First love of the alpha

Chapter 7: Night swims

Lily POV

When Conner mentioned the waterfall, my heart sunk into my stomach a bit. I hadn't realized till it was too late last time that I had been there before.

Our packlands have multiple waterfalls similar to this one. Of course, it had to be the one that Ben took me to.

I didn't think many people knew about it since it was so close to the border. Ben has taken me there as a surprise. We had a picnic under the stars.

It was one of the last few nights I had spent with him. He took me there blindly on one of the packs four wheelers.

I really didn't want to go back. It was hard enough being there last time. Myles made it easier on me, and the rush of the jump into the waterfall seemed to help a lot. But tonight, dancing with Myles brought up so many feelings. I was confused, and I felt something for Myles, and I think he felt something too, but honestly, I wasn't one hundred percent sure.

The fact I got aroused by him was throwing me through a loop. I mean, don't get me wrong, he's gorgeous and muscular. Gosh, his muscles are huge and defined.

I felt myself getting wet again, just thinking about it. I closed my legs tight, hoping Myles couldn't smell my arousal.

Images of him naked popped into my head, from when he saved me from the rogues. He walked back to my cottage, completely naked. Of course, I snuck a couple of peaks it was kind of hard, not too. I mean, it was a forty-five minute walk back, at least. It was a long time to be next to someone naked and not look.

I was grateful he gave me the flannel off a rogue even if it did smell like butt and was torn from him shifting.

I shook my mind back to the reality of everything. I looked at Myles for a quick second.

My heart could have picked up on mixed signals. I was thinking of Ben a lot tonight more than I've had in a while. Maybe those thoughts were giving me illusions that Myles felt something for me.

I wish I could close that door and move on. Why did a first love have to be so hard.

I sat in the back of the jeep memories unfolding themselves, and we headed closer to the waterfall. Part of me wanted to go and make new memories with everyone, especially Myles. But wouldn't that be weird or even cruel?

It held such a special place in my heart for Ben, but I couldn't help but wonder if it was wrong to make memories with another man that I was starting to have feelings for. Even if he did only take me there once, I was constantly feeling like i was betraying him in some way.

I was quiet, and I knew everyone noticed but didn't say anything. I'm just letting the memories take over me.

Flashback

"Ben, what are we doing here? Is it even safe to be out this far?"

"Lily, I wouldn't ever hurt you or put you in any harms way."

"I know that, I trust you with everything I have." I pecked him on his lips.

I was in complete awe. "Wow, Ben, this place is gorgeous."

He laid out a picnic basket with sparkling grape juice and chocolate covered strawberries and pineapple. All my favorites.

We laid out, talking forever. We were wrapped up in eachothers arms. Both of us didn't want to let go.

We didn't talk about anything in particular, mostly avoided the dreaded topic of him leaving.

As much as we loved laying in eachothers arms, it was very hot out for the late night. Around eighty four degrees. We both were getting ridiculously sweaty. Ben suggested we go for a swim.

I realized I didn't have a swimsuit. But tonight, I was feeling bold and confident. I stripped down to just my bras and panties. It was so unlike me that I was more of the modest type.

Ben's face was priceless with the look of shock and desire. Made me feel powerful and sexy. He followed close behind me.

I slowly slipped my bra off and scooted my panties down. I jumped in so fast. I'm hoping he didn't get too much of a view. When I came up from under the water, the look on his face said it all. He saw everything.

It was a last second decision to strip down naked, I was in a dress and didn't want to go home in wet undergarments or completely bare underneath.

We've been together for two years now. I guess I felt it was time he saw me naked. We've never done anything before, and he was being so patient with me.

He pulled down his boxers, and I never imagined a man's package could be so big.

I bit my lip. Knowing that he saw. He swam slowly towards me as I backed up to the edge. He pulled me in close, and he kissed me hungrily. I could feel him harden against my stomach.

He slipped his hands into my hair and slowly down my body and grabbed onto both of my ass cheeks, pulling my legs around him.

Slowly, he moved his lips to my neck and down to my n*****s sucking on my already hardened buds. It was the best sensation I've ever felt. I moaned louder than what I expected. Ben growled in my ear.

"Baby, I don't want to do anything that you're not ready for, and I know you always said you wanted to wait for your true mate. As much as I don't want to stop you and this is killing me to pull away. I want this to be on your time."

I smiled at Ben. I love him even more for respecting me enough to remind me what I truly wanted. I got caught up in the moment, and truthfully, I wanted him very badly that night.

He was seriously the best boyfriend, so patient with me, I knew it was hard on him to wait, but I loved that he respected me enough to least wait with me.

We held eachothers naked bodies like that for what seemed like hours, not wanting the night to end.

I felt guilty not committing to what I started. But truthfully, i wasn't thinking where it could lead. I just knew I wanted him to be the first man to see every bit of me.

End of flashback

"Would you guys mind if I just called it a night? I'm truly exhausted. Would I be a burden if I asked you guys to drop me off at my cottage?"

Amber spoke first. "Of course not. Do you want me to stay with you? We can watch old movies.I know how much you like those ones."

"No, I'm fine, I swear. You guys go have fun."

We stopped at the front of my house. I told everyone goodnight and stepped out of the jeep.

I heard Myles get out and follow me.

"Lily, I don't know what's going on with you, but I'm not going anywhere until you talk to me. I know it's something about that waterfall. I could feel your body tense up....You acted weird the last time we were there. Back then, i just thought you were nervous about jumping, but now i don't think that's it."

We sat there for a moment in silence. I sighed. "Okay, Myles, but I get to pick the movie while we talk. You don't get to judge me, and you need to let me finish the whole story."

He shrugged. "Sounds fair. I'm going to go tell my sister I'm staying then."

Myles POV

I swear I smelt her arousal again in the back of the jeep. I saw Brody tense up and knew I wasn't imagining it this time.

Harvey started to pace in my head. He was grumbling and frustrated. I could tell he enjoyed the smell of her.

I looked at her for a second when I felt her eyes turn and look at me, but before I could lock eyes with her, she was already looking back out the window.

It made me wonder what was getting her aroused. Was it me, or was it memories of Ben or someone else? I wasn't sure, but I could tell something was up.

The closer we go to the pack house, the more I could feel her tense up next to me. Something happened at the waterfall, and I kept replaying everything that happened last time we went wondering if it was something i had done. I couldn't think of anything.

When we got the pack grounds, she asked if we would drop her off at the cottage. My heart sunk when she stepped out of the jeep.

I followed behind her. I wanted answers. She left me so confused, and I just feel really worried.