Chapter 11
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**Adult Content.
"Yes" I breathe out and our lips collide. The moment we connect I can only describe it as an incredibly euphoric feeling. It's nothing I could have imagined. It doesn't even compare to the kiss I shared with Will. He is kissing me with so much want and tenderness at the same time. I part my lips and feel his tongue fine his way inside my mouth. I hear him moan and push into me. We fall onto my bed and my legs open and he is on top of me between my thighs. I like this closeness with him.. Until I feel him stroke himself against me. I feel his erection. I hesitate. Not because I don't want Austin … I do want him. But I still want to wait.. I think he senses my hesitation because he immediately backs away.
"I'm sorry Lanie, I got carried away.." He says and his eyes are swirling with black. I sit up and grab his hand.
"No, it's okay Austin. I'm not quite ready…. for that" I point at his erection and smile. "But I am okay and we are okay"
"We do need to talk though.." He says. After our moment together I really don't want to talk about everything. But I let him continue because this is important. "If you want to be with the Alpha then I will let you. I can't force you to be with me if you don't want to be with me.." I love how patient Austin has always been with me. I wonder if he has always known he was my mate?
"Honestly… I'm really just confused about everything. Dad says we can look at Will's books and see if this has happened before. Maybe there is a reason for me having two mates. I can't help but feel there is a purpose for this." Austin grabs both of my hands and looks me in the eyes.
"I love you Lanie.. I've loved you since the first day I met you. I'm sorry I was such an a*s and slept around. It's just that.. Every time I saw you with Adam.. I don't know. I don't have a good excuse for you Lanie. I'm really sorry." I knew Austin had a crush on me.. But love?
"I do care for you Austin and there is certainly something between us. It wasn't about you sleeping around so much. I told myself you were bad for me because I was trying to be loyal to Adam. I've always been attracted to you.. And no one can make me laugh like you.. But there is another reason I pushed you away.. I didn't think I would be good enough for you. I didn't want to worry about you thinking less of me for wanting to wait for marriage to have...sex." I feel the heat rush to my cheeks.
"You don't have to be embarrassed with me. I love how innocent you are Lanie.." He laughs and pokes my chest. Which makes me laugh back at him.
"Hey! I'm not totally innocent!" I say and instantly regret it.
"What?"
"Nothing.." I scoot away from him a little.. I don't want him to be disappointed in me.
"What have you done?" He scoots closer to me. "I won't be mad and you don't have to tell me, I'm just curious."
"Umm. I'm embarrassed."
"Lanie you can trust me." He crosses
his heart. And I laugh. "I'll tell you your scent if you tell me what you've all done."
"Hey, that's blackmail! I could just go ask my dad." I confess and he grins.
"No you can't. He went to work early to give us time to talk."
"Oh.. Okay I'll tell you but don't make fun of me!"
"I would never make fun of you!"
"I've done… like… oral stuff?"
"You've done that? With Adam?"
"Yeah, just twice though"
"Did you like it?"
"Not really, it was awkward."
"Then he must have not been doing it right." I look down. I don't want to tell him that all I've done is give Adam two blow jobs. He would always ask for s*x and so twice I broke down and did the oral stuff so we could just hang out. But I also want Austin to know he didn't touch me that way.. I take a deep breath and in a small voice I say..
"No, he never touched me that way." Austin gives me a confused look..
"Then, how did you have o******x twice? " I flinch when he says that.
"I didn't say I had o******x… What I said was that I did oral twice." I enunciate the I hoping he will understand. I look down until I hear Austin breathing heavily. I look up at him. His eyes are black..
"He made you do that and he didn't even get you off. " He is so mad I decide the only logical thing to do is say,
"I masterbate" His eyes instantly turn back to their green color and he chokes.
"You what?" He is still coughing. The thought of him thinking of me touching myself makes my whole body hot and my n*****s hard. But I'm quick to defend myself..
"I didn't want to tell you that but you seemed really mad and I didn't want you to think I have not ever had an orgasm." His eyes turn black again.
"Oh my god, what? Why are you mad?"
"I'm not mad Lane.."
"Why are your eyes black."
"I smell your arousal Lanie…"
"Ewww that's so gross, I'm sorry!" God that's embarrassing .. But I just got out of the shower how do I stink? Suddenly Austin buries his head into my neck and starts kissing me. The moment his lips touch my neck it sends chills down my spine. I feel an urge I've never felt before. Complete and utter need.
"Austin!" I moan out.
"You are anything but gross Lanie, let me love on you please." He looks into my eyes and I scoot away and get under my covers. He looks disappointed..
"Austin get under here with me" I say and pat the spot beside me. He gives me the sexiest smile I have ever seen in my life and it makes me giggle.
"Best late birthday present EVER!" He says as he tickles my stomach.
"Oh my god Austin! I'm so sorry I totally forgot yesterday was your birthday. I will make it up to you I promise. I feel like such an a*s!" I reach and grab my phone and ask my dad to bring home something nice for dinner and a birthday cake if he can manage. I sit my phone on my end table and cuddle into Austin.
"Eh, yesterday was not my best day ever but today is." I cuddle close to Austin and put my leg over his legs. he leans himself into me. if feels so good to be close to him. I breathe in his scent. I don't want to have s*x with Austin. But I want to enjoy and spend some intimate time with my mate. My Mate… We start kissing, I don't want to call it that because it's so much more than a kiss. I feel in my heart I was meant to be with him.
"STOP!" Says a young female voice in my ear.
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