Chapter 4
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*Door Opens*
I suddenly woke up when I heard the door opens
Ah it must be alex...
He's home?
Ah it's really alex....
"What do you think you're doing?
sleeping there in the dark like some ghost?! Are you trying to scare someone to death?!" He said. Why is he so surprised like that?
It's beacause I fell asleep in the sofa.
"I just woke up, I forgot to turn the lights on" I said
"You're not busy with work anymore?" I asked him
"Even if I'm busy, I still have to find some
time to come home.
You too I've been away for a few days and you don't even give me a call."
Liar. I call you everyday and many times but you don't even answer.
And what do you mean? days? it's f*****g 5 weeks. Bastard.
"Do you eat on time? you become skinner.
You're not a kid anymore. Shouldn't you know how to even atleast take care of yourself?
Don" He said. So he is disgusted by me, huh
He doesn't love me anymore?
Do I look like a crap to him now?
I didn't talk back at him.
I just leave him there and I go to our room to sleep.
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He took a bath before going to bed
and then I feel his presence in my back.
And then he touched my stomach
"How much weight did you lose?" He asked
"I didn't have an appetite so I ate less" I said then he started to touch me in my private parts and kissed me.
"I don't wanna do it. I'm tired so..." I said
"I have been gone for so a long time, don't you even miss me at all?" He said
"I don't feel good. I feel unwell so... just go and sleep." I said
"Well... good night" He said.
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I suddenly woked up and remembered what my mom told me
'Jeanne, relying solely on love, how will you and alex last longer?'
'No matter how much he loves you,
There's always a possibility of him finding someone better than you out there.'
'The day you begin to looking back at the good old days, Will be the day your relationship with him finally collapse.'
Those were the words my mom told me.
But I still love alex
I still can't leave him...
I looked at alex sleeping face
And I said to him
I don't have more than a year left...
No matter how much you fool around outside,
No matter how much you cheat on me...
You don't do it infront of me..
"Ashely..."
I was shocked.. Who is 'ashley'?
I that his...
I began to start crying
Why are you so cruel to me?
Please don't be so cruel to me...
I have never really gotten mad at you.
But if you continue to treat me like this I..
This time round
I really will leave by your side forever....
He's sleeping so of course he did not hear me.
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I went to the balcony to cool my head off
11 years had passed...
11 yeara....
Why did he changed so much from before?
He really loved me before
I gave everything to him...
I did my very best to make him love he even more...
What did I lack of...?
It wasn't easy but I finally made it into something
Yet, now I'm suffering another form "Hardship"
But who else can I blame?
It was a stupid path that I chose for myself
I wish I can go back to the good old days....
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"Why are you up so early? I woke up feeling cold on my side.
You should have sleep some more." He said cause he just woke up
"I got used to waking up early.
I didn't cook so you should head out for lunch later." I said
"You're feeling unwell?" He asked
"Yeah it's just a cold, nothing to worry about."
"Are you not going to work today?" I asked
"Nope, I will stay at home to accompany you." He said
"In that case I'll prepare somthing for you to eat." I said
Then he went to the living room.
Before I even start cooking
I see alex in my back.
"Are you raising flowers?" He asked with a frustrated face.
Ah he must be seen the flower that Doc. brian gave me..
"I thought liked tending to plants?" He said
"My friend gave it to me, I'm just trying it out for fun?" I said back to him
"Friend?
Who's friend?
From where?
Do I know them?"
"Such an expensive flower just for you to try out for fun?" He asked
I did not talk back
I just ignored him and continue what I was doing.
"Jean!" He shouted at me and grab my hand the food I was about to cook fell on the floor cause he suddenly grabbed my hand.
What's wrong with him?
Why is he so mad? It's just a friend.
"You are allowed to go outside to fool around and have fun, yet I'm not allowed to make friends?" I said back at him.
"What the f**k are you saying?!
I'm out there, working my self to the bone to provide for you, yet you're here at home thinking shits like this?!" He said
"Do you really think that I need you to provide for me?
Is 50% of my shares are not enough for my living expenses?" I said
"This hous is under both of our names, and suddenly you're my sugar daddy?
Alex is there something wrong with your brain?" I said
"...By changing the topic so far, aren't you just so afraid that I'll find about what you're hiding?" He said
"Who knows if you have already someone else out there?" He said
It's just a f*****g plant...
Why is he making such a fuss
"That damned plant is so expensive.
The cost of that plant is enough for you to make a down payment for a f*****g house." He said
Of course I was shocked...
It's that expensive?!
I... I shouldn't have accepted it from Doc. brian.
"If you aren't willing to return home, then get lost,
Go fool around outside, Just don't do it infront of my f*****g face.
I don't care anymore." I said.
And then he raise his hand and was about to hit me...
"You're really willing to hit me?" I said then I feel my tears began to fell off my face.
When he saw my teary eyes
He did not continue it. He just leave me there and he walked out and slammed the door.
Leaving me just like that...
Aren't you even gonna comfort me and say sorry..?
You're so f*****g cruel...
Why did you become like this..?
Are you tired to me now..?
Why is this happening to me...?
Just where the f**k did I go wrong..?
I... Don't think I can do this anymore...
I'm so f*****g tired... I need a break...
I'm at my limit...
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