The Confused Alpha

Chapter 3 Axel

I leave Poe’s in shock. My brains scattered. I have met my mate. My mate. My mate who is a man. My mates a f*****g man. I’m not sure what to do. I can’t believe just yesterday I was was telling my dad I wanted to meet my mate. O s**t. How am I going to tell my dad. I don’t want to end up mated to Birdie. How am I going to kiss a man? I obviously find him attractive. I can’t help it. I’m drawn to him. But that’s because of the mate bond. Not to mention he’s not a wolf.

I’ve never met a dragon before. Didn’t know that they existed. I thought they were myths. Just a story that parents tell us pups at bedtime. I’ll have to do some research and see what I can find out about his kind and their matings. Maybe I’ll find a way out if it. Because wholly s**t my mates a man!

Leaving Poe’s I don’t even turn on the radio. I make the drive home to the pack house in peace. Then remember it’s Sunday and I have responsibilities. I sit there for a few minutes breathing deep. Trying to center myself so that I can be the best alpha I can be. My Sunday responsibilities are not only important to me but they are important to the pack and town. So with that in my I decide to push my mate concerns to the back of my mind so I can handle my day. I pull out of my parking space and head back into town. I need to get my head on straight. There’s nothing I can do about my mate issue right now. Sundays are busy for me but it’s my favorite day of the week. As a pack we try our best to support our town and even a few that surround ours. Like the town I go to college in. It’s just a couple miles from the pack house.

The first thing I do I hit the grocery store. I load up on milk, fresh veggie’s and fruits. I get canned good and bread. Eggs and butter will definitely be needed. Four buggy’s of groceries later and I check out. It takes forever to load up everything into the Jeep. My next stop is the local food pantry. My pack started it years ago to help feed family’s in need that live in our area. Once a week I load up as much groceries as I can because I want to make sure they have what they need. It’s one of my most important tasks in my opinion.

I can’t help but smile as I walk into the back kitchen area loaded down with bags. It’s bustling with some pack members making meals to hand out for the day. Some are sorting and boxing up groceries to hand out with the ready made meals. No one in my town will go hungry because of their efforts and hard work. As much as I love the willing women and respect I get because of my position. This is what makes me proud to be their future alpha. “Hey everyone I have more bags in the Jeep. Got a bunch of milk, butter and eggs today too so we will want to get those in the coolers quickly.” I let them know after I set my arm load of bags down.

After the jeeps unloaded and I help put the groceries away i walk to the back office. Knocking on the door I wait till I’m told to enter before walking in. Future alpha or not you do not disrespect mama Isla. She’s one of our most respected elders and she’s in charge of the food pantry. “Hey mama Isla. How are you doing today?” I ask as I sit down on one of the empty chairs in front of her desk. “Good child. I’m doing good. It’s been a busy week and we’ve fed our town and even some families from two towns over.” She informs me. Then she takes a deep breath and her eyes go white. They stay that way for only a second and if I hadn’t been staring straight at her I would have missed it.

“O yes future alpha you have a exciting path ahead of you. Exciting indeed.” She says grinning knowingly. “What do you mean?” I ask concerned. Does she know about Cosmo? But how? “You let an old lady keep her secrets. And just maybe I’ll let you keep yours. For a little while at least. I just want to tell you to keep an open mind and an open heart.” Is her response. “ I’m going to try mama Isla but I don’t know how it will work.” “Just remember that our moon goddess knows best always. What she wills will come to pass.” I nod my head at her advice. She’s right to a certain point. But I will do research before I make any decisions. Knowledge can never lead me wrong. “Thank you mama Isla. I will keep that in mind.” “Welcome child.”

I say my goodbyes and I’m on the road again. I do feel better after my talk with mama Isla. She didn’t act like something was wrong with me. I didn’t even have to tell her what was going on. She just knew. It was like a weight was lifted off my shoulders. I know one way or another I’ll figure it out. I just need time and research.

I stop at a couple of the pack owned businesses and make sure things are running smoothly and do some paperwork. By the time I am in the Jeep to head home I am exhausted. I want to take a shower then pass the f**k out in my bed. But I can not do that yet. I need to check out the packs library and start my research on my mates dragon.

