She Keeps Me Warm

Chapter Twenty One

VALENTIA'S POV

I arrived in the kitchen, went to the fridge took a bottle of water and started drinking.

I sighed, I needed to clear my head a bit. I couldn't stay here if my head was still this messed up.

I took my car keys, headed to the garage and drove out.

In need of clearing my head with any thought of Olwethu I decided to drive around. To be honest with you, I had no idea where I was driving to, but I kept on driving.

I was startled when I started realizing my surroundings. I was parked at a very familiar street... it was the street away from Lin's house, where I usually drop her off if she took a ride with me.

How the f**k I got here I wouldn't know. Last time I checked I was just driving around..

I sighed and looked at her house. The lights were on and it was starting to get a bit dark. I sat there in my car and started to think about what to do... what do I do now?

I tried to look for my phone and realized that I left it home. f**k! That was just a huge bomber.

I felt like drinking so I went to a nearby bar, which wasn't that far from my place. Just three streets away. I got in and ordered a beer.

Then I sat at a corner and started to reflect my life in these past two months.

Meeting Olwethu turned my life upside down. I could say for both better and worse reasons. I started thinking about everything I'd lose if I were to keep on trying to pursue her... I'd literally lose everything.. starting from my career, I'd lose my teaching license if this was to come out because she's a minor.

Then Zai... I'd lose her. I mean I do today realize that this marriage benefited our families much more than it was doing me.. but I wouldn't want to hurt her. She was a good person and thee best friend to me, so losing that would be like losing a part of me.

Then my family, I'm sure they'd think I have gone insane. I mean besides Olwethu being my learner and being 10 years younger than me, they'd just fucken think I'm insane to let go of Zai...

My father loved my wife with his whole heart and Zai's dad loved me too. The day we got married was like the day the two families married each other. We were now one.. so if I was to f**k this up, I'd literally be f*****g with everything in my life.

I sighed as I finished off my second beer and then it fucken hit me that I left my wife at home after f*****g her with a strap and I didn't even say anything.

My tipsy mind went to my pockets to try and look for my phone but it wasn't there.

"f**k!"

I quickly got up and went to the bar.

"Hey Vee... you good?" The bartender asked and I nodded, "can I have a glass of water with ice..."

He smiled and quickly organized it for me.

"Where's Zai.. haven't seen you guys here for a while?" The guy asked and I frowned feeling guilty. I left her at home.. maybe she was fucken worried about me. Worse my phone was there too.

"She's home sleeping. Long day today.."

"Alright... hala her and do tell her that moving didn't mean she should never set foot here... we miss her."

I took the last sip on the glass, "I will Zane... thanks okay, she probably needs me now. So I'll go."

"Be safe."

"Always..."

Then I took my keys and got out. I went to my car and drove back home. After parking the car I got inside the kitchen.

From where I was, I could already see her pacing back and forth in the living room. She looked stressed. I took in one deep breath and then went in calmly.

"Baby..." I said and she lifted her head, "Valentia! Where the f**k have you been?"

I cleared my throat and walked to the living room, "baby calm down please..."

"You don't get to tell me to fucken calm down," she yelled, "you don't.. I was fucken worried about you...i called non stop only to have your fucken phone ring right in the house..."

I sighed feeling like s**t, "I know baby I'm sorry..."

She groaned, I expected that. What I did was just stupid. I felt like s**t for leaving her here alone after what happened..

"I'm sorry..." I said again and I heard her sob, "Valentia what's wrong? What did I do to you? Was moving away a mistake coz I feel like I'm losing you lately..."

I looked at her.

"Am I not attractive anymore? Don't you want me anymore? Tell me..." she continued and starting to cry... I slowly went to her, "baby come on don't think that please.."

She was wearing her red sink sleeping dress. She looked so fucken sexy, she had no idea. I was asking myself why the f**k she thought she wasn't attractive.

She shook her head, "Noooo.. something must be wrong with me. Last week you hardly touched me.. I felt like shit... then today you make things worse by the s**t you did.. you f**k me and then leave me there laying in bed..."

Shit! When she put it like that it destroyed me. I hadn't realized that I was honestly doing this to her. I was so consumed with my own s**t that I didn't realize I was f*****g s**t up this side.

I went to her amd put my hands on her shoulders. She yanked them off while crying, "Don't touch me.. don't"

She tried to hit me but I held her hands and pulled her into a hug.

"Baby I'm sorry... I really am.. fuck..."

She slowly cried silently on my shoulder.

"I just have a lot of s**t at work. Pressure and the students who need extra help. I am sorry... I know I have been horrible.. I have just been under pressure at work... you aren't any of what you think okay. You're still attractive and all that..."

She slowly pulled away and looked at me, "you went drinking?"

Oh s**t! I forgot.

I nodded, "I only had a beer.. I was driving.."

Tears fell down her cheeks and I wiped them.

"I am so sorry my wife.. I really am. I know I've been awful but don't blame yourself. You are amazing.. work is killing me.. it really is... I am so sorry baby."

She cried and I wiped her tears kissing her cheek, "Don't cry my love please... please."

She sobbed, "I miss you.. I miss us before I moved.. I just..."

