YOU HAD YOUR CHANCE (BxB) (COMPLETE)

I'm trying

~LENNY~

"hey kiddo." Dad says when he enters my room, his presence makes me sit up on the bed. He scans my messy room with a frown. Dirty clothes litter the room along with empty bottles of water.

"Wow, how can you sleep here?" He asks,

I chuckle nervously, rubbing the back of my neck, "yh, I will clean it up."

He comes to sit beside me with a warm smile, "are you okay?" He asks, his smile turning upside down.

"Why do you ask?" I ask nervously, I hope it is not what I am thinking.

"You have been a bit gloomy since after the party yesterday. And you have been clumsy too ...and you are never clumsy." He says.

He is on point actually. I tripped at the dinning table because one of my legs got in the way of my movement. It has been like that yesterday and this morning during breakfast. I think my mate indirectly rejecting me is affecting me in more ways than I thought. I felt okay with Leo, but I have been a bit down spirited since I got home.

"I am okay. Just a bit tired." I reply with a forced smile.

"Are you sure?" Dad is so not buying it.

"Yh.. positive."

"Okay. I know I have been a bit busy, but know I am always here for you and your sister. Whatever you need just ask." He says.

"I know."

"Good." He ruffles my hair with a smile. "The pack run is in an hour. You have some time to get ready."

"Okay." He offers a smile then leaves after shaking his head at my not so attractive room. Do not get me wrong, it is a nice room. It is just a bit messy now and I am in no rush to get it cleaned. I can do that after we get back from the pack run.

My phone dings with a message. I unlock the screen with my fingerprint when I see it is from Leo, a smile instantly saturates my lips, brightening my sour mood.

'Hey, are you there?'

'Yh, right here.'

'I have never really texted you before so I feel a bit weird'

'Lol, same here'

The grin I am spoting right now is making my cheeks hurt, but I can not stop it.

'are you busy?'

'nah. In fact I am bored out of my mind right now'

'lol, me too. Can't wait to see you though... I mean if you are still up to going out with me.'

'yh. Why, did you change your mind?'. God, I hope he did not. I am really looking forward to it.

'No way. I can't even if I wanted to. *Wink *

I laugh out at that. The guy is a flirt. But I like it nonetheless.

'That is good. See you later then. Going for a run.'

'ok. See you *kiss emoji*.'

I put down the phone with a pink face and gracefully slid of the bed, and make my way to the open window. The green forest and blue sky brings a smile to my face. I do not even remember the last time I let things freeze for just a moment and actually appreciate life. To feel the cool breeze against my cheeks, to have the sun warm up my face and heart.

Texting Leo has done a major on my mood. I do not get why I let my mate rejecting me cause my heart and mind to be in such a turmoil. It is not my fault he is unappreciative, but it hurts nonetheless. But that does not mean I should wallow in self pity.

I am sure he has even forgotten that I am here and is living his life like he has nothing to worry about. He knows my face and voice but I do not know his. He probably knows where I stay and my family if he is in the pack. I wonder how he will act and feel if he sees me knowing I am his mate. He will probably ignore me.

I let out a sigh and connect my phone to the Bluetooth speaker, letting the songs on my playlist fill the quiet room as I step out of my clothes and into the shower to take a bath even though I'm sure I will take another one after the run. The water helps to get my head straight and reduce how hard my heart keeps clenching in pain and disappointment. After a long, warm and refreshing bath, I feel a bit okay, not completely fine, but I am okay.

I put on only my sweatpants since I will be taking them off anyway. I hate how week and vulnerable and emotional I am at the moment. But I can not get it to stop, I can only live through it and hope it will pass soon.

'time to go kiddo.' dad tells me through the mind link.

'okay, I'm coming.' I reply. I can not believe an hour just went by so fast. I plug my phone in to charge after turning off the music. I then step out my room and go down the stairs. Danny is in a summer dresses since it will be easier for her to take them off. Mom is in a blue jeans and dad's shirt. She can not shift so she will be ridding dad's wolf. God that sounds dirty. Dad is in a black sweatpant.

"What took you so long?" She asks, stepping into dad's arms.

"Nothing." I say and try to give her a smile, but she only cringes at how fake it probably looks. She comes to to stand infront of me with her palm cradling my face and her eyes full of concern.

"Are you sure you are okay?" She asks, "you can stay in if you are not."

I love that my parents are worried about me, but I am not ready to talk and I do not know if I ever will be. I feel like I am suffocating, I badly want to breakdown and cry, to just let it all out, but I painfully swallow the urge to do so and smile instead.

"Okay." She whispers, not believing me but lets it go for now. "Let us go then.'

I catch dad glancing at me with a very scrutinizing gaze, but he says nothing and smiles as he nods his head at me. A silent message passing between us. When I am ready.

We step outside and join the many families going towards the forest. I silently fall behind mom and dad as Danny joins her mate. Seeing so many people talking to and walking side by side their mates, who accept and care for them hurts. It hurts so bad, but I do not know what to do. I feel so helpless...and lonely. I know my parents and Danny are here for me but it still feel so lonely.

"Hey! Lenn!" I glance behind me when I hear Milly calling. She is with three girls from our school but excuses herself and jogs to my side. I offer her the best smile I can but she looks at me as if I lost my mind.

"What is up with you?" She asks snaking her hands through my elbows as we slowly walk with the others towards the forest.

"Why is everyone so worried about me today?" I groan.

"Well if you were not looking like you got a tree shoved up your ass, they would not." She says sarcastically.

"I am okay. I am just feeling a bit down spirited." I say, we all stop when we are at the edge of the forest. Everyone steps behind a tree of their choice and shift. The snapping of bones echos around us. I step behind a tree like everyone else and let the pain and shocks that course through my blood as I change form, engulf me. It takes a little more than a minute for me to completely change into my brown, three feet and 350 pounds wolf.

I step out from behind the tree to meet Milly's golden brown wolf, we exchange playful growls.

"Where is Ronny?" I ask through the link.

"Probably with Lyca. Those two are so sweet that it is sickening." She says, sticking her wolf's pink and rough tongue out in mock disgust, from the coners of my wolf's eyes, I see Ben's grey wolf staring intently at me. My eyes lock on his for a minute before he runs off.

"what was that about?" Milly asks after Ben runs off.

"I do not know."

The alpha let's out a loud and powerful howl to commence the run. We follow his lead and howl together before running after the alpha and Luna. The whole point of us running together as a pack is to keep the pack bond strong, and to strengthen our unity and loyalty as a body and family.

I push my legs to go faster, my tongue out and my breathe coming out in pants, my lungs burning with how hard I am pushing myself. It is not like a race or anything I just enjoy how breathless it makes me, as if it could help me run away from my pain. The grass underneath my paws, the wind whistling in my ears and blowing through my fur. It is all amazing.

I see something run very fast past me, it draws a growl from me and I begin to chase it.