Tattooed in my Heart

CHAPTER 02

I was waiting for Klarissa, my best friend, to take me away from that f*****g place. She was my only friend whom I could comfortably narrate every details of my lonely life. She knows me more than Marvin knows me and if I was a normal straight guy, I would definitely jump on her but I wasn't and thinking about jumping my bestest friend made me cringe but I would definitely choose her over all the girls if I had to sleep with their specie.

I kicked the dry leaves near my feet and checked the time. It has been five minutes since Marvin left me and I sat on that bench alone. I couldn't believe I just let him go without fighting.

"That rodent." I muttered and I tried not to think of the things that involved him.

But every little things in my life involves him.

"Damn it."

"Brent?"

I looked up and saw Klarissa walking towards me. I stood up and walked towards her and pulled her in a tight hug. She hugged me back tightly.

"That asshole." She said. That's what she always says every time Marvin and I fight and I always, always went to her for comfort. I didn't tell her yet but I think she knew already. She could read me like an open book.

I couldn't hold my tears and I cried on her shoulder and she was a few inch shorter than me so I wiped my tears on the side of her neck. She got use to it already.

"I'm seriously going to burn his house this time." She said and I shook my head and damn, my tears wouldn't stop from flowing as my heart constricted. It hurts so much.

I was fine a few minutes ago that I think I could live just fine without him, but now, it felt like the reality already sunk inside my head like someone hammered it in my thick skull to my brain.

"Should I burn his dog instead?" Klarissa said and I knew she meant to make me laugh and cheer me up but I remembered that Marvin promised to buy me a dog on our anniversary and he f*****g forgot. It made me cry even more and Klarissa hugged me tighter and I couldn't understand some words she was saying but I heard her saying we should go and talk to her car instead.

We walked to her car and I could feel those people there were looking at me and trying to guess what happened. I felt relieve when I got inside her car and she sat beside me on the backseat and then grabbed something from the front seat. A box of tissue and she handed it to me and pulled some then start wiping my horrible face.

"You'll be fine." She said.

"We broke up." I said with a cracked voice and I didn't know but I just saw her face lightened for a millisecond. I knew she wasn't a fan of Marvin because he always makes me cry.

Yes, I am a cry baby. Got something so say about it?

"I thought you just fought." She said and she pulled another wave of tissues and rolled it around her hand and placed it on my nose. "Blow."

I blew my nose and I almost cringed hearing the sticky sound effect.

"Nice." Klarissa said and I chuckled lowly.

"He sounds so serious about it and just when I bought a box of condoms." I said and she frowned. "What am I gonna do about it?"

Klarissa grinned. "Let's make balloons out of it, how about that?"

I looked at her and we both laughed and I got the most clogged nose laughs. It still hurts but I' would get over him and I didn't want her to worry about me.

I would surely get over him in no time.

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I checked my face at the rear view mirror and I think the most horrible halloween mask looks more decent compared to my face. It was red-ish from all the crying and my eyes looked like I was punched. It was swollen. I always hated it every time I cry. I hated my face for being so sensitive and everything.

I turned to Klarissa while she was driving. I didn't feel like going home because I knew mom would still know that I was crying and she would know why.

She accepted me for who I am but she hated Marvin for me and I didn't know why. Marvin was all I could dream of. He was my dream man. If mom would know that we cooled off, that that Marvin was in the process of finding himself or was it just his excuse or you could say that we already broke up, she will definitely slap me with her triumphant smile and say I told you so right straight to my f*****g crying face. She always said those line every time she caught me crying because Marvin and I were fighting. I could picture her in my mind jumping in joy with the news.

I will slightly hate her. Definitely. So, I didn't want to go home right now and the only place I could think of to stay the night was no other than Klarissa's.

But the thing was, she never really invites anyone in her house because she hated it and she kept on saying that their house was small and there would be no space for another person.

Yeah, everything make sense. She have a small house but she was driving a 2017 Chevrolet model. Like I would believe her. Maybe she was hiding something nasty in their house.

"Can I stay the night in your house?" I said and she hit the brake making me scream. "What the f**k!"

"I almost didn't notice the red light." She said and I thought she hit the brake because of what I said.

"I thought you were going to kill us! I don't want to die without moving on with Marvin!" I said and she chuckled.

"I'm sorry. I thought you wanted to die because you're hurting so much."

I sniffed. "My life's too precious for me." I looked at her. She was obviously avoiding the topic.

I'm not letting you escape, baby.

"So, can I stay in your house for a night?"

I waited for a few seconds until the reds lights turned to orange and then green. "Staying a night in an inn is better than staying in my house."

I fought not to roll my eyes.

"I don't have a stash of cash with me to sleep in an inn, princess." I said. "Please, I don't want to go home because you know about mom. I will just cry in my room the whole night then I'll get tired of crying and living and think of slashing my wrist and—"

"Okay! Fine." Klarissa cut me.

"I know you can't resist me." I said and she rolled her eyes.

"You should be thankful that I love you so much." She said and I wanted to hug her if she wasn't just driving.

"Aw, I love you too."

"But I don't want you to go out in my room without me." She said making me frown. "Okay?"

Why?

"Okay." I agreed to avoid argument but she knew I always break rules.

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