When s*x becomes something that a person uses against you, the concept of it changes. It becomes a power play, a struggle, something to be lost or won. But one thing holds true, at least in a good majority of the population that I’ve known: the basic physical need remains even if you’ve learned to hate the act itself. Because of that, a person can spend a great deal of time trying to keep balance between the half of its person that despises physical intimacy, with the other half that is desperate for it. Give in to one and suffer the repercussion from the other. It’s a lose-lose situation no matter what.
He was the first person that made me feel desire—a little weaker, a little prettier, a little softer—and he was also the one being that I hated that much more than everyone else because o
