Surviving Elite High: Loving James

Chapter 3

Chapter Three

Things completely changed after my dad came home from his honeymoon. Olivia was now in charge of running the house, and Margaret, who’d been staying at our house full-time to look after me and my dad, returned to her regular job as our daytime housekeeper. I completely avoided Nathan. At school, whenever he and his buddies crossed my path, he would pretend I didn’t exist while the rest made fun of me. I don’t know why, but they seemed to derive no end of pleasure calling me names and shoving me around until a teacher would catch them and threaten them with detention if they didn’t stop.

At home, the torment was worse. Nathan would never acknowledge my presence and glared at me whenever our paths intersected. But what’s worse? My CD’s and DVD’s would magically appear with scratches, my clothing with huge holes in them, my shoelaces cut in tiny pieces, and clothes pulled out of my drawers and books off my shelves scattered all over the floor. My colognes would finish in just a few days after I purchased them and I would find my shampoo and conditioner full of dirt. I was now living inside hell’s gates. Nathan was starting to break me down.

Aside from Jacob, the only person who made me happy was Madeline. A good aura seemed to surround her. She was like my sister and my only family now. I had lost everyone that I cared for, including my dad. Until now, I’d kept what was going on in my house a secret from her so as not to worry her.

She must have sensed my growing distress because she gave me a look while we walked to class one day. “Tell me, dear, how are things at your house?”

“Bad.”

“Really? I always thought that living with Nathan would be your ultimate fantasy.”

I took a deep breath. “He ignores me, and I feel like a complete stranger inside my own house.” I didn’t tell her about the things that Nathan was doing in my room because I knew what her reaction would be. She would give a four-hour-long speech and pressure me to tell my dad or someone else. I needed to be strong for myself. Nathan was not going to get to me. That was my house for crying out loud.

“That sucks.”

“Hey, Gordon!” someone shouted.

I halted and looked back. It was Daniel. “What do you want?”

Madeline tried to pull me away, but I told her to go on without me. Unwillingly, she continued walking down the hallway. When he stopped in front of me, I sneered at him coldly. I loathed him with all my heart and soul. He made my life at Elite High a living hell.

“Just wanted to ask you a question.”

“Then ask and be on your way.”

“Is it true?”

“What’s true?”

“That Nathan caught you m**********g to his picture?” he replied, snickering.

“Screw you!” I turned and started walking away.

“I also heard that you love to suck his d**k!”

I froze. Every drop of blood felt like it drained from my body. How did he know that? Did Nathan tell him that just to make fun of me or make me look worse in their eyes? I ignored him and continued to class.

As soon as I stepped inside, Madeline stopped me. “What did he want?”

“Nothing. He was just being an asshole as always.”

“Be careful, James. I heard rumors that they did something terrible to another gay student over last summer, something really mean and hurtful. I don’t like those guys.”

“Me neither, but what can we do about their constant bullying?”

“We could talk to Mrs. Carter.”

“No, Madeline. I’m strong enough to take them.”

I refused to get help. I was not going to let them break me down into tiny pieces. I was not going to be a victim. Hell no! I was going to be a victor. If I couldn’t have someone like Nick protecting me, I would be my own protector.

Madeline sighed and dropped the subject.

* * * * *

It was during lunch that Nathan finally talked to me in the boy’s bathroom. He’d followed me in and stood next to me while I washed my hands. I eyed him and he sneered at me. My heart lurched and I decided to get out of there as quickly as possible. But as soon as I’d turned my back, he grabbed my shirt and yanked.

“What the f**k did I tell you?” He slammed me against the bathroom wall, and I was scared for my life now. I hadn’t seen his sudden burst of anger coming nor did I have the slightest idea of what he was talking about. He looked at me with so much anger and hatred. “Answer me, punk!”

“What did I do?” I asked, shaking at the hatred blazing in his eyes.

“Why the f**k did you tell Daniel that you sucked me off?”

“I didn’t! I swear. I thought that you told him since he asked me.”

“You dumb b***h!” Nathan shouted with a punch to my stomach. “He tricked you!”

I fell to the floor with an agonizing pain in my insides. Suddenly, Nathan kicked me several times, but I was smart enough to block his attacks with my hands. My hands burned, but it was better than getting direct hits in my stomach. Just as abruptly as he started, he stopped. He grabbed me by my collar and lifted me off the ground. I was completely petrified.

