My Best Friend Raped Me - English Version

Chapter 2

I bit my thumb. This had been my mannerisms whenever I was lost in my deep thoughts.

I still couldn’t fathom why he did this to me. Was that how strong his feelings were to me? And why instead of getting upset or despite him, did I feel sorry for him? No, I shouldn’t feel this way. Whatever his reasons were, it still didn't justify what he did to me. If he really loved me, if he truly cared for me, he should have told me his feelings. He should have been honest. He shouldn’t have resorted to forcing himself to me! And his craziness should be stopped!

But why was I feeling this way? Why did I sympathize with his feelings? I was so confused! I should be ballistic right now! Besides, he didn't care about my feelings in the first place.

I sighed.

Way to go, best friend or should I say beast friend? Oh my God, Ken… what were you doing to me? Why did you even do it?

I thought I was still lost in my little world. I didn’t notice that Ken already come back until I heard the sound of the forks clinking. I saw him putting the tray on the bedside table. It was full of food, there was fried rice, sausages, scrambled eggs, and even a tall glass of what looked like strawberry juice. And I almost scoffed when I saw a stem of rose together with the food.

Was he trying to be sweet?

Thinking about it made me want to throw up. He was ridiculous!

And then I noticed that he was already fully clothed. He was wearing a black body-hugged tank top, dark green cargo pants, and black house slippers. He wore simple clothes but even so, anyone could tell he really took good care of himself. He was the epitome of a gorgeous man. He had strong, well-defined facial features: a chiseled jawline, high cheekbones, and sharp, symmetrical features. His eyes were striking— deep and intense framed by thick lashes. His skin was clear and well-maintained, glowing with health. He had a clean-shaven look that complements his face. His hair was slightly tousled, adding to his appeal, and he carried himself with confidence. He was tall, with a toned physique, but his posture and the way he held himself showed strength and grace. His smile was warm and inviting, hinting at both charm and charisma. Any woman would swoon over him just to get his attention.

I heaved a sigh.

This was not the right time for me to appreciate his looks. I have to think about how to get away from this turmoil.

“I brought you some food, Blair. I know you are hungry. You haven’t eaten anything yet since last night,” he said in a soft sweet voice. He sat beside me, facing me.

I didn’t respond. I completely ignored him. But to my shock, he suddenly reached into my chest. I instantly shoved his hands and glared at him.

He didn’t budge. He still reached his hands to me and started buttoning my blouse which I didn’t notice I was still wearing. It felt like all my energy left my body. I just let him. There was no use of fighting anyway. He already succeeded in taking my purity.

My heart beat faster. I didn’t know why, maybe because of my rage.

He stood up after he was done fixing the buttons of my blouse. I just watched him as he went to the walk-in closet. I laid down on the bed again. I felt so tired and my mind and heart were still in chaos.

I couldn’t help but think about my boyfriend Stuart. I have to tell him what happened. However, was he still going to accept me? What if not? Ken told me he’d marry me. Should I agree?

“Blair, I already prepared your clothes as well as the water in the tub just like how you want it. You can take a bath now and then eat your breakfast later.”

I looked up and found Ken already in front of me. His face was just an inch away from mine. My eyes widened as he gave me a peck on my forehead like it was the most normal thing to do.

I instantly stood up. My body was still sore, but I didn’t care anymore. I just want to leave the room, away from him.

I grabbed the robe from the bedside table and wore it as I hurriedly walked towards the bathroom. I leaned on the door as soon as I closed it. I smiled bitterly. I just noticed my bare self from the waist down. Then, I realized it was the only thing Ken managed to remove last night.

I hardly managed to walk as the pain between my legs was starting to be unbearable. I leaned on the wall trying to get some support when suddenly the door opened and scooped me up into his arms.

“Let me help you. Besides, I’m the one at fault why you are having a hard time walking,” he smirked.

“Oh geez! Shut, Ken!” I annoyingly responded as I smacked his arm.

It was as if he wasn’t hurt by what I did. He carefully put me down and started to undress me.

“Ken!” I protested. I held on to my bathrobe as if my life depended on it.

He looked me in the eye and gently smiled.

“Shhh… I will not do anything that you will not like,” he assured me. “I promise. I know I was rough with you last night, but I promise, I will not do that again.”

He tried undressing me again and I just let him. I guessed there was no use for me to resist. It was just too late I guessed.

I was totally naked before I got myself into the tub. The warm water gave me instant relief. I couldn’t help but close my eyes as I slowly submerged myself in the water. When I opened my eyes, Ken was already sitting on the rim of the tub. He took the sponge from the soap organizer which was just beside the bathtub. He squirted some body soap in it and lathered it.

I was just watching him the whole time. I hugged my knees as he started scrubbing my back. I felt like a little child that needed to be taken care of. The way he bathed me screamed gentleness. It was like the old Ken was back. The gentle, sweet Ken who was always by my side. The one who gave me everything I’d asked for.