I pulled her in for a hug and kissed her shoulder, "I'm so sorry for neglecting you.. I'm so sorry baby.."

We pulled away from the hug and looked at each other. I smiled, "I'm sorry okay.."

She just looked at me and I knew she was hurting. I needed to do something to make her feel better.. I needed to make her feel loved.

I held her face and made her look at me. I pulled her closer and kissed her. She kissed me back hungrily.

I pushed her back until her back hit the kitchen. I deepened the kiss playing with her tongue a bit. I lifted my hands up as she took off my tank, leaving me in my shorts only. I then snuck my hands under her short dress and pulled down her panty..

"I'm sorry...." I whispered before connecting out lips again and picking her up to actually put her on the counter.

She let out a moan as I lifted her dress up.

I licked her stomach and sucked on her hip bones making her moan my name.

"Valentia...." she whined when I took my time kissing the inside of her thighs. I smiled, "what baby..."

"Don't tease me please..." she said in a whisper and I blew air on the inside of her thighs and her body trembled, "baby fuuuuck!"

I smiled and kissed her mound before putting her legs on each side of my shoulders giving myself full access.

She held my head and pushed me in. I giggled at how eager she was. I finally captured her lips with mine and she sighed, "ohhh f**k!"

I ran my tongue up and down before sucking on her cl#t.

"f**k baby right there...!" She screamed out and I kept on.. her breathing changed and I pulled away but replaced my lips with my fingers before she could complain. I slid two fingers inside her, making her gasp with the suddeness and started moving them slowly.

She pulled me closer to her and burried her head on my shoulder then whispered, "faster..."

I didn't need her to tell me twice, I f****d her until she reached her o****m.

After a few minutes when she was now calm she looked at me. I kissed her, "you look beautiful..."

She climbed off the kitchen counter and whispered, "can we finish this in the bedroom."

I licked my lips and could still taste the hink of beer.. I was still tipsy.. so I was up for f*****g.

"That's my girl..."

..

Our Sunday consisted of just us.. she cooked and we spent it watching tv and talking. It was good.. she looked better than yesterday and that made me a bit happy. I couldn't stand her sad, so her being smiley today just made me smile.

At the back of my head I was still thinking about a certain bird but I tried not to let it hit me hard. I concentrated on what was in front of me.

Later when Zai had to go she started being a bit baby.

"I don't want to gooooo..."

I laughed at her whining and how cute it made her, "but baby you'll be late for work.. and you'll be making a bad example. As CEO you have to lead by example."

She rolled her eyes, "you really suck.. you could try to just tell me to stay and not sound like my dad."

"You look so cute..."

She scoffed, "I'll miss you."

"me too baby... but I'll see you soon yeah and please drive safely okay and call as soon as you get home.."

"Please take it easy on you. Work shouldn't stress you this much."

I sighed, "I'll get on some grade 10 papers as we speak... I want half the work done since I slept in between your thighs.."

She blushed, "God.. baby bye.."

I laughed, "bye baby..."

I waved her off as she got inside her car and drove away.

Before I could think of anything I went to my office and started burying myself in paperwork. I seriously needed to mark some of these papers or I'll die of double work.

Later on after talking to Zai on the phone when she got home I was left staring at my phone.. then a thought hit me...Olwethu.. like why couldn't this kid get out of my head was seriously killing me.

But I took a decision, that I'll text her and ask to talk..

ME: Hey Olwethu I'm sure you're probably tired of my texts right... but this is probably my last trying text to talk to you.

Look, I know I f****d up big time and I sincerely apologize.. but I want to talk to you.. infact I need to talk to you. I need to just talk to you and then after that I promise to leave you alone and not bother you again. Please please come see me in my office tomorrow after practice..

Then I sent it.

I was left thinking about everything I'd say to her. The pros and cons of us and what I was risking. I don't wanna lie, I am wrong and not telling her was just so wrong.. but I was just scared... and I needed her to understand that.

..

Monday came sooner and I just wore my blue formal pants and a white long sleeve shirt then shoes.

I hardly slept last night so my eyes were screaming I'm a zombie...

My first class was english and this child still didn't respond to my message, I guess we were done. I guess she wasn't up to listening to anything I wanted to say.

I got in class and gave then work to do. I didn't even want to look up and see her cute self over there. I just couldn't bare that. So I just decided to mark papers the whole period while they worked on the assessment I gave them.

The day went horribly slow. It was just killing me and me being in my office was just making things worse. The only thing I could think about was her and her alone. Like she was driving me insane and she had no idea.

I was startled when I heard kids laughing outside. I looked out my window and saw the soccer players leave..

"s**t!" I said before looking at the watch.. it was 5:37... time was flying.

While I was still looking outside the window I saw Jasmine's car drive off...

My heart for real sank now.

Even though I thought she might not come, I still had small hope that she would. But yeah, I guess karma is a bitch.. I guess I deserved that.

I started picking up my books and lunchbox putting them in my bag. I switched off the lights and when I opened the door.. she was standing there looking all serious..

"Lin... hey.. I thought you left.." I said in almost a whisper.

She got inside and put her bag on the floor,

"You have 20 minutes Valentia.. 20 minutes..."