The Confused Alpha

Chapter 4 Axel

It is two in the morning and we are still in the library. My eyes are dry and scratchy from staring at the printed letters for so long. What is concerning is that even with the hours that we have been at this. There is not much information here. Waylon has been right here with me all night. Digging through book after book. So far we have only found vague references and myths. Even a book of fairy tales. But no history books on the species. At least not that we have in our pack library. It’s as if dragons doesn’t exist. But they must since I’m mated to one.

“Axel. This may be something. It’s just a statement about the birth of the dragon species. So not any actual information. But it references another book. Look here.” Waylon tells me. I lean over to take a look. I see what he means. It is the first actual clue that we have found all night. It is definitely obscure. But it is a lead. “Let me see if we have it in our library.” I say. I get up from my chair and move quickly to the computer. I type in Dreki and hit enter. It only takes a second for the computer to tell me that we do not have this particular book.

“We don’t have it here in our library.” I tell Waylon. “Then we find it. It is the best lead we found all night.” He answers. I sigh knowing he’s right and that we are not going to be able to get the information tonight. Finding the book may be an issue if it’s obscure. I sit back down at the table defeated. My phone vibrates on the table where it sits. I grab it seeing that it’s a text message from Cosmo. Sweet dreams Mate. I can’t help the warmth that fills my chest.

“Let’s call it a night. I’m going to have to track down this book anyway. I’m exhausted and we both have class in a few hours.” I say. Waylon nods sleepily. “Yeah alright. I’m sorry we didn’t find anything but I have a good feeling about this book. We just have to find it.” “ I know me too. I just wish we had it.” We work in silence picking up the stacks of books we have been pouring over all night. Then we head out of the library and to the top floor where our rooms are. “Thanks Waylon. See you in the morning.” With a wave he went into his room and closed the door.

I opened my door to my room and knew immediately that Birdie was inside. I can’t help the growl that’s ripped from my throat at the breach of my territory. I slam into my room. Birdie is laid out on my bed without a stitch of clothing. She’s posed in what I’m sure she thinks is a sexy way. “What the f**k are you doing in room? You sure as f**k shouldn’t be in my bed.” I scream. “Baby don’t be like that. I missed you last night so I figured I would come wait up for you. Spend some time together. Where have you been?” She purrs. I stare at her for what seems like forever because I don’t understand. I have only spoken to her a hand full of times and we only had the one night together. Hell I was with a friend of hers the night before I was with her. I only slept with her because she offered and she was easy. Im definitely not her baby.

“Are you insane? Honestly are you? Im not your baby. The other night was fun but that’s all it was. And it’s over. Your not my mate and you won’t be my mate. Now get your s**t and get the f**k out of my room. There is no reason for you to ever be on this floor again.” I’m shaking I’m so mad. I don’t even know if she understood my words through my growls. She’s sure not acting like she understood.

She gets off the bed and stands up walking towards me. I lock my muscles down tight so I won’t attack her. She pats my chest. “You need to get with the program Axel. I’m going to be your Luna. You will mate with me. If your confused about that fact then you should talk with the alpha and my dad. It’s all planned out.” She says right before she walks out my door still naked. I growl at her words. I absolutely wont be marking her. I wouldn’t mate her even if I hadn’t found my mate. So I definitely won’t be doing it now.

I stomp to my bed and strip the blankets and sheets from it. I refused to sleep in a bed that smells like her. I can’t believe I ever touched her to begin with. I should have know she had a plan. But I was just having a good time. I didn’t think. After throwing my bedding into the hall I remake my bed. Then I take a shower. I want to scrub my chest down where she touched. I stay under the spray for what seems like forever. I still don’t know what to do about my mate. I still can’t see myself kissing a man. But I also can’t see never marking my mate. I’m still just as confused as I was this morning when my eyes met his.

After drying off and making sure my door is locked I lay in bed. Mate? My wolf asks. He doesn’t understand my confusion or concerns. He just wants his mate. After trying to go to sleep for twenty or so minutes I give up. Sighing in frustration I grab my cell phone. If I can’t research about dragons maybe I can research something else.

