always by my side, not leaving. The people from earth is announcing the evacuation tomorrow.

I made a few videos for my mom to watch so that she doesn't miss me as much.

“It's going to be fine.” Cole says with tearing red eyes, while coresting my hair gently.

I can't hear him clearly but I can make out what he's saying.

I was never afraid of death but it's terrifying when your close to it. But perhaps we aren't afraid of death, maybe it's about our presents being gone, our names being said one last time, then it goes silence. Our inhaled breath being exhaled one last time.

The only thing I regret is that I wish I never led Lisa to that boutique in Houston and inviting Dakota to my birthday, aswell as my family and friends.

But I'll see them soon.

I starred at the sealing, thinking about life from my childhood, is this how my life flashes before my eyes, remembering how I used to run around at school, hugging my mother and my first real kiss by Cole.

As hard as it already is, I have to tell Cole that I love him, then I closing my eyes, seeing his eyes for the final time...

I never thought the pain would actually stopped, I couldn't feel anything in my body and the last thing I heard was my heavy breathing. I couldn't hear or feel my heart beating, but etleast I don't feel anything anymore.

One day I'll see everyone... One day.

**Note from Émony to the people **

**Dear everyone . I can't tell you how much I miss you. I hope that you'll be fine on this new planet and always remember me. Not all is lost though. With my last dieing breath I just want to say that I love you all. I hope that you guys never change who you are. Like the saying goes...Bad things happen to good people. Forgive me for not being there to celebrate with you, but I'll always be looking down on you from above. Or somewhere. Enjoy your new life, forget the old one. Don't regret anything you've done there, it's the past. I love you all...-Love Émony Ransom. **

*The End*