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I’m back. Super-Anal Straight-A Girl is back. I feel SO much better.
I’ve been thinking about what David’s mother said—about how knowing math and science is a way to understand God. Or however she put it.
Maybe that’s exactly the kind of sign I’ve been looking for. Maybe I had it exactly backwards: I’m not supposed to drop science and math, I’m supposed to kick their a*s.
Same for history and English and Spanish. I’m supposed to be smart. I drew the smart card—I know that’s true. It feels too wrong and miserable to be a slacker. God must want me to be brilliant.
I’ve been thinking a lot about God. How could I not? I read some more of the Mayers’ book yesterday, and it’s filled with atheists and agnostics seeing the light. Literally—lots of Near Death Experiences (NDEs, as I will no