He took me to one of the stalls and pushed me inside. He grabbed the back of my head and with a single push dunked my head inside the toilet. I struggled to break free while the dirty water flooded my mouth and nostrils. Nathan Parker was going to kill me! The man I craved was going to drown me.

Suddenly he let go.

I resurfaced, gasping for air. I thought my torment was over, but it was just beginning. When I turned around, I came face to face with Nathan’s erect p***s. He grabbed the back of my head with both hands and penetrated my mouth with a single push. A loud moan instantly escaped his mouth and his body stiffened. He pushed my head against the wall and continued humping me. It hurt, but it also excited me beyond anything I had ever experienced. In a matter of seconds, his sweat started to drop on top of my head and I got hard. I wanted him to make me his.

“Eat it, bitch.” he grunted, looking down on me. “Eat that f*****g juicy cock.”

I did as I was told. I opened my mouth wider and covered my teeth with my lips so his d**k would slip in easily. A loud and long moan echoed across the room the moment I deep throated him. He continued thrusting until a warm liquid gushed down my throat. It was his delicious and precious sperm. When he was done, he pushed me aside with a powerful kick to my right shoulder. I fell on the dirty floor wet, bruised and—to my horror—horny and wanting more.

“Fag!” he murmured, spitting on me as he packed away his p***s. “Tell anyone and I will end up having s*x with your carcass. And you know I mean it.”

I nodded. Nathan opened the door slightly and peeped outside. When he made sure no one was around, he stormed out like a real man would. I wanted more of him. I needed him in order to feel complete. And it got better. I knew that he wanted me as well. Nathan Parker wanted me, James Gordon, to fulfill his bizarre s****l desires.

* * * * *

I honestly thought that everything was going to change between Nathan and me after having s*x in the bathroom, but it actually got worse. He still ignored me, which was just as horrible as when he attacked me. I hated his actions, yet I wanted him so bad. He was my forbidden fruit and desire. I needed to have him again, but I wanted more this time. I wanted Nathan to have real s****l intercourse with me, not just oral. I needed to feel him inside of me. I wanted him to make love to me.

I decided to ask Jacob for help since he was rugged and straight like Nathan. I couldn’t ask Madeline because she was a big virgin like me. I dropped by my dad’s auto shop after school to talk to Jacob, the only other person aside from Madeline who made me feel comfortable and safe to talk to.

“Hey!” I announced sneaking up behind him.

“’Sup?” he answered with his eyes fixed on the motorcycle that he was washing. “I haven’t seen you around. Are you avoiding me?”

“Not at all, Jacob! Why would I?”

“True. So, what’s up? Have you been missing me?” He laughed.

My heart quickly began to pound. Since he started working at my dad’s shop at the beginning of summer, he always made me nervous by placing me in the center of attention. Whenever I was with him, everything was focused on me. That was something I completely loved about him. He made me feel special and wanted. With him around, I felt valued and appreciated—something I had lost at home. “Sort of. Actually, I wanted to ask you a question.”

“Go ahead.”

“Well, I got a friend who’s a girl, and she wants to know how to seduce…a guy.”

Jacob paused. After a second, he turned to me with a smirk. My face felt hot and my heart dropped. Those eyes had always made me anxious and shy. “Really? And why should I know how to seduce a guy? Did you just call me gay?”

“No!” I answered immediately, which made him laughed.

“Then why ask me?”

I cleared my throat while trying to choose my words correctly. This had been a really bad idea. “Well, you always told me that I could come to you whenever something was bothering me or if I wanted to talk to someone. And since…well…you’re one of the few people that I feel comfortable with, I decided to ask you.”

“True. I did say that.” He chuckled, but then his mirth faded. “And I’m honored you feel that way, James. Really.” He shifted his stance, appearing suddenly nervous. “So what can I do for you?”

 I decided to rephrase my question in order to avoid confusion. “You see, you’re a guy and she wants to know what guys want in bed or how to get them in bed. Since you’re the only guy with experience in s*x that I know of, I decided to ask you.”

Jacob smiled. “I see. Well, first of all, Madeline should not be having s*x at the tender age of sixteen, but who am I to tell her what to do?”

My face burned again. “I-I didn’t say that it was Madeline.”

“She’s your only friend.”

I smiled nervously since Jacob knew everything about my life. Well, almost everything. Sorry, Madeline. “Yes…it’s Madeline.”

“Okay, this is my advice. If she’s ready for s*x, tell her to use protection. That’s very important. Now, to seduce a guy, she needs to find out what the guy likes in bed. Is he into passionate s*x, bondage, hard-core s*x? You know, his…thing. What gets him hot.”

