Ollie
I don’t know what to feel. Being here with Felix feels…different. We never lived together. We’ve only spent the night together a handful of times when he was living with his recruiter and those nights were absolutely amazing. I couldn’t help but think how being with him over the years has gotten so much better than us fumbling with each other and trying to figure things out as we go, the overall awkwardness of being each other’s first at almost everything. He was the first guy I loved. We gave each other our virginities and everything that went with that, from hand jobs, fingering, blow jobs, eating out, the whole nine yards. But were there other women? There must have been. Look at him! He’s freaken gorgeous.
But then, thinking about it reels up my jealousy. I can’t be jealous th