Maybe I’ll be able to find a way to fix our mating. A way to get out of it. Maybe I’ll find out it is a mistake after all. Then I won’t have to tell my dad. I won’t have to deal with this need inside of me that’s never been there before. I don’t know what to do with it. But I can’t let my pack down and my pack will need an heir. Even if I give into the mating. What would I do about an heir? Research I need research.

After I park my Jeep I make my way inside the pack house. It’s quite at this time of day on a Sunday. Everyone has work or school in the morning. So it is easy for me to slip upstairs to the library. When I enter the library I let out a sigh of relief. It is empty. Not a single other soul to bother me. Now to figure out where I need to start. Just as I took a step towards the library’s computer that keeps track of the books my cell phone rings.

“Yeah” I answer. “Hey I haven’t seen you all day. what you up to?” Asks My beta. “I just ran my normal Sunday errands. Now I am in the library about to do some research.” “College research?” “No, it’s not for college. It’s for me.” I answer. “Alright i am going to head your way then. I will be there in about twenty minutes.” He disconnects without a response. I roll my eyes. Well there goes my silent library. But I can get Waylon to help me. I mean I need to talk to someone about what’s going on so who better then my beta.

While waiting for Waylon, I pull up the program I need on the library’s computer. So I can look up which books I will need. I type in dragon and I get 3 pages of results. I quickly print out the results so that I know where the books are and which ones to grab. It’s going to be a long night. But hopefully I get some good information. I start grabbing books and stacking them on a table in a back corner that’s out of the way. Just in case anyone else besides Waylon comes in.

I just grabbed another book to add to the pile when my beta walks in. “Hey Axel what we researching?” And that’s why he’s my best friend. He has no clue what’s going on but already includes himself. “Dragons” I say nodding. “Alright I’ll bite. Why are we researching dragons.” He asks. I bite my bottom lip and sigh out “I met one today at breakfast.” His jaw drops. “You met a dragon? Like a real like dragon?” He asks unconvincingly. I nod my head. “Yes I did. And there’s something else” I say as I walk to the table and sit down. He takes the chair across from me. “Well don’t keep me in suspense.”

“He’s my mate. The dragons my mate.” I tell him honestly. It takes him three whole minutes to process my words. Then his eyes widen in understanding. “Are you sure? And you said he?” He asks surprised. I pat my heart. “Yeah I’m sure. Yeah his names Cosmo and he’s a 6’2 biker. I feel him. Even now I can feel him. He feels happy and maybe a little nervous.” I say. Even surprising myself with how easy it was to feel those emotions coming from him. “Wow a biker! How? I mean did you claim him?” He asks. “No. Our eyes met and it was immediate. Our souls connected and I have a piece of him and he has a piece of me.” I reply. “How is that possible?” “I don’t know. One of the many things I need to research.”

“Where is he? Did you bring him to the pack house?” Waylon inquires. “No I didn’t bring him here. I don’t think him being here is a good idea. At least not right now. I asked him for time to get my head around everything and we traded phone numbers. Currently my plan it to learn everything I can about dragons and how they mate. Maybe I can undo it? I know the moon goddess picked him for me. But I don’t know what my dad will do.”

I see Waylon cringe at that last statement. “Yeah alpha won’t like that your not only mated to a non wolf but to a man at that. I don’t envy you at at.” He says. “I don’t know what to do. I’ve never wanted a man. But at the same time this is my mate. The one made perfectly for me by the moon goddess herself. How do I turn my back on that?” I ask defeated. “I don’t have any answers for you Axel. But I will help you find them. I will also stand with you if claiming your mate is what you choose . Man or women it doesn’t matter to me. You are my best friend and my alpha regardless.” He tells me earnestly. “Thank you Waylon. You have no idea what that means to me. Especially after the day I have had. I don’t feel like the same person who woke up this morning.” “That’s understandable I think. But let’s crack open these books and try and get to the bottom of this.” He says as he grabs the first book off the stack. I nod my agreement and grab the next one. We read throughout the whole night.