Walking back to my apartment having watched Gabe walk away from me knowing that he had basically told me he didn’t want to see me again was one of the most painful things I had done. I know I can’t have him, but I don’t want to let him go either. I thought maybe we could still chat or occasionally meet up, I guess. As spending time with him today has been good, I love being around him, it just feels right, so natural and like it is meant to be. Which I know is stupid, as I know it is technically meant to be as it is what the Moon Goddess has fated, she has fated for Gabe and I to be together, to be a couple, so it should only feel right for us to be together, to be in one another's company. Yet there is too much at risk for us from being together. I thought when he kissed me he wanted t