The Heart of The Pack

chapter 3

Amara pov

Sitting on my bed I replay that moment, the moment I saw them. I looked into a beautiful pair of blue eyes alpha Alexander goddess he is so tall. ‘Mate’ Arabella whispered, but he has a mate, what the f*ck. I look to his luna Ashley and see the Pinkest eyes I’ve ever seen and felt my heart beat fasten, her blond hair framing her face. She’s taller then me and stunning ‘mate’ Arabella whispers again. Oh sh*t they’re both my mates, how is this possible.

How am I supposed to be mated to an alpha and a Luna, they’re mated to each other. What need would they have for me, an alpha and a Luna don’t need a third wheel. One rejection can possibly kill someone, getting two rejections I’m definitely dead. How could the moon goddess do this to me, what kind of pack would accept another Luna. I’ve never heard of this happening before.

There’s a knock on my door and I can tell it’s my father, I can tell from the aura. Standing in front of me is my father and my two mates, I tell him what he wants to know and shut the door quickly. I pace in my room and I just can’t sleep, all I can think about is my mates. They don’t want me, they made that clear and it hurts so much. Leaving my room making sure the halls are empty, I go down to make a hot chocolate. As I put the kettle on, I smell her I smell Ashley and I don’t know how to react. I offer her a hot chocolate and move to the far bench, jumping up to sit on the counter.

She comes over to me and oh goddess she touched my cheek and the tingles!!! I almost melted into a puddle on the bench, she wiped a tear that I didn’t know had fallen. She asked me not to cry, saying it hurts them to see me cry. Then I ranted at her and I don’t know what I expected her response to be, but I did not expect her to be rubbing circles on my knees. Those damn tingles are making me blush, my cheeks are going to go as red as my hair, I know it.

“ I don’t know how or why this happened. But the moon goddess always has a plan. She must see something that we don’t, but we will figure something out. And yea wolves are all those things but this is different, even though I know you’re mated to zan it doesn’t bother me because well I’m mated to you too. So don’t worry about stepping on toes, we just need to figure out what to do about this bump in the road, ok?” she said, wait I’m a bump in the road that needs dealing with? Damn it, I let my guard down and now I know they’re going to just throw me away.

‘maybe she didn’t mean it that way give her a chance Amara’ Arabella whines.

I finish my mug, hoping down from the counter, I step away from her. “Yea let me know when you decide on what to do about me” I wish I got a say in this too, but it is two against one. They’re already established mates, what they want goes I guess. I wish she had never touched me, they’re going to reject me and I wish they did that before I knew what the bond felt like. I run up to my room tears pouring down my face but I slam into a hard wall and hands on my arms steady me. Wiping my tears, a face bends down and looks into my eyes, oh goddess it’s him. The tingles running down my arms and across my shoulder blades, makes me cry harder.

“Amara, why are you crying?” he looks so angry and serious. I hear Ashley running up behind me, and he looks up to her “Ash?”

“Stop touching me!” I shout pushing him away and running further down the hall, finding my room and escaping away from them both. I can feel my heart breaking, they don’t want me. Ugh this hurts so much, I crawl into bed burying myself and letting my tears flow out.

I ended up crying myself to sleep all night, and I was exhausted from my lack of sleep the night before. Getting up I dress in a black long sleeve play suit, it has an oval neckline showing moderate cleavage but a lot of my back. It has a half skirt starting at one hip wrapping and around the back and ending at my other hip, the front being shorts. With my black pumps and my hair in its usual bun with a pen, I’m ready for whatever kind of day awaits me.

Going to the kitchen I prepare breakfast for everyone and by the time I’m done, people have started gathering in the dinning hall. Taking my plate and coffee I sit with my parents avoiding eye contact to the side of the room I can feel them. Arabella is itching me to look at them, to get closer and feel the sparks again.

After breakfast all the men head off to the training grounds, while all the women sit in the common room, all sipping tea and chatting. After placing more tea on the coffee table, all the young pups come running in pouncing on me. With my small stature and the amount of them I end up on the floor covered in children. They’re all shouting my name and asking to go to the park, looking over at my mother she nods. So I give in to the kids and they all jump off of me, squealing with delight.

As were leaving though I hear her voice, Ashley stands. “I might accompany them, it would be nice to have some fresh air and a walk around your pack.” She smiles and follows us out.

I can feel my heart pumping harder, she’s walking behind me to one side, while all the kids run in front. And after a few minutes of walking, we make it to the playground, all the kids run off and I find a spot on the bench. Ashley sits next to me but not close enough to be touching, Arabella whines in my mind and pushes me to sit closer, but I don’t listen.

“I’m sorry about last night, I was trying to comfort you and I messed up. I didn’t mean to upset you, I am really sorry, I feel terrible about it.” Sneaking a glance at Ashley she’s fiddling with her fingers and looking down at the ground, she seems nervous.

“Its fine, you don’t owe me an apology for speaking your mind, regardless of the outcome. I have a request though, if you don’t mind?” she finally looks up at me and we lock eyes for a moment, I can see she’s shocked and confused, but nods anyway. I look away not wanting to see her reaction to my words. “could maybe one of you reject me today and then allow me to heal for a while, then continue with the second rejection later on down the road. One is going to hurt but two will kill me and I don’t want to die, please.”

The silence between us stretches on, I call the kids and stand. Then I feel those tingles again, she grabbed my hand. I look down at her still on the bench “Amara we can’t...”

I cut her off holding my other hand up, I look down at her on the bench still. “I get that I am a bump in your road that needs dealing with. I just want to be dealt with humanely, you’re established mates. I don’t have much of a say, it is two against one. You don’t need to explain why or anything, I just want to move on. I don’t want to hurt for longer then I need to,” I pull my hand out of hers watching the shock in her eyes turn to hurt. I heard the kids back to the packhouse, while Ashley trails behind slowly.