I pull up my internet browser and go to my favorite porn site. I bite my bottom lip as my finger hovers over the gay category. This can change everything. Then again hasn’t everything already changed? I take a deep breath and then click the link. It only takes a a couple of seconds to load the page. I look at each video thumbnail. I see one that has two men and a women in it. I figure that’s a good way to start slow.

They start out kissing the women. Taking turns with her lips and then one starts in on her neck. Hands going to her breast and stomach. It’s definitely hot. I feel my d**k getting hard. After a bit of kissing on the women the men share their first kiss. It’s harsh and passionate. I didn’t think I would feel that way about watching two men kiss. All three of them are all lips and hands. My breathing is definitely picking up

The women climbs on the bed to start touching herself. One of the men drops to his knees in front of the other. I can’t help but reach down and grab a tight hold of my d**k. I stroke my c**k as I watch one man give another a blow job. Never once did my eyes stray to the women on the bed. After awhile the man getting his d**k sucked pull the other off of him. Then he climbs between the Women’s legs and starts pleasuring her. I find myself disappointed that he made the guy stop sucking. That’s really surprising. But the disappointment doesn’t last long as the man that was on his knees joins the two on the bed. It doesn’t take much lingers before I’m groaning out my release.

I lay In my bed panting at the ceiling. Eyes wide and my stomach covered in my own c*m. Well I guess that works. Other then the Initial kissing I hadn’t paid any attention to the women in the video. So yeah. I guess tonight’s research may have paid off after all. I’m still confused and I think I may feel that way for awhile. But I’m no longer as scared of my future s*x life. I get up and make my way into my bathroom. After setting a rag I clean myself up and toss it into the laundry basket. It didn’t take long after cleaning up my stomach for me to fall into a deep sleep.

BEEP BEEP BEEP BEEP

BEEP BEEP

I slam my hand down on my alarm clock. 7am is entirely to early. However I have a 9am class so I need to get up and moving. I roll over and grab my phone. I pull up my message I received from Cosmo last night. It takes just a second to think back to last night and the video I watched. Before I click the reply button on the message.

Me: morning

Cosmo: good morning mate. Did you sleep well?

Me: I slept alright

Cosmo: what are your plans today?

Me: I have classes today until around 3

Cosmo: classes?

Me: yeah I go to college in the next town over for business.

Cosmo: I have a smart mate:)

Cosmo: have dinner with me?

Me:…ok

With a deep breath I roll out of bed and get dressed. If I took a little bit more care picking out my clothes then normal who cares. Just as I’m fixing my hair Waylon knocks and then yells through the door. “Hey let’s go!” I grab my backpack and head out the door. As we make our way down the stairs an omega is headed up. “Excuse me sir but alpha is looking for you.” I nod at her then start making my way to my fathers office.

I knock and go in when he says enter. “Dad I don’t have long or we’re going to be late for class.” He just looks at me and points to the chairs in from his desk. We both take seats and wait for him to start talking. “It has been decided that you will claim Birdie. You will make her your Luna. A ceremony is being planned for the next full moon run.” He explains like I will just fall in line. Most of the time I would. But I won’t with this. It’s the rest of my life that we’re talking about. “No dad. I’m sorry but I’m not mating her. I already told you that. I told her too.” It was then I remember her telling me that our fathers had already planned our mating. I was so angry and exhausted last night I didn’t even think about what she had told me.

“You can and you will. It’s already been decided. I have been generous on letting you wait this long before taking a mate. Your out of time son.” He says. “What if I find my mate before the ceremony?” I question. He just shakes his head. “Son chances of you finding her within the next month is hard to imagine. But I will give you this. If you find your mate before the start of the ceremony then you don’t have to mate Birdie.” He agrees. “That’s all I need dad.” I nod. “Get to school boys.” He dismisses us.

We’re quite the rest of the way out of the pack house. But as soon as we’re in the Jeep Waylon can’t help himself. “What are you going to do?” “Well I’m going to go to school and then tonight I have a date with my mate.” He raises his eyebrows at that bit of information. “Are you going to claim him?” “Yeah I believe I am. Dad said I could claim my mate instead of mating Birdie so that’s what I will do.” “He doesn’t think your mate will be a man.” Waylon reminds me. “True but he didn’t say it couldn’t be a man either.” I say cheekily.