Us

CH.6

School starts in 3 days and I haven't snuck out again to see Brooks since that night. I have seen him a few times while I was out walking and we talked for a few minutes but I have been trying to avoid being alone with him. I know I allowed that to happen but it doesn't mean it didn't scare me a little. I mean so much happened in the short amount of time I was up there and just thinking about it is overwhelming. I went from only a kiss to making out, telling him personal stuff, touching, and saying something that has never crossed my mind to say. I was sitting outside in the yard near the road drawing in my journal Brooks pulled up and asked what I was up to. I told him just drawing. He asked if I wanted to come hang out for a little while since no one was home at his house. I asked if we were going to be outside.

"I thought maybe we could sit in my room and hang out."

I thought about it for a minute.

"Ok, I will be up there in a minute just let me take my journal inside."

"Why not bring it with you so you can draw me."

"Yeah, right I can't draw a person I am only good at trees and stuff. I laughed.

"Bring it and show me some of your drawings."

I said fine and he opened the door for me to hop in. I quickly got in and we headed up the road. When we walked into his room I was expecting it to be pretty messy but it wasn't. There were some clothes laying on the floor and the edge of his bed and he had some papers lying around on the floor but overall it was clean.

He told me to have a seat and make myself comfortable but it was hard to do because I was scared someone would come in and find me in his room. He noticed I wasn't relaxing and told me to breathe and relax no one would be home for another 6 hours. Brooks excused himself to use the bathroom and I finally relaxed a little. When he came back into the room he told me to take my shoes off and lay back. I told him I didn't think that was a good idea and he told me nothing was going to happen. I kicked my shoes off and laid back, he crawled up next to me and laid on his side. I turned on my side and he grabbed my hand and pulled it to his lips and kissed it. When I laid my hand back on the bed he laid his over mine and then interlocked his fingers with mine. I asked him what he wanted to do and he said talk and stare at my beautiful face. I blushed and said it's not that beautiful. We lay there and talked about where I moved from and talked about some of his childhood.

Brooks asked me if I was ok with everything that happened the other night and I said I was but it was still a little awkward for me.

"What about it was awkward?"

"Talking about what was going on with my body and I felt a little awkward when you grabbed my hand and put it on you."

"I'm sorry I didn't mean to make things awkward for you."

I told him it was ok and that it was something I was going to have to get used to anyways. Brooks looked at me.

"Have you ever seen a man's c*ck before? like in a picture or possibly a video?"

"I have seen drawings in the book I read but I have never actually seen one."

He said if I wanted he could show me what it looks like. I started blushing.

"I don't know if we should do that, Brooks."

"If you decide you want to see what one looks like all you have to do is ask me cutie."

I said ok and I closed my eyes and sighed. Brooks asked if I was ok and I said I was just thinking. He asked what I was thinking about.

"All of this between me and you. 2 months ago I was invisible and I was perfectly fine with that but then you came along and I am getting all this attention from you and it is a little overwhelming."

"Do you not want to hang out with me anymore? If you don't just tell me cutie. I don't want to make you uncomfortable in any way."

"It's not that I don't want to hang out with you it's just I feel like some stuff we've done may have been done on impulse and I am not saying I didn't enjoy some of it but I am just not used to it and I need a little time to adjust to the changes going on with me."

"I understand cutie and I can handle slowing things down between us and If you want to talk about things or want me to teach you something don't hesitate to ask."

I told him thank you and I rolled over on my back and closed my eyes. Brooks propped himself up on his arm.

"If we are slowing things down does that mean I can't kiss you when we are alone?"

I opened my eyes and smiled at him.

"I do like it when you kiss me so I guess we can keep doing that." He leaned in and kissed me.

We made out for a while and he kept it at just making out. When I was getting ready to walk out the door to go home he pulled me close and kissed me bye. When I got home my dad asked where I had been and I said I went walking. I was bored and that was the only thing I could do to keep myself from going crazy. He told me to let him know the next time I decided to go walking so he wasn't worried about me.