The scope of love

Chapter 15

There was a knock on my door. I got up. I was still in bed. It’s Saturday and I don’t have anything else to do since I am still not paired with anyone. I opened the door to see Emmett standing there holding a dress.

“A dress for me you shouldn’t have.” I joked. We are at that point where we joke with each other. I see him for at least 6 hours a day. It was bound to happen.

”I didn’t the people from headquarters send it, I’m supposed to take you to an event.” He said straight faced meaning this I important and he doesn’t have time to joke around. I took the dress and slammed the door in his face. I sometimes think that I can see an actual human being behind his program facade. Then he goes and prove me wrong. He is just one of their mindless followers. I put on the dress and look in my mirror. It’s a rose gold dress that goes over one shoulder leaving the other one naked. It sits tight and comes down to my mid thigh. On the left side there is a long skirt over the short one that goes to the floor with different layers of levels. It’s very formal. I quickly did my make-up. It was very minimal and then I curled my hair. I put on some heels and walked out the door.

”It took you long enough.” He complained pushing off from the wall. That wall needs to have a permanent indent from him leaning against it.

”Then you should have told me to get ready earlier.” I said, I only took about half an hour. Which is no time at all. Anyway he should have guessed as much, I’m a girl, I don’t just throw a shirt and pants on and then I’m done.

”We’re going to be late. I already arranged this with the school let’s go.” Today is one of his bad days. I didn’t say anything and just started following him. I can’t even remember the last time I went somewhere far by car that wasn’t with my family. Declan and I used to take a taxi, but we never went father than 15 minutes away from school. Like I said most business opened up near school to cater for the students. We were driving for almost forty five minutes. We parked. I was about to get out, but he grabbed my hand to stop me.

“We are late. When we go in you need to find a seat and sit down as fast as you can. Don’t pull attention to yourself.” I wonder if he thinks I will embarrass him. This must be some program event.

“Fine, let’s just go after all you said that we are late.” I got out of the car and was about to walk away ahead of him. He linked our arms so that we can walk together. Once we were a bit father in I was grateful because the path turned to gravel and I had difficulty keeping my balance with the thin heels I was wearing. He opened the door and we snuck in he lead me to open chairs and we sat down. It was then that I looked up and saw Declan standing in the front of the room. I immediately knew what was happening. I started to get up, but Emmett put his hand on my leg keeping me there.

“It’s a punishment since you haven’t been taking all this seriously.” I whispered to me just as the wedding march came on and the doors opened again. A girl I recognized came walking in she was from his grouping. She was one of the friends I made before I approached Declan. It’s Ashley. He is going to marry Ashley.

“They are watching you, don’t do anything stupid, trust me.” I tried to push the tears away. As I watched the man I love getting married. The words ‘I will always choose you.’ badgering me in my mind as he was choosing someone else. Then came the words you may kiss the bride. Everyone got up and clapped hands as Declan and Ashley kissing. I smiled as I clapped along. I then wiped the tears that was running down my face. While they left to go sign I ran out of there, but Declan must have seen me because I heard him calling my name. I couldn’t make myself stop though. I just kept on running until I reached the car. Just as I reached it, it unlocked meaning that Emmett was right behind me. Suddenly my overwhelming sadness turned to rage and he was the only one who I can direct it at. Doesn’t he see how cruel this was? How can he just go along with a plan like this. I turned around storming toward him. I started pushing against his chest.

”Why would you bring me here?” I screamed at him, my tears still streaming down my cheeks.

“Don’t you have any feeling? How could you sit there next to me and force me to watch that? You knew how much it would hurt and still you didn’t care. I told you how much I loved him, couldn’t you for once just have stood up for me against the program? You could have shown some human decency.” I kept pushing him, I’m a lot smaller than him, but I did manage to make him take a couple of steps back.

“Get in the car Brooke.” Was all he said. I wasn’t going anywhere with him, I’d rather call a taxi and pay an obscene amount of money to get back home. He saw this so he picked me up and carried me to the car. He put me in my seat and slammed the doors. He pushed the button to lock the door so that I couldn’t get out as he walked around to his door. He unlocked the car and got in. I knew I could have jumped out in that moment, but I’m not that childish. I turned away from him and looked out the window as I cried.

“What part of they are watching don’t you understand? You want them to believe you don’t you? You want them to think that you are over him. Yes this was a punishment because even if you started to move on this would have hurt, but more than that it was a test to see if you are trying to move on and you failed completely. If you were trying you would have stood there smiling with tears in your eyes and waited for the other guests to leave. Afterwards you would have congratulated the couple not meaning a word of it and then you would have gone back to the school and cried there.” In what world does he think I would have been able to do that? It’s insane. I wasn’t even going to answer him. He doesn’t even exist to me anymore.

“Do you remember I told you others have tried before you? That others, I was one of them, but I wasn’t smart enough to choose to stay at the school and have a normal life. I told them to bring it on. I fought at every corner and look what it got me. I’m basically their slave. Once you go in there is no escape. They get a hold on you so tightly that you can’t get away. They don’t trust you so they will always keep you in their sights. You made the right choice. Now all you need to do is keep you head down and behave. Do as you are told and then you can at least have a semi normal life. Or do you want to work for the people you hate so much for the rest of your life?” My head snapped to him, because I couldn’t believe what I was hearing.

“You didn’t choose this? Is there really no way out for you?”

Book entry

My heart was destroyed the moment that I saw Ashley in her white dress walking up to Declan, My Declan. The program made a mistake thinking that they can box me in like that and I would stop fighting. All they did was reignite the fire in me. They have created a far bigger problem for themselves than they had before.