Chapter 10
1363 Words
Celina Myles
POV
When I got home after my run in with Milo I was all smiles until I saw a very angry father...
"Daddy?" I gasp seeing my father home and without my mother.
"What the f**k are you wearing Celina?" My father roars
"Daddy..." I say almost a whisper
"What the f**k am hearing about you having a boyfriend? And now you come home dressed like this! This is not how I raised you."
"Oh you raised me did you do it all the way from LA? Tell me daddy when was the last time you saw me? Or where were you when I had to sleep with a 5 year old Ryder when he cried for his father?" I shouted as tears came running down my face...
"Celina" Dad says sighing...
He came up to me hugging me...
"Do you really feel like I wasn't here for you?" He whispers
I nod weakly... He had no idea what happened to me while he was gone he had no idea how many times I've almost died.
"I'm sorry Cece... I just wanted a better life for you, your siblings and your mom... You know I love you right?" he asks softly
Of course I knew that my father loved me. He would occasionally send messages to tell me and phone me once a month.
"I know you love me daddy... But you don't know me..." I say
"What do you mean Cece of course I know you, you're my little girl, the same little girl who used to be so attached to me it was crazy, my little girl who wouldn't give me alone time with her mother..." He said laughing
"I'm not that little girl anymore... I'm not worthy of that title, I am I failure, I am sorry daddy..." I broke free from him and run up to my room, locking my room door I completely broke down... I took my boots off and got into the shower with my clothes on... I let the cold water hit my body... Remembering everything Nate did to me and said to me
'You useless b***h'
'You're nothing you not worthy of love'
'You nothing more than a useless slut who will never be worthy of anyone's love'
'You ungrateful b***h'
'You're mine! No man will ever have you...'
All those things his said, every time he would hit me... Every time I said something wrong or a guy would look at me... I think its true I am nothing... I don't deserve Milo he seems like a nice guy who needs a girl who's not broken... I put the shower off and got out of my shower and walked into my bedroom... I sat on the floor because my body was still wet from my shower or what ever you call breaking down in the shower with your clothes on... I was thinking about Milo again, the guy just seems so amazing, being with him feels like it would be, but his so closed off from the world, so freaking closed off Houdini couldn't escape if he wanted to... That made no sense what so ever
I took my phone and called him... I just needed to hear his voice...
"Hello..."
"Milo" I whisper
"Cece? What happened? Why are you crying?"
"I... Nothing... I just wanted to hear your voice..."
"Oh... Okay..."
"How's our baby doing?"
"Oh shit... I forgot the darn thing in the car"
That made me laugh...
"We aren't the best parents are we?"
"The thing is its not a real baby for us to remember it... I bet you'll be a great mother to your own kids"
"I don't think I'll have kids" he says in a serious tone all of a sudden
"Why's that? You don't want kids?" I ask
"I wouldn't mind them just I don't think I could bring a child into the world when my life is messed up you know" he says
"En" I mutter softly
"What about you? Do you want kids Celina Myles?
"No, I don't deserve them, I-l mean I don't have anybody... A man I mean"
"Celina what's wrong?" he asks in a concerned tone
"Nothing just having a bad night..." I say yawning
"You can tell me Celina I won't judge you, I got so many demons I'm in no position to judge you or anyone for that matter" he says seriously
"Can you just tell me something please?" I ask changing the subject.
"Oh okay... How about you think about yourself and anyone, could be your family or a friend"
"OkAy" I say thinking about being with him
"And you on an Island a beautiful island, surrounded by flowers, blue water and light brown sand your feet in that brown sand... You have a a balloon filled with all of your worries and problems... Release it"
I breath thinking about his scenario... Being there with him, makes my heart flutter, releasing the balloon filled with all of my problems... I actually felt better...
"Thank you Milo... That really helped me"
I heard voices in the background
"No problem... I'm sorry Celina but I got to go we're about to have dinner an my ma will get mad if I'm not at the table..."
"Sure... Thanks again Milo it means a lot..."
And he hung up...
I heard a knock on my bedroom door... I got up from the floor and opened it... My dad and Ryder was standing at the door...
"Are you okay?" Dad asks
I nod...
"Celina your clothes are wet you'll get a cold..." Dad walks into my room and gets a towel and throws it Ryder and then Ryder hugs me with the towel dad comes back with a night dress...
He sends Ryder away... Daddy takes off my wet clothes when he was about to put my dress on he stops...
"Celina what happened to your back?"
Ah my back, one day I accidentally dropped Nate's phone and he burnt my back with a joint it was more by my lower back so it wont be seen when I wear crop tops or open back clothing...
"Celina!" Daddy asks
"Nothing" I take my night dress and put it on walking away from my father
"Celina is someone hurting you?" he asks
"Please leave" I say not turning around
"Celina..." dad says sighing
"Daddy please" I whisper out
I hear him leave and closing the door behind him... I get me underwear and crawl into bed... Maybe what Nate did was abuse.
I slowly drifted into sleep thinking about Milo and I on that island...
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I was pulling up at the school when I saw Grey parked in my parking spot... s**t I forgot about Grey and Dawson last night I left them stranded at my uncles club...
I parked in the spot next to Milo's car... He was getting out of his car with a girl, she looked like a loner she had the same vibe Alexis does, the smart lonerish vibe...
I watched as they got out of his car...
"See you later butterfly, promise me you'll be nice" He says hugging her kissing the top of her head...
"I'll try... See you later Mi"
And she walks away...
I get out of my dads Audi Q6, my dad would be dropping Alexis and Ryder at school today so I wouldn't have to...
"Hey you okay?" I turn to see Milo walking with our baby in his arms with a blanket around it...
I nod...
To be honest I was to distracted by how hot he looks to give a proper answer...
"Remember I'm here if you need anything Celina... You might have a lot of people around you but I'm all ears and I promise not to judge"
"Can I ask you something??"
"Sure"
"Are you a virgin?"
"No I'm not..." He says he almost looks ashamed that his not
"I'm sorry for asking..."
He nods...
And we walk to class together... We both have Biology together... honestly I hate Biology and had nothing to do with my career chose me wanting to be a writer and all...
- Writer
