The scope of love

Chapter 16

"Of course I didn't, who would choose this life? I'm basically a babysitter. I made a mistake a few years ago and now I'm still paying for it. Of course there's a way out there's always a way out. I can pay with someone get married and then I'm done." I thought about what he was saying. Of course that is the way out. No one can escape the program. It gets swimming around in my head what he was telling me. I never thought that he was someone like me. He had also thought the program and now he's forced to enforce it. He had sounded angry when he explained this to me. We didn't talk the whole way back to the school. I could see that he was in deep thoughts just like me. I can't imagine how difficult this was for him to adjust to being one of their lap dog. I couldn't think about anything else but what he told me. I'll still think about it once we pulled up to the school. We got out of the car and started walking to my room. He grabbed my arm and turned me to look at him.

"Are you okay?" it was a loaded question. I'm heartbroken from seeing the love of my life getting married to someone else and I'm confused about what Emmett told me. I looked up and felt sad for him. He had made the wrong choice. I could have been turned into him. I found thinking everything over again.

"Why are you my bodyguard?" I asked frowning at him.

"Because I was assigned to you." yes but that is the strange part. Why would they assign him to me do they have such a hold on him that they trust him with me. What is I try and seduce him?

"What is your sign?" he didn't answer me he just looked at me.

"Emmett! I asked what is your sign?" this can't be happening.

"I am a Taurus." just as I thought. That is the only reason they trusted him with me. He's a part of my grouping. This has been a trap from the beginning. How couldn't I see this before.

"What is this? Explain this to me! Now, Emmett! I want to know now." I screamed at him. My heart was beating fast, my fists were balled. He slammed his hand over my mouth to get me to keep quiet.

"You are too loud. Everyone can hear you. I will explain everything just shut up for two seconds." He removed his hand and I felt infuriated. If he doesn't start talking in a couple of seconds I will start screaming again.

"They gave me this job because they thought that I'm your type. We are both rebels after all. They thought the program will work itself out and you will fall in love with me. They thought the fact that you didn't know I'm a Taurus you'll fall for me just to prove them wrong again." They tried to trick me.

"And you just went along with this! When would you have told me the truth after we got married? After you used me to get your freedom? I mean we were already becoming closer, all of it a lie." I accused him. I couldn't believe it. Why did I let my guard down.

"I didn't even try, I was against this plan and still as you say we became closer. Maybe they have the right idea with this program. They only made me take you to the wedding because our relationship wasn't growing fast enough." What is wrong with him

How can he say that.

"The right idea! Are you insane!" He grabbed me pulling me against his chest. He grabbed my chin lifting my head up. He bend down putting his lips against mine. He kissed me. I pulled away and then I slapped him. He had no right to do that. I turned around running to my room. I'm done with all of this. As I got in the room I saw Madison on her bed. I locked the door. She sat up frowning at me. I quickly filled her in on what was happening. Then I used her phone to call my parents. I told them what was happening hoping they wouls help me. I begged them once again to put me in a school that doesn't follow the program. It turns out my mother knew everything. Her advice was to just do as I am told and to marry Emmett. Then the program can be rid of two problems. That is what I became a problem. She also told me the program bought their silence and my co-operation. I was even more done after that conversation. I grabbed a bag and started throwing my limited stuff in the bag.

"What are you doing?" Madisom asked as she watched me.

"I'm leaving. I'm done with all of this. I never wanted this." I walked o er to her desk and took her rubik cube. I took it apart and took out the memory card that was inside. I wasn't stupid enough to hide it with all my things. I hid it with Madison thongs because they wouldn't look there. It's a legacy thing. Her sister paved her way. One day I will bring this program down and then they will see the divorce rate skyrocket.

"Thanks for everything, Madison. You have been the best friend, better than I deserved. I hope I'll see you again." She rushed to me throwing her arms around me enveloping me in a big hug.

"Are you sure you want to do this?" She asked, I could hear the tears in her voice. I knew I couldn't see them so I turned around, away from her and walked to the door.

"Yeah I am." I opened the door and stepped out. Against his wall stood Emmett.

"What are you doing?" He said looking at my bag.

"I'm leaving. I'm done with this program, this school, my parents and you." I said as I started walking to the main doors of the school. “You can’t do this! Just stop and think about what you are doing.”He said grabbing my hand to stop me, but I just pulled away from him.

”I am so damn sick of everyone telling me what I can and can’t do. Well I’m doing this, you will watch me walk out that door. It is all I want to do. I should have done it ages ago. I could have saved myself a lot of heart ache and trouble if I did this earlier.” I screamed at him before starting to walk again, I noticed a couple of students coming out of their room to see what the commotion was about.

”If you leave now you will have nothing and you’ll be no one. Is that really what you want your life to be like. I thought you had more aspiration than that!” Emmett yelled right back at me. I turned and looked at him. I was glaring. Did he think that those words would stop me. Those were only words formed by his own fear and inadequacies.

”I actually have the courage to walk. Unlike you who would rather lived a trapped life. A life that goes against what you believe. It’s a meaningless life. I’d rather have nothing than having a life that means nothing! You are a coward, Emmett.” A bunch of students were out in the hall. I didn’t care, I just kept on walking. With all the eyes on me it felt like a walk of shame, but I held my head high, because I won’t be shamed for how I feel. From this moment I live my life the way I want. It is after all my life. I walked right up to the door. I froze for a second before opening the doors and walking out into my future. It’s a better future. It’s a future that I want and need. It’s a future that I wanted to have with Declan. I still can’t believe what I saw today. I can’t believe that he had married someone else. I don’t understand how I can still love him. He has broken my heart and chosen another girl. In the end it seems that he didn’t always choose me, but the truth is that I chose me and I would really always choose myself over and over again. There is nothing more reliant than you, yourself.

Book entry

I opened the doors and it was like opening to a new page in a book. It was a new chapter for me, a better one. Although better things comes to those that wait. I knew it wouldn’t be better instantly and I would have to work at it. If this was a movie the doors I opened would have been flooded wit light as I stepped through it the screen would have faded out or a bunch of students would have walked out with me because they agreed, but this was reality. There was no bright light just honest reality and the students were to scared of the word nothing, but I intended to show them.