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“You what?”
“I don’t want to talk about it,” I said, storming out of the room. Jake followed me however, and I immediately regretted saying it out loud. I couldn’t bring myself to even think about it again, knowing that I’d just uttered the forbidden words out loud.
But I’d said it, and there was no taking it back now. And the worst part was that on some level, as I said those words, I knew they were true. I knew deep down in my heart that it was the truth, and that I could never take them back. I didn’t even want to take them back.
I loved Enaya. The sensation of coming to terms with that reality was like being hit in the face by a large truck carrying a ton of brick. I felt like my heart was going to sprout wings and rip itself out of my chest, then soar into the sky and start
