Ivan I stared at my half-filled glass blankly and sighed. I didn't know exactly what I was thinking. Or what I was feeling. There was a numb blankness within me which was something I don't think I have ever experienced before. At least not of this intensity. It was uncomfortable and I hated every moment of it. But fighting this feeling was making everything even worse. I know that I needed to accept this reality soon that Vera was gone, after betraying me and shattering my trust and faith to pieces. And now Amber has replaced her. Can I ever give her the love that I felt for Vera? Can I ever give her the place in my heart that I had opened up for Vera? No. I don't think I can. I have spend too long loving her.