The Heart of The Pack

chapter 10

Amara pov

A group if us are going out tonight and they’re all here in my new room getting ready. They’re so happy and jumpy, but I feel empty and I can’t even pretend to share their joy. They’re all sitting around chatting about clothes and doing each others makeup. I excuse myself to the bathroom and sink to the floor, tears pouring again. I swear I’ve hardly ever cried in my life, I was always a happy person but since meeting Alexander and Ashley. It feels like all I do is cry and I’m not coping, I don’t know what to do. Alexander’s mum, Mel comes into the bathroom and sits with me, we have actually become close over this week. I think she can tell that, I just really wanted to fit in and help the pack that I wanted to call home. Arabella has been whimpering in my head all week, wanting her mates.

“you’ve been wallowing for a week Amara, come on it’s time to tell me what’s going on. You’re an asset to this pack, you’ve become family and family helps each other.” She wraps her arm around my shoulders as I cry.

“I’m not sure I can tell you, Alexander and Ashley might get mad at me.” Saying their names out loud for the first time in a week had my heart aching for them.

“well I am the previous Luna here. Granted that position is now Ashley’s, she doesn’t quite do it the same. A Luna is meant to care for the hearts and well-being of the pack members, but she’s too busy doing Alexander’s work. So I haven’t really gotten to step down properly, come on tell me I promise to stay a neutral point of view.” She coaxes and I can’t hold it in anymore, I feel so alone.

“you remember how you said you saw a connection between me and Alexander, then I assured you I cared for them both equally?” she nods and I continue. “well they’re my mates, both of them. I’m fated to Ashley and Alexander.” I look at her and her eyes bulge out, she’s quiet for a moment thinking.

“Well I’ve only heard of twins sharing a mate, but I guess anything is possible and it does makes sense. Alexander has never had interest in maintaining pack affairs, he focuses on keeping the pack strong and protected and dealing with disputes, after the attack we lost his father in. While Ashley manages the pack affairs, companies and all the finances. She hasn’t stepped into the role of caring for the pack because of that, but you have. I have had so much free time this week, with you here I could actually step down at some point and finally go on a holiday. It also makes sense as to why they wanted you up in the apartment with them, but why did you move down here?” her face is soft and welcoming, she rubs my arms to sooth me.

“I see what you mean by me fitting that role, but to them I’m invisible. I fit in with the pack now, but not with them. I tried to arrange a fancy dinner for all of us I wanted to spend time getting to know them and maybe even mate. They said they would be there, but they didn’t come, I was up all night waiting. When they finally did, they ended up banging on the kitchen counter and didn’t even see that I was standing right there. And then Alexander used his Alpha’s aura on me the next day, forcing me to submit. And arguing with them made me realise, how much we just don’t know each other. And I was so broken after that, that I moved down here and focused on finding my place here within the pack, because I feel so left out by them and alone. And I have found my place, but I’m still invisible to them, I don’t even think they’ve noticed I’m not living up there anymore. They might need me here to fill the role of caring for the pack, but they don’t need me in their relationship. They’ve been mates for so long and feel like an outsider.”

Alexander’s mum gets up and storms out, returning quickly with a bottle of champagne. “here help me drink this before I end up going upstairs and kicking those kids butts”

I giggled at her reaction, “you said you’d stay neutral.”

“well this isn’t the conversation I thought we would be having. You being mated to them means you are also connected to me, I’m your mother in law like I am Ashley’s. And even though I didn’t realise it, you have become like a daughter to me. And I will always try and stay neutral but its hard when I can see that my son and Ashley are being idiots and are risking losing the one person they both really need on their life.” She takes a swig of the champagne straight from the bottle and hands it to me.

“I’m considering going home, now that the packhouse is running better. I’m not really needed and I don’t think they would notice if I’m gone.” I take a swig like she did and she snatches it away and skulls half the bottle.

“Don’t even think about it Missy, I will chase you down, you belong here with us. Now come let’s get you all sexy looking and show them what they’re missing out on.”

After an hour of doing my hair and makeup, Mel puts me in a tiny, strappy, black, backless dress and high heals. She scoots us all out of the packhouse making me promise to dance my heart out.

Alexander pov

Sitting on the couch, Ashley’s tears finally dried up and we both just sit here silent. The door burst open and mum storms over to us, hands on her hips and I can tell she is fuming. “What the hell are two doing sitting around for, get your sorry butts up and dressed. You both have a mate to catch and makeup for lost time and all the sh*t you two pulled.”