A tear escaped my left eye. I bit my lower lip.

Ken suddenly stopped scrubbing my back. “Are you okay?” he asked.

“Do you know the consequences of what you’ve done, Ken?” I muttered.

He heaved a sigh.

“Of course. I already thought it through and even made a solution. I already spoke with your parents—“

I sat up straight and looked at him—shock was the understatement. “What?!”

How? And why was he so calm about it?

“Yep, I already talked to them,” he confessed. ”They already agreed to the wedding,” he said as if it was the greatest news he received. He took the handheld shower head and proceeded to wash the bubbles off me.

I was so stunned. I couldn’t believe he already talked to my parents. I didn’t even know what to think! I frowned. Everything just happened in a blur.

“Why?” he asked.

“Nothing.”

“Are you thinking about Stuart?”

I raised my left eyebrow and didn’t say anything.

"I will talk to him. I know you're worried about a lot of things but let me handle it. I'll solve it all."

Ken helped me stand up. His eyes roamed all over my body as if he was checking me out and then he smiled satisfied. He grabbed the bath towel and wrapped it around my body.

His actions made my body shiver, not because of the cold but because of that sudden electricity traveling through my veins. And it tickled me down there. I bit my lower lip again.

Why was I feeling this way? I really didn’t know. I started feeling this way when I learned that he wanted to spend his lifetime with me. I felt like a moth playing around the fire. I know it would be dangerous but the temptation was just too strong that I could not resist it. Then, there was Stuart. I didn’t even know if he would still accept a tainted woman like me. If, even after everything that had happened, his feelings for me would still be the same. I was just so confused.

"Blair, about our wedding... How do you like it to be?"

"How did you convince my parents, Ken? And when did you do that?" I asked him, ignoring his question.

“I told them I love you. I went to your parent’s house last night and I told them everything.”

"Last night?"

He nodded and scooped me into his arms again as soon as I got out of the tub.

“Ken, put me down! I am not a disabled person!”

He shushed me. “Just let me do this. I caused you so much pain last night. I want to pamper you with love, Blair. Let me start doing this for you. Let me show you how much you mean to me and maybe, just maybe you’d let me into your heart not just as a friend but as a man who wanted to spend his life with you.”

I scoffed. “So cheesy…”

Ken smiled.

“How did you even manage to go to my parents’ house last night?”

“After what had happened last night, I waited until you fell asleep. Then, I drove myself there. I didn’t want to wait longer so I went there. As soon as they heard what I did to you, your father almost punched me. He was just stopped by your mom. I told them my plans and they agreed.”

“I am so mad at you, Ken.” I could feel my tears start to fall again. The feeling of betrayal was just so painful.

I couldn’t help but think that they ganged up on me. Why did I feel like I was being manipulated? My parents just agreed without even consulting me. Why was it so easy for them to trust Ken again? They treat him like their own son and he betrayed their trust by sexually assaulting me, their only daughter! And yet, they agreed to his wimps.

Why?

"A penny for your thoughts?" Ken asked as he put me down on the bed. He took the brush from the drawer of the bedside table and sat beside me. He started brushing my wet hair gently.

I looked at him and stared into his eyes. They said the eyes are the window to your soul. And I wanted to know if I could see right through him if I could read his soul.

What I saw there sent shivers down my spine. It was a whole lot of emotions. I was captivated and like a prisoner, I couldn’t get out. And before I knew it, I already felt his lips on mine.

It was like he was testing me if I would protest. He was being too careful and gentle until the kiss became so passionate. Ken cupped my face with his two hands and my body started to succumb to the fire of our desires.

And before I could surrender, Ken stopped kissing me. I melted away with shame. But he didn’t seem to care. It was as if he won a jackpot. He smiled happily. It was like he was waiting for some sort of confirmation and he got it.

He pressed our foreheads together.

"I know you are confused and worried but don't be. I love you, Blair, and I will do everything for you. I will always be here to keep you safe from harm. Just please give me a chance. Let me in just like how you let me kiss you. Give me a chance to prove myself. I started on the wrong foot and I know what I did is very awful, but I hope that you’ll forgive me one day. Let me in your heart, Blair. Please let me in. "

I didn’t know what to say. I was dumbfounded. To be honest, how could you forgive someone who betrayed you? How could you love someone when you already love someone else? How could you let someone inside your heart when it was already occupied by someone else?

It was f****d up.

He should’ve done it in the first place. Because if he indeed loved me, he should have told me about it a long time ago. He should not wait for me to be engaged and decided to do awful things and then said he loved me.

That was just absurd! Unacceptable! This is more than a betrayal!

"I am indeed confused, Ken. Actually, that is an understatement. I am hurt. I'm hurt because you are my best friend, but how can you do this to me?"