“Bondage? What’s that?”

Jacob sighed and quickly looked around. There was an awkward look on his face that he could not erase. “Well, I don’t know how to explain it to you in the PG-13 version, but here it goes. It’s a form of s*x that involves a lot of whips, ropes and other s****l toys. Usually, one is the dominant person and the other is the submissive person. The dominant does anything to his partner in order to fulfill their s****l desires. There is a satisfaction that both of them get whenever they engage in such acts. It makes both of them happy. However, they use what they call a ‘safe word,’ and the submissive partner uses it when they’re going too far. The dominant partner stops immediately. This form of s*x can be very satisfying for the partners.”

My heart gave a sudden jolt. My relationship with Nathan was exactly as Jacob explained. That was what he wanted. Nathan got excited from dominating me. I was his slave and he was my master. We just didn’t have a safe word yet. But I was sure that was because Nathan did not even know what a safe word was. Otherwise, the description fit. My only purpose was to serve him. “That’s exactly what he likes!”

A look of surprise appeared on Jacob’s face. “I thought Madeline wanted to seduce a guy.”

My face felt warm, and my stomach churned. I tried to talk, but the words wouldn’t form.

“You don’t have to explain yourself.” Jacob smiled. “Who is he?”

“Nathan,” I murmured, bowing my head to avoid eye contact. Damn, maybe Jacob wouldn’t like me anymore now that he knew the truth.

“I see.” His sweet smile quickly disappeared. Something hurt him, but I didn’t know what. Then he seemed to notice my distress. “Hey, James, don’t worry. I don’t mind if you like guys.” He looked around and stepped in closer. “So do I. If you hadn’t noticed.”

My heart quickly relocated underneath my stomach. I could not believe what he’d just told me. Jacob Ashmore was gay! Jacob! This rugged and straight looking man in front of me was gay. “No way!”

“Yes way.”

“I would have never guessed it. You’re too perfect to be gay. You’re lying.”

“Why would I lie to you? I dated someone who’s attending Elite High. Well, two persons if you count John as my ex.”

“No way! You dated John?”

“Yes for a couple of hours. It was the night Nick and John got together. I asked him to be my boyfriend and he said yes, but a few hours later, Nick declared his love to him. So, John chose him over me.”

Wow. I couldn’t believe it! It seemed so crazy I found myself trying to refuse to believe what he was saying, but the look in his eyes showed he was telling the truth. Not only that, but I saw pain hiding behind them. That’s when it hit me. The things Jacob had said before about Nick and him hating each other. They’d been in a competition for John’s love, and Nick had won. John had broken Jacob’s heart. John had chosen Nick over him. That must have hurt him a lot.

“After that I dated Rick Sanders. He was a freshman while I was a senior at Elite High. You know him?”

“Sure, I definitely know him. Who doesn’t know Rick Sanders?” Rick had been flamboyant and effeminate, in spite of the pressure against gay students. He went around flaunting his sexuality in everyone’s faces even when people resented him for it. The kid did not hold back, and that got him into several confrontations with the jocks. Many students, especially Nathan’s gang, hated his openness. Rick and I were constantly their little fun targets. But something had happened to Rick over the summer that made him change his flamboyant ways. He changed overnight. He was often alone, bitter and very antisocial. I couldn’t believe it! “You dated that guy?”

“Well, yes, but back then, he was so different. He was fun and lively, like you. I don’t know what happened to him. He changed so much in so little time. He was always smiling, and now he looks like the shadow of the guy he was. He won’t answer my calls and he basically ignores me whenever I try to talk to him. Something isn’t right and I need to know what. No one can change so fast in such a short time.”

“That’s true.”

“But tell me, is Nathan gay too?”

“I’m not sure, but we had s*x already. We just haven’t gone all the way.”

“Okay.” Jacob still looked hurt. “You want to seduce him so he goes all the way with you, right?”

“Yes,” I answered him shyly.

“Are you ready to have s*x? Don’t you think you’re too young?”

“I’m ready. I want him so bad. He’s my dream made flesh.”

“I see,” he answered, his eyes sad. I had no idea why. Maybe, he was still hurt by John’s rejection, but that happened a long time ago. His expression was really confusing to me. “Looks like nothing I say will make you change your mind. Do what you’ve got to do, but be careful. Protect yourself. Make sure that you both want to do it and not because you guys are high on hormones.”

High. That was an excellent idea! A drunken Nathan wouldn’t know the difference between me and his girls. If I could get him drunk, he might make love to me. Talking about my problems with Jacob had not been such a bad idea after all. A smile crawled over my face.

“I don’t like that smile,” Jacob said, looking at me suspiciously. “Don’t do anything stupid.”

“I won’t, Jacob. I won’t.” I grinned.

* * * * *

That Friday night, I placed my plan into action since my “parents” were out for the weekend again and they had no idea what was happening in their house thanks to me. I did my best to hide Nathan’s actions since he would kill me if I ever told them or Margaret. I also wanted him so bad that I didn’t care what he did to my things or me. He was my master and I was his faithful slave.

I had to get everything ready if I wanted Nathan to have s*x with me. First, I went to the drugstore and bought condoms. I felt so awkward sliding the box onto the counter at the register, but I needed them. Jacob had told me to protect myself, and I was going to do as he said. I thought the cashier would ask me for ID or something, but she didn’t. Then, I stole one of Margaret’s sleeping pills. She had always have trouble sleeping. Lastly, I sneaked into my dad’s office and retrieved one of his precious whisky bottles. I mixed that with a small bottle of tequila and half of the sleeping pill. Finally, my masterpiece was ready. With a single shot, I was going to knock Nathan to the ground.

Nathan spent the entire afternoon locked in his room. All I needed was to get his attention, and that was the hardest part. As I paced in front of his door, I tried to gather my thoughts. Nothing.

Suddenly, his door opened and Nathan stood in front of me completely naked. “What the f**k are you doing? Why the hell are you walking in front of my door like an i***t on crack?”

“I was just…I have a surprise for you.”

 “What’s that?”

“This,” I announced, showing him the adulterated bottle of whisky.

He examined the bottle in my hands and then focused his attention on me. In a single second, he snatched it from my hands. “What are you up to?”

“Nothing.”

“I see. I guess you can come in then.” He scratched his crotch and made way for me to pass through. My heart rate started rising and my legs felt heavy. My plan was going well. Nathan was going to make love to me. “Well, homo? Get in here!”

I forced myself to walk and made it over the threshold.

Nathan walked to his bed. He plopped down and leaned back on his elbows, legs spread. “Suck,” he ordered me. I did not hesitate once. I immediately crawled on the bed and knelt between his legs. His d**k was flaccid, but as soon as it made contact with my tongue, it stood up. While I sucked him, I glanced at him. He was silently inspecting the bottle from every angle. After he opened it, he took a sip and immediately spat it out. “What the f**k is this?”

“It’s a special whisky from—”

“Did I order you to stop?”

“No.” I continued to take him inside of me while Nathan began to drink, slowly at first and then taking huge gulps. In a matter of seconds, he looked giddy. I was extremely happy since my plan was working perfectly fine. Until the doorbell rang. Almost immediately, Nathan shoved my head away and pushed me away. “They’re here!”

“What? Who?”

“Get out!” Nathan grabbed my left arm and dragged me toward the door. He pushed me until I was inside my room. “Make a single noise and I will f*****g kill you, b***h. Understood?”

A crazy smile covered his face, sending chills up and down my spine. I nodded, defeated, and he slammed the door shut.

I collapsed onto my bed, every tear inside of me pouring out. Through my sobs, I heard two girls giggling as they walked up the stairs and into Nathan’s room. I buried my face in my pillow and continued crying. Their giggles escalated and soon turned into loud moaning and grunting. Damn it! That should have been me in there with him, not them. He should be making love to me.

They spent hours making every type of noise inside those four walls. I covered my ears with my pillows since I was inside my worst nightmare yet. Their moaning would decrease at points only to resume with full force. I was on the verge of losing my mind. Finally, around three in the morning, his bedroom door opened and the trio left the room. After the front door shut, I heard a car engine start up and the tires peal from the driveway. At last, they were gone for good.

A few seconds later, my bedroom door slowly opened and I felt Nathan’s evil presence near me. Slowly, he tiptoed to my bed and lay down behind me, gently wrapping his arms around me and spooning me. I felt repulsed. I didn’t want him near me, but I couldn’t move. I loathed Nathan Parker. That monster was not my jock hero. Nick would have never treated John like trash. Hell no! He would have treated him like his priceless possession. I knew then that I need to cut Nathan off my life once and for all. With these restless thoughts, I slowly fell asleep.