Alphas broken mate

Shadows of the past II

Beast

I slowly chewed the pancake with my eyes completely concentrated on the plate.

As I was eating, Daniel sat down on the bed next to me and watched me eat.

"You are probably wondering why I tracked you down, now, after all this time."

His words peaked my interest a bit, but I refused to show it, so I continued to chew and stare at my plate.

"Erin."

His voice had just a tinny bit of alpha in it, but it was enough to make me look up from the plate.

This little trick of his is getting old.

My eyes met his and the clear blue eyes were not annoyed or angry as I expected... no, they were clear and calm, like always.

Sadness filled my chest and the need to look away was strong.

Slowly he extended his hand and I shifted back in bed so that he wouldn't be able to touch me. My sudden movement sent the plate playing on the ground, breaking it into small pieces.

The sound of it breaking filled the room as I stared at it for a few moments, feeling a bit sad about the delicious pancakes that I could no longer have.

In the corner of my eye, I followed Daniel's movement.

You can call it an instinct I picked up in the arena... never look away from your opponent, because that mistake can be your last.

But in the most basic sense, it was just plain paranoia.

His hand froze mid-air the moment I shifted back.

He looked at his hand for a moment, his face also frozen in a natural look that I was sure hid a lot of different emotions.

Releasing a deep breath, he lowered that hand and looked up at me now.

His eyes were full of sadness and regret that he had been hiding from me before...

I know why that look was in his eyes... I was the one to blame for that look in his eyes.

I was the one that ruined everything... like always.

Feeling pain and memories rushing back into my mind and I need to escape... I needed to stop those memories from returning.

Without even thinking for a second, I jumped out of bed, landing on the broken plate.

The sharp broken edges dug into my skin, piercing it, but this was not enough to quiet those memories... to stop the pain from spreading in my chest.

So I took off running without a clear direction in my mind, I just knew that I had to run.

I could hear Percy shouting my name, but my brain was buzzing too much for me to understand any of what he was saying.

My own heartbeat mixed with the sounds from my memories was too loud for me to hear anything.

So I just ran.

And ran.

I am not sure how I made it outside, because it was all a blur. My mind was racing when I stepped outside and stopped for a moment, training to decide where to run now, but before I could take even a step, I felt Dainiel's hands wrap around my body.

"STOP ERIN."

This time he used his full alpha power and I had no other choice but to freeze in place.

His hands forced me to turn around and he pressed my head into his chest, like all those years ago.

He always did this when my memories would rush back and I would go into complete panic mode.

This was the only way he could think of how to stop me without hurting me... well that was at least what he said when I asked him.

Every time I started to slip, he would hug me like this and hold me until I my heart beat settled. Enough so I could breathe normally again.

Him, holding me like that was the only way I could cope with this back then... until I ruined it all and ran... after that, I found a different way to make it all go away. It was a lot more violent and bloody, but my fighting instinct was strong in me. As alpha's daughter, I had extra strong fighting instincts that would kick in every time I was in danger or in a fight.

The moment adrenaline rushes through my body, everything else fades away...

But Daniel holding me like this... it is based on a completely different science than simple adrenalin rush and I do not understand how it works even now.

Somehow, the moment he touched me, everything else also faded away, leaving only him in my universe.

But this time it felt different... it didn't feel like it did when we were teens. There is no calmness coming for me this time... the only thing I felt was pain and regret...

Regret of what I have done to him...

Shit...

NO...

I pushed away from his chest and tried to run.

"ERIN."

His hold on me tightened, but I still tried to get away, I tried to rip myself out of his arms.

I had to get away before it all fell apart, before I fell apart.

I was trashing in his hands, but his hold on me was too strong.

Feeling desperate, I could no longer stop the pitiful cry of pain leaving my throat and that sound was what made him freeze and release me.

His hands slowly fell to his sides freeing me and I took off running again.

I had no idea where I was going, I just knew that I had to go, before everything came crashing down again.

My feet were burning with pain, I could feel rocks and branches under my cut feet, but I did not care about it... I just knew that I had to run.

The drugs he used to knock me out before with must not have worn off fully because as I was making a sharp turn to avoid a tree, everything became blurry and then completely black.