“Mum you know?” I look at her stunned.

“I have spent the week trying to figure out why that poor girl is working her a$$ of for a pack she isn’t even initiated in to, while being so completely miserable. So yes I know, because I finally dragged it out of her, only to figure out you two are complete jerks. How long did it take you to realise she hasn’t been staying up here?”

“Just now mum” looking down I feel like a child again being scolded.

“So she was right, she is invisible to you both.”

“no she isn’t, she’s important.” Ashley rebuts.

“she is invisible, did either of you know that the night she planned that dinner for you, she was sitting out here waiting for you all night. when the two of you bust in and had s*x on the counter, she was right here in this room and neither of you saw her get up and walk to her room. And the fact she hasn’t been up here in a week and you’ve only just noticed, she is invisible to you. The pack needs her, you have no idea how much she has done for us, I can retire because of her. And yet you two are acting like morons, and she is even considering leaving, you are both an inch away from losing your mate. Now get up, because that tiny dress she’s wearing is bound to get some attention. You both need to make it up to her and go claim your mate, because she is loved by the pack and the pack should know she is their Luna too. You’ve made her feel invisible and you’ve kept her hidden and she can’t take it anymore.”

“what tiny dress?” I bolt upright.

“Really Zan that’s what you got from that, Amara isn’t coping, she wants to leave.” Ash gets up heading to the room, after an hour we are both dressed and ready. Ash is wearing a little pink outfit, that makes me want to jump her. Now is not the time, driving to the bar mum said the girls went to, ash fidgets nervously. The music is pumping loud and we can’t use our sense of smell here, the bar is filled with overwhelming smells of booze, arousal and sweat. Walking up to the overhanging balcony, we hope to spot Amara. “there” ash shouts pointing at the bar, spotting Amara shooting a shot, then turn towards the dance floor. She finds the middle and dances by herself moving her hips swaying and her hands in her hair raising it up. Getting a glimpse of her entire back, “mine” both ash and I growl out. Time to catch our prey, we head down and Ash circles around the front and I go around the back. The way Amara moves is so sexy, but I can also tell she’s tipsy. Ash manages to get close and slowly starts dancing along with her but the moment ash touches her, Amara realises who it is she jumps back straight into my chest. Ash closes the distance again, trapping her between us.

“why, why are you both here?”

“we’re here to claim our mate” I growl in her ear and she shivers.

“I’m not your mate, you both made that clear, please leave me alone.” She pushes off to the side and out of the crowd. Finding an empty hallway, “damn it, where’s the door, I want to go home.”

“Come honey, we can all go home.” Ash pulls her hand, turning Amara back towards us.

“no, I want to go to my home, I miss my family and I miss feeling happy. I wish id never met either of you, I want to go home.”

As Amara tries to pass me I hold her, her back to my chest leaning against the wall, she breaks down crying. She whispers that she doesn’t want to be alone anymore and ash rushes towards us comforting Amara. After a while ash wipes the tears from her face and I see a debate in her mind, quickly making her choice. She pulls Amara’s lips to hers and Amara accepts it, their lips and tongues moving together. I can feel myself getting hard at the sight of my mates kissing and my hands go around her sides, because of the little backless number. my hands slip under the fabric, one hand on her belly the other raising to her full breast. I’ve been waiting for these since the moment I laid my eyes on her, tweaking her n****e she moans and her knees go weak. Holding her tighter so she doesn’t fall, her arousal peaks as she moans and pushes back against me. Looking over her shoulder, I see ash’s hand between Amara’s legs and under her skirt. My hard on pushing against my pants to be let out, my hand on her belly goes down, wanting to be apart of this moment. My fingers slide between ash’s palm and Amara’s bud, I roll my finger around it while fiddling with her n****e and she moans loud. I can feel ash’s fingers moving in and out of Amara’s core, her hand reaches up behind her grabbing my neck and the other forward taking ashes. Amara grips tighter crying out, “that’s it honey, come for us.” Ash coos as her. Amara cries out again, this time shaking until she completely collapses in my arms. I scoop her up into my arms and notice ash staring at her hand “I never thought there would come a day when I’d touch another woman like that, but that was amazing.” Taking her hand I guide it into her mouth, her eyes widen “mm she tastes like heaven.”

“so do you baby, now share,” I pull Ash’s mouth to mine devouring what’s left of Amara on her tongue. “Let’s get her home,” I say pulling back.