The Unwanted But Inevitable Choice

Chapter 10

I decide I need to take a shower and turn the hot water up until it burns my skin. I scrub and try to wash Will's scent off of me. I guess that is something I need to worry about now. God! Why is he so frustrating? I can't deny the feelings we share together.. But he is acting like he owns me. It seems like this whole werewolf mating thing is about owning or claiming another person. And I really don't think that's what I want. I mean, I want to be married, and have children. I don't want to be in charge of an entire pack of people! I am not even eighteen yet! How could I possibly be a Luna or whatever. I sit in the bottom of the shower and cry. I cry for my future. I cry for the unwanted inevitable choice I will have to make.

As I step out of the shower I grab my towel and dry my hair. I know I'm supposed to use a tshirt or whatever but I don't even care at this point. Let my hair be frizzy. I forgot to grab clothes before I got in here so I wrap my towel around my body. It barely fits my curves.. I look at the mirror and it's fogged up so I wipe it with my hand and sigh. I'm puffy and red because of how hot the water was. I open the bathroom door and am about to walk over to my closet when I hear.

"Oh s**t! Your dad said it was okay if I talked to you when you got out of the bathroom. I'm sorry Lane!" I look over to a pale faced Austin getting up from sitting on my bed. He stands up.. "I should go," He doesn't look away. I give him a small smile.

"No, it's okay.. Stay I'll get dressed in my closet then we can talk."

"Are you sure?" No..

"Yeah, Austin. Don't be a weirdo. Weirdo." I tease him and he sits back down on the bed and smiles at me. I step in the closet and turn the door. I don't know why but I peek under the door and look at his feet. He is tapping his foot and then I hear the tv turn on. I hear the too I start us and he puts country music on. My country boy.

My. I get up and remind myself that he is not mine. I get dressed in a sports b*a, a grey tie dyed t-shirt and some black leggings. I change my mind about going commando and put on a thong. I spray my favorite lavender perfume. I make my way to the door and take a breath. I am suddenly really nervous but I push it aside and open the door. Austin stands up.

"Is it okay if I sit on your bed?"

"Yeah of course." But when I get closer I smell a faint scent of pine. s**t. I grab my lavender perfume from my closet and spray it on the bed. Hoping it will make Will's scent. I look at Austin and he smiles.

"I smell you.."

"What do you mean? I just got out of the shower?" I don't mean to sound offended but I just scrubbed him off my body.

"No, your scent. I know what it is.."

"Oh, I'm such a b***h. I'm sorry. Do I want to know or does it stink." I walk to my bed and sit beside him. Where me and Will were sitting last night makes a pang of guilt rip through me.

"You smell good" he bends over and smells my hair which makes my heart swell.

"So, what is my scent?"

"Guess." He says with a big smile on his face. I smell the air.

"Hmm, lavender?" He shakes his head no.. "Watermelon?" He shakes his head no again." Just tell me!" I say and smack his chest, but when I do I feel sparks shoot through my arm. And I pull away.

"What was that?" I look up at him. He looks just as surprised as I feel. He reaches his hand out and I place my hand in his. Sparks shoot through my hand and he places my hand on his heart. I feel electric completely shoot through me. It's an incredibly euphoric feeling. He cups my face with his free hand and brings me closer to him. I feel him pull my face closer to his. I let him. I need this, I need to know if our kiss will feel like Will's. I need to know if our kiss yesterday wasn't as strong because my werewolf side is developing slowly. I close my eyes and feel his breath on my face.

"Lanie, is that what you